nirvasan (1)
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4695] 21&,] nfj;kxat] u;h fnYyh 110 002
'kk[kkv'kksd jktiFk] iVuk 800 004
Qksu% +91 11 23273167 QSDl : +91 11 23275710
NIRVASAN
by Taslima Nasrin
Translated by Amrita Bera
ISBN : 978-93-5072-592-4
Autobiography
2014 rlyhek uljhu fgUnh] ok.kh izdk'ku
izFke laLdj.k
ewY; % ` 395
bl iqLrd ds fdlh Hkh va'k dks fdlh Hkh ek;e esa iz;ksxdjus ds fy, izdk'kd ls fyf[kr vuqefr ysuk vfuok;Z gSA
g"kZ fizaVlZ fnYyh&110 093 esa eqfnzr
ok.kh izdk'ku dk yksxks edcwy fQnk gqlsu dh dwph ls
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J)s; enuthr flag dks4695] 21&,] nfj;kxat] u;h fnYyh 110 002
'kk[kkv'kksd jktiFk] iVuk 800 004
Qksu% +91 11 23273167 QSDl : +91 11 23275710
NIRVASAN
by Taslima Nasrin
Translated by Amrita Bera
ISBN : 978-93-5072-599-3
Autobiography
2014 rlyhek uljhu fgUnh] ok.kh izdk'ku
izFke laLdj.k
ewY; % ` 200
bl iqLrd ds fdlh Hkh va'k dks fdlh Hkh ek;e esa iz;ksxdjus ds fy, izdk'kd ls fyf[kr vuqefr ysuk vfuok;Z gSA
g"kZ fizaVlZ fnYyh&110 093 esa eqfnzr
ok.kh izdk'ku dk yksxks edcwy fQnk gqlsu dh dwph ls
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fuf"k) er] f}[kafMr iFk 9
vpkud ,d fnu 31
x`gcUnh 41
dFkksidFku 52
f[kM+dh ds ml ikj gh [kM+h gS e`R;q 69
fuokZflr Hkhrj Hkh&ckgj Hkh 74
Qs;josy] 22 uoEcj] 2007 79
fujkin ?kj dh dfork 94
Mk;jh ds iUus 116
;gk ugha] ;gk ugha]--- vkSj dgha] fdlh vkSj txg 236
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fuf"k) er] f}[kafMr iFk
gkoZMZ fo'ofo|ky; esa thou dk iwjk ,d lky dqN ,sls chrk ftls u rks vn~Hkqrdgk tk ldrk gS] u peRdkjh vkSj vxj cgqr x;k&xqtjk u dgsa rks cgqr jaxhuHkh ughaA ogha vpkud gh ,d fnu eSaus gkoZMZ ykW Ldwy dh myVh rjQ] 50 ySaXMuLVhV ds ,d lQsn rhu eaftys edku dh] rhljh eafty dks fdjk;s ij ys fy;kA?kj ls iSny gh gkoZMZ dsusMh Ldwy tkrh] dsusMh Ldwy vkWQ xouZesaVA lquk gS gkoZMZdk ;gh lcls egxk o e'kgwj Ldwy gSA ukeh&fxjkeh] egxk] fo[;kr] fojkV;glc 'kCn eq>s vk"V ugha djrsA eSa lcls igys ;g ns[krh gw fd yksx vPNs gSa fdugha] bZekunkj gSa fd ugha vkSj tks muds fny esa gS ogh tqcku ij gS fd ughaA dsusMhLdwy vkWQ ;weu jkbV~l lsaVj esa esjs fy, vkWfQl] MsLd] baVjusV] fizaVj] dkxt&dye]LVsIyj] vkWyfiu vkfn gj NksVh&cM+h pht miyCk gSA vkWfQl dk njoktk[kksydj ckgj fudyrs gh dkWfjMksj esa pk;] dkWQh] fcLdqV dk bUrtkeA uhpsdSQsVsfj;k esa LokLF;o)Zd] ytht [kkukA xys esa gkoZMZ dh vkbZ-Mh- yVdrh gqbZ]ftl ij fy[kk gksrk^ fjlpZ LdkWyj] dsusMh Ldwy] gkoZMZ fo'ofo|ky;*A ;g vkbZ-Mh- tknw dh rjg dke djrhA blds lkFk gkoZMZ ds xfy;kjksa esa dgha Hkh te dj?kwek tk ldrk gSA ogk dh bruh cM+h ykbczsjh ls tc pkgks nqyZHk fdrkcsa yh tkldrh gSa] jkr fdruh Hkh nsj viuh ethZ ls vkWfQl esa le; fcrk;k tk ldrkgSA nks fefuV esa cSad dk [kkrk [kqy tkuk] fdlh Hkh chekjh dk rqjUr bykt gkstkukA D;k dqN ugha!
