suyadharisanam (autobiography of siddha raj kumar guruji) (book)

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1 01. RajÇrd« jd;id mwpe;jpd;gKw ntz;zpyhNt> vd;W ghbdhu; N[hjp ,uhkypq;f mbfshu;. ~ehd; ahu;? ehd; Vd; gpwe;Njd;?| vd ,iltplhky;> cd;idNa eP Nfl;Lg;ghu;? tpil fpilf;Fk;> vd;whu; gfthd; Gj;ju;. mtu;fs; nrhd;dJ Qhd top! ehd; mjw;Fs; GFtjw;F Kd;du;> cyftopapy;> Ra rupj;jpuk; vd;w tifapy;> ,J tiu> ehd; fle; J te; j ghijia> rw; W jpUk; gpg; ghu; f; fpd; Nwd; . jkpo;ehl;L fhty; Jiwapy;> ciog;ghYk;> rhjidfshYk;> gygbfs; cau; e; J rpwe; j NghyP ]; Mgp]u; > vd; W nganuLj; jNjhL> rpwe;j kdpjuhfTk; tho;e;j jpU. Rg;gpukzpak; mtu;fsps; eL kfd; ehd; . vd; id fUr; Rke; j md; idapd; ngau; gj; khtjp. mtu; fspd; mUe;jtj;jhy; gpwe;j> jtg;Gjy;td;jhd; ,e;j ,uh[ Fkhud;!.. xU fhyj;jpy; gs;spg; gbg;G vd;idf; iftpl;lJ. vd; ePz;l ehs; fdTfs; vd;id jpiuAyfpy; js;sptpl;lJ. cjtpahsdhf Nru;e;J> mN]h]pNal; iluf;lu;> vd;w epiy tiu cau;e;Njd;. Vuhskhd ez; gu; fs; > vd; Dld; gzpahw; wpa vy; NyhUf; Fk; vd; id kpfTk; gpbf; Fk; . ehd; ,Uf; Fk; ,lk; vg; NghJk; fyfyg; ghf ,Uf; Fk; . vy; yhk; ,d; gkak; > fly; kP d; fs; > Nfhop$TJ Nghd; w ntw; wpfukhd glq; fspy; gzpahw; wpNdd; . mg; Nghnjy; yhk; vq; fs; FLk; gk; > jhk; guj; jpy; trpj; J te; jJ. mq; fpUe; J nrd; idf; F Ntiyf; F te; J nry; Ntd; . xU ehs; V.tp.vk; ];^bNahtpy; (1981 etk;gu; khjk; vd;W epidf;fpd;Nwd;) Nfhop $TJ glj;jpw;fhd vbl;bq; Ntiy ele;Jnfhz;bUe;jJ. mg;NghJ jpU. jdghy; vd;w ebfu; mq;F te;jhu;. mtu; ~~xU rpj;jiu ghu;j;J tpl;L tUfpd;Nwhk;|| vd;whu;. mJ tiu> rhkpahu;fs; gw;wpa gw;W> vd;dplk; ,Ue;jjpy;iy. Mdhy; md;W vd;dNth> vd;idawpahky;> xU jPg;nghwp gwe;jhw;Nghy;> Mty; jiy Jhf;fpaJ> tptuk; Nfl;Nld;. rpj;ju; ngau; jiyahl;b rpj;ju;! rj;ah ];^bNahtpw;F gf;fj;jpy; cs;s [_gplu; gpf; ]u; ]; mYtyfj; jpy; jq; fp ,Uf; fpd; whu; . rpj; j itj; jpak; nra;fpd;whu;. jPuhj Neha;fs; mtuhy; Fzkhf;fg; gLtjhfTk; gjpy; fpilj;jJ. ebfu; jdghy; jiyahl;b rpj;ju; nrd;idapypUf;fpwhu;. cd;idg;gw;wp nrhy;yp ,Uf;Nfd; clNd th vd;wJk;> FUit ghu;f;f (tpahod; md;W) ntWk; ifapy; Nghff; $lhJ vd;W MW yl;Lf;fis thq;fpg; NghNdd;. 2 02. f©nl‹ á¤j® bgUkhid jha; gRitj; Njb XLk; fd;wpd; kd epiyapy; rpj;ju; jq;fpapUe;j ,lj;jpw;F XbNdd;. mq;F mwpKfkpy;yhj gyu; ,Ue;jdu;. mg;NghJ jpU.jdghy;> rpj;ju; ngUkhDf;F vd;id mwpKfg;gLj;jpdhu;. ehd; mtu; fhypy; tpOe;J tzq;fpNdd;. ~th> uh[h th! uh[h te;jhr;R| vd;W $wpathNw vd;id tho;j;jp tpG+jp nfhLj;jhu;. xU rQ;rPtp ijyk; %d;W nrhl;L nfhLj;jhu;. %d;W ehs; vd; cly;> kdk;> ky[yk; midj;Jk; thridaha;> Mr;rupaKkha; ,Ue;jJ. mtu; vd;dplk; neLehs; gofpatiug; Nghy; re;Njh\khf vd;id ~uh[h| vd;wJld; ~uh[h te;jhr;R| vd;W nrhd;dJ vd;id jpiff;f itj;jJ. ehd; tUNtd; vd;W mtu; vjpu;ghu;j;J fhj;jpUe;jijg; Nghy; ~uh[h te;jhr;r| vd;whNu - Vd;? ,g;NghJjhNd ,tiu Kjd; Kjyhf re;jpj;Njhk; vd;W Fok; gpathNw ehd; mtu; vjpNu mku; e; J ,Ue; jtu; fSld; mku; e; J nfhz;Nld;. Neuk; fle;J nfhz;bUe;jJ. Mdhy; mq;fpUe;J Gwg;gl kdk; ,lk; nfhLf;ftpy;iy. xUthW tpil ngw;W tPL jpUk;gpNdd;. nja;tj; jpUkfd; = jiyahl;b rpj;ju; ngUkhd; Rkhu; ehd;fiu mb cauk;> fupa epwk;> euk;Gfshy; Md clk;Ngh vd;W> vz;Zk; tifapy; Gilj;njOe;j euk;GfshfTk;> nkype;j clyhfTk; fhl;rp je;jhu;. jiyapy; [lhKb (Rkhu; Ie;jb ePsk;) mij> jiyiar; Rw; wp fl; bapUe; jhu; . clypy; xU kQ; rs; epwj; jpy; njhsnjhsntd xU eP z; l mq; fp> Koq; fhYf; Fk; > fZf; fhYf; Fk; ,ilapy; njhq; fpa> xU gr; irNtl; b> ,Lg; gpy; xU fyu; > jiyapy; jiyg;ghif xU fyu;> Nky; Jz;L xU fyu; Mf Ie;J tif fyUld; Mil mzpthu;. ,J jhd; mtupd; KOj; Njhw;wk;!. vy;NyhuplKk;> Foe;ij Nghy fyfyntdg; NgRthu;. Njb tUgtu;fis md;Gld; elj;Jthu;> tpahjpfSf;F kUe;jspg;ghu;. ~,dp! NehNa ,Uf;fhJ> Ngh|> vd;W ek;gpf;if Cl;b mDg;Gthu;. rpj;ju; ngUkhdpd; M];ukk;> nrd;idapypUe;J cSe;J}u; Ngl;il topahf> jpUr;rp nry;Yk; Njrpa neLQ;rhiyapy;> jpUr;rpf;F Kd; cs;s> nguk;gYhu; vDk; CUf;F ntspNa fhl;Lg; gFjpapy; ,Uf;fpwJ. fhrp vd;gtu; rhkpapd; gukgf;ju; ,tu; > fhyQ; nrd; w GfOf; Fupa [_gplu; NrhkRe; juk; mtu; fspd; Gjy;tu;. jw;Nghija rj;ah ];^bNah> Gul;rpj; jiytu; mkuu; vk;.[p. Mupd; ifapy; tUtjw;F Kd;du; me;j ];^bNahtpd;

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Page 1: Suyadharisanam (Autobiography of Siddha Raj Kumar Guruji) (Book)

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01. RajÇrd«

jd;id mwpe;jpd;gKw ntz;zpyhNt> vd;W ghbdhu; N[hjp,uhkypq;f mbfshu;. ~ehd; ahu;? ehd; Vd; gpwe;Njd;?| vd,iltplhky;> cd;idNa eP Nfl;Lg;ghu;? tpil fpilf;Fk;> vd;whu;gfthd; Gj;ju;. mtu;fs; nrhd;dJ Qhd top! ehd; mjw;Fs;GFtjw;F Kd;du;> cyftopapy;> Ra rupj;jpuk; vd;w tifapy;>,J tiu> ehd; fle;J te;j ghijia> rw;W jpUk;gpg; ghu;f;fpd;Nwd;.

jkpo;ehl;L fhty; Jiwapy;> ciog;ghYk;> rhjidfshYk;>gygbfs; cau;e;J rpwe;j NghyP]; Mgp]u;> vd;W nganuLj;jNjhL>rpwe;j kdpjuhfTk; tho;e;j jpU. Rg;gpukzpak; mtu;fsps; eLkfd; ehd;. vd;id fUr;Rke;j md;idapd; ngau; gj;khtjp. mtu;fspd;mUe;jtj;jhy; gpwe;j> jtg;Gjy;td;jhd; ,e;j ,uh[ Fkhud;!..