yxHkx lkjk fnu gh vkWfQl esa jgrhA fnu esa ikl ds fdlh jsLVksjsaV esa [kkuspyh tkrhA dHkh fdlh Hkkjrh; jsLVksjsaV esa] dHkh lkns ls fdlh vesfjdu jsLVksjsaVesa] dHkh lh QwMA 'kke dks rSjus tkrh ;k fQj yksxksa ds O;ofLFkr ;k vLrO;Lrthou dks ns[krs&nk[krs cgqr&lk jkLrk vueuh&lh iSny pyrh gwA otu ipklfdyksA thal vkSj VkWiA ns[kus esa uo;qorhA [+kwclwjr Qsyks gkoZMZ] xzsx dkj ds lkFknksLrh gksrs&gksrs ugha gksrh gSA mUgksaus LVsfM;e esa vius ikl fcBkdj] gkoZMZ vkSjczku ds QqVckWy ds [ksy ds ckjs esa le>k;k] cgqr fnuksa rd LohVh&O;hVh dgdjdkQh bZ&esy fd;s] Qjkjh esa ?kj vk;s] vius isaV gkml esa vkus dk fueU=k.k fn;kA
fuf"k) er] f}[kafMr iFk % 9
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10 % fuokZlu
ij vpkud] irk ugha fdl otg ls] 'kk;n vesfjdk dk bjkd esa ce fxjkuk eq>sBhd ugha yxk ;k fd bl fo"k; ij eSaus dkQh ftjg dh blfy,] yxHkx fcYdqygh feyuk&tqyuk cUn dj fn;kA bruk izse vpkud ,d iy esa gh dkQwj gks x;kAcM+s yksxksa ds 'kkSd o muds jax&s dgha nwj ?kqekus ys x;s FksA ogk tkdj mudsckjs esa] esjs eu esa tSlh kkj.kk us tUe fy;k] flQZ mldk Li"V o.kZu fd;k Fkk,d txg] eSaus viuh fdrkc esaA bldks ysdj muds ukjkt gksus dk dksbZ dkj.keq>s ugha fn[krk] ij eSaus lquk fd xqLls esa og ,d ydM+cX?ks dh rjg xqjkZ jgs FksA;g ckr lcls igys crkbZ] iqLrd ds izdk'kd estckgqhu usA mudk viuh lkyhds lkFk tks xksiuh; lEcU/k gS] eq>s mls Nqikuk pkfg, Fkk] ij eSaus ugha Nqik;kAlS;n gd dh ukjktxh dh otg flQZ ;gh gSA mudh lkyh dks ysdj fdrkc esalEHkor% flQZ ,d gh okD; gS] cl ml okD; dks iwB gS] vkSj cl] nl djksM+ Vkdk dk eqdek Bksad fn;kAos lc txg lk{kkRdkj ns dj jgs gSa fd] ^rlyhek us esjk pfj=k guu fd;k gS]eku&lEeku kwy esa feyk fn;k gSA ,d ys[kd ds fglkc ls] 52 lky dh mez esatks lEeku eSaus vftZr fd;k Fkk og vkt kwykwlfjr gks pqdk gSA blds ihNs t:jdksbZ jgL; gSA ugha rks og ns'k ds brus lEekfur ys[kd o lq'khy lekt dsizfrfufk;ksa ds fo#) fy[kus dk lkgl u dj ikrhaA esjs eu esa vk;k fd izfrokndjuk t:jh gS] blhfy, ekeyk nk;j dj viuk izfrokn trk;k gSA rlyhek dhfdrkc esa bl rjg ds vkSj ftu yksxksa ds uke gSa] eSa mEehn djrk gw fd os Hkh dksbZu dksbZ dne mBk,xsA eSaus vius ckjs esa lksp fy;k gS] eSa dkuwu dk lgkjk ywxkA*
ch-ch-lh- ls Qksu vk;k esjh jk; tkuus ds fy,] eq>s lquok;k x;k] lquhyxaxksik;k; vkSj lS;n gd us esjs f[kykQ tks Hkh cnukeh dhA nksuksa dh vkoktesa ksk] ?k`.kk] HkksaMkiu vkSj vk{ksi FkkA gks ldrk gS fd lS;n 'kE'kqy gd mudsxksiu lR; ds mtkxj gks tkus ls] vius fgr&vfgr ds ckjs esa gks'kksgokl [kksdj]ph[k dj] dwn dj] xkyh nsdj] Fkwd dj] ekeyk nk;j dj le>kuk pkgrs gksa fd]muds ckjs esa eSaus tks dqN Hkh fy[kk] og lc xyr gS] ij lquhy xaxksik;k; dksysdj ,slh dksbZ ckr ugha gS fdrkc esa! mUgsa bruh ukjktxh D;w! og rks fdlh^iq#"k j{kk lfefr* ds lnL; Hkh ughaA mUgksaus ckj&ckj dgk gS] ^nks O;fDr;ksasa dschp] njoktk cUn dj tks Hkh ?kVrk gS] mls ckgj izdk'k esa ugha ykuk pkfg,A* tksckgj izdk'k esa u yk;k tk lds] ,slk dke vijkkh gh djrs gSa vkSj vijkfk;ksadks cpkus dh ftEesnkjh] fdlus dgk gS fd gj vkSjr dks gh ysuh gksxh! vkx tSls,d taxy ls nwljs taxy] gok ls Hkh T;knk rsth ls QSy tkrh gS] oSlk gh gqvkAdydkk esa Hkh lkfgR; egy ds ,dka'k esa cnukeh dh vkkh cg pyh vkSj blvkkh ds nsork] tSlk dqN yksxksa us crk;k fd Lo;a lquhy gh Fks tcfd eSaus mudhfdlh Hkh ckr dk inkZQk'k ugha fd;k] ij 'kk;n bl Mj ls fd dgha viuh vxyhfdrkcksa esa u dj nw] mUgksaus ,slk lkspk fd] vxj eq>s cSu dj] [kkfjt dj] R;kxdj] cfg"r dj esjs ikBdksa ds vkxs eq>s >wBk] v;ksX;] O;kogkfjd cqf) ls jfgr]
fuf"k) er] f}[kafMr iFk % 11
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12 % fuokZlu
xSj&ftEesnkj ys[kd fn[kk;k tk lds] rks fQj esjh ckrksa ij dksbZ fo'okl ugha djsxkvkSj bl rjg esjk fy[kk gqvk ius okyk eu] fdrkc fy[kus ls igys tSlk Fkk] oSlk ghjgk] dksbZ cnyko ugha vk;kA esjs ckjs esa >wB cksyus esa] gqek;w vktkn dks dksbZijs'kkuh ugha gksrhA os fo'ofo|ky; ds izksQslj gSa] dg fn;k] ^ rlyhek ds vkoktnsus ij eSaus dHkh tokc ugha fn;kA* tSls fd eSaus dHkh] fdlh fnu mUgsa vkokt nhgS] cqyk;k gSA ,d MkWDVj] ij ls ,d yksdfiz; ysf[kdk] lkfgR; iqjLdkj dslkFk&lkFk sA lejs'k etqenkj us fy[kk] ^rdjhcu uCcs lky igys dydkk dslksukxkNh esa ,d e'kgwj os';k jgrh FkhaA mudk uke Fkk] uUnjkuhA dydkk dsyxHkx lHkh izfl) O;fDr;ksasa dk vkuk&tkuk Fkk muds ikl] vo'; gh [kjhnnkjds fglkc lsA vxj mUgksaus bu lcksa dks ysdj miU;kl fy[kus dh lksph gksrh] rksog cgqr igys gh dj ldrh FkhaA ijUrq mUgksaus vius O;fDrxr thou esa]lkekftd :i ls pqi jgdj Hknzrk vkSj lkStU; dk ifjp; fn;k] ij rlyhekuljhu] uUnjkuh dh ml vkRelEekucksk dh lgHkkxh ugha gks ldhaA rlyhek uslkM+h cnyus dh rjg iq#"k cnys gSaA ekufld lEidZ dh txg ftLekuh lEcUkij tksj nsrh vk;h gSaA lkkkj.k vkSjrsa muds bl nq'pfj=krk ds ckjs esa ugha tkuldha] oSls lcdks cksyus dh vktknh gSA rlyhek us dgk] ge yksxksa us lquk] ijfopkj djus dh {kerk vius ij fuHkZj djrh gSA ?kj ds vUnj nksLrksa&cUkqvksa dslkFk xkyh&xykSt fd;k tk ldrk gS] ij [kqysvke djus ls mls v'yhyrk dgk
fuf"k) er] f}[kafMr iFk % 13
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14 % fuokZlu
tkrk gSA vc mUgksaus tks ljsvke dgk gS] ,d le; esa mu dkeksa esa mudh [kqn dhHkh lg;ksfxrk jgh gSA mudk vly ms'; Fkk fdrkc dh fch vkSj izpkjA* oghads dfo lqcksk ljdkj us fy[kk] ^mUgksaus LohMu ls ^d* uke dk ;kSu ce Hkstk gSs ugha irk fd esjs vykok] mUgksaus fdlh vkSjdks Hkh viuh bl ilUn dh ckr crkbZ ;k ughaA
efYydk lsuxqIrk] u;h ukjhoknh dof;=kh us fy[kk] ^ blesa flQZ lksus ds fy,lksuk gSA ,d ds ckn ,d lwphA ;g dksbZ vkRethouh ugha gks ldrhA blesafdruk lp gS] ugha tkurhA bldk dkj.k gS fd vrhr esa Hkh bldh lR;rk ijla'k; FkkA blesa lkfgfR;d bZekunkjh ,oa ukjhoknh lPpkbZ] esjs fglkc ls lkQ ugha
gSaA gj lEcU/k rlyhek us [kqn gh cuk;k gSA dgk fdlds lkFk lks;ha] fdlds lkFkD;k fd;k] og jksekapdkjh rks gS] ij mlesa dksbZ fo'ks"krk ugha gSA rlyhek ds blthouys[k ij yksxksa dh vkLFkk [kRe gks x;h gSA lksus ds dejs dh nwljh dgkfu;kHkh gSa] ij mudh tSlh jaxhu Hkk"kk esa fy[kus dh #fp lcdh ugha gks ldrhA ;kdgsa fd ugha gS blhfy, lkfgR; fVdk gqvk gSA rlyhek ds lksus ds dejs ls dghaT;knk cM+h txg ij ukjhokn dh yM+kbZ ftUnk gSA*
xkSre ?kks"k nfLrnkj dks fe=k&dfo gh le>rh FkhA mUgksaus ^ f}[kafMrks* ds ckjsesa fy[kk] ^ ;g vUrfoZjksk] lpsru ;qfDrghurk] vkZlR;] v'yhyrk vkSj fuyZTtrkgh rlyhek dk pfj=k gSA ewY;cksk ds lekukFkhZ dksbZ 'kCn rlyhek ds 'kCndks'kesa ugha gSA [;kfr] [;kfr vkSj [;kfr ds vykok vkSj dksbZ y{; ughaA cnukeh dksHkh og ;'k le>rh gSaA urhtru lR; ds cgkus viuh thou dgkuh fy[krs gq,u dsoy [kqn dks gh uXu dj fn[kkrh gSa] cfYd nwljksa dks Hkh uXu djrh gSaA ;ghaewY;ckskghurk mtkxj gksrh gSA vxj ge mudh bu ;kSuxkFkkvksa dks lp Hkh ekuysa] rc Hkh iz'u mBrk gS fd] ;g xksiuh; dke og izdk'; esa dj ldrh gSa ;kugha o mlls lEcU/k pkgs tSo gh gks dh r; 'krsaZ VwVrh gSa fd ughaA oSls rlyhekls bu lc LokHkkfod o`fk;ksa dh vk'kk djuk O;FkZ gSA 'kq: ls gh bl rjg dkewY;cksk muds vUnj x