xU fhyj;jpy; gs;spg; gbg;G vd;idf; iftpl;lJ. vd; ePz;lehs; fdTfs; vd;id jpiuAyfpy; js;sptpl;lJ. cjtpahsdhfNru;e;J> mN]h]pNal; iluf;lu;> vd;w epiy tiu cau;e;Njd;.Vuhskhd ez;gu;fs;> vd;Dld; gzpahw;wpa vy;NyhUf;Fk; vd;idkpfTk; gpbf;Fk;. ehd; ,Uf;Fk; ,lk; vg;NghJk; fyfyg;ghf ,Uf;Fk;.

vy;yhk; ,d;gkak;> fly;kPd;fs;> Nfhop$TJ Nghd;w ntw;wpfukhdglq;fspy; gzpahw;wpNdd;. mg;Nghnjy;yhk; vq;fs; FLk;gk;> jhk;guj;jpy;trpj;J te;jJ. mq;fpUe;J nrd;idf;F Ntiyf;F te;J nry;Ntd;.

xU ehs; V.tp.vk; ];^bNahtpy; (1981 etk;gu; khjk; vd;Wepidf;fpd;Nwd;) Nfhop $TJ glj;jpw;fhd vbl;bq; Ntiyele;Jnfhz;bUe;jJ. mg;NghJ jpU. jdghy; vd;w ebfu; mq;Fte;jhu;. mtu; ~~xU rpj;jiu ghu;j;J tpl;L tUfpd;Nwhk;|| vd;whu;.mJ tiu> rhkpahu;fs; gw;wpa gw;W> vd;dplk; ,Ue;jjpy;iy.Mdhy; md;W vd;dNth> vd;idawpahky;> xU jPg;nghwpgwe;jhw;Nghy;> Mty; jiy Jhf;fpaJ> tptuk; Nfl;Nld;. rpj;ju;ngau; jiyahl;b rpj;ju;! rj;ah ];^bNahtpw;F gf;fj;jpy; cs;s[_gplu; gpf;]u;]; mYtyfj;jpy; jq;fp ,Uf;fpd;whu;. rpj;j itj;jpak;nra;fpd;whu;. jPuhj Neha;fs; mtuhy; Fzkhf;fg; gLtjhfTk;gj py ; f pilj ;jJ. ebfu ; jdghy ; jiyahl ;b r pj ;ju ;nrd;idapypUf;fpwhu;. cd;idg;gw;wp nrhy;yp ,Uf;Nfd; clNdth vd;wJk;> FUit ghu;f;f (tpahod; md;W) ntWk; ifapy;Nghff; $lhJ vd;W MW yl;Lf;fis thq;fpg; NghNdd;.

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02. f©nl‹ á¤j® bgUkhid

jha; gRitj; Njb XLk; fd;wpd; kd epiyapy; rpj;ju;jq;fpapUe;j ,lj;jpw;F XbNdd;. mq;F mwpKfkpy;yhj gyu;,Ue;jdu;. mg;NghJ jpU.jdghy;> rpj;ju; ngUkhDf;F vd;idmwpKfg;gLj;jpdhu;. ehd; mtu; fhypy; tpOe;J tzq;fpNdd;.~th> uh[h th! uh[h te;jhr;R| vd;W $wpathNw vd;id tho;j;jptpG+jp nfhLj;jhu;. xU rQ;rPtp ijyk; %d;W nrhl;L nfhLj;jhu;.%d;W ehs; vd; cly;> kdk;> ky[yk; midj;Jk; thridaha;>Mr;rupaKkha; ,Ue;jJ.

mtu; vd;dplk; neLehs; gofpatiug; Nghy; re;Njh\khfvd;id ~uh[h| vd;wJld; ~uh[h te;jhr;R| vd;W nrhd;dJ vd;idjpiff;f itj;jJ. ehd; tUNtd; vd;W mtu; vjpu;ghu;j;Jfhj;jpUe;jijg; Nghy; ~uh[h te;jhr;r| vd;whNu - Vd;?,g;NghJjhNd ,tiu Kjd; Kjyhf re;jpj;Njhk; vd;WFok;gpathNw ehd; mtu; vjpNu mku;e;J ,Ue;jtu;fSld; mku;e;Jnfhz;Nld;. Neuk; fle;J nfhz;bUe;jJ. Mdhy; mq;fpUe;JGwg;gl kdk; ,lk; nfhLf;ftpy;iy. xUthW tpil ngw;W tPLjpUk;gpNdd;.

nja;tj; jpUkfd; = jiyahl;b rpj;ju; ngUkhd; Rkhu;ehd;fiu mb cauk;> fupa epwk;> euk;Gfshy; Md clk;Nghvd;W> vz;Zk; tifapy; Gilj;njOe;j euk;GfshfTk;> nkype;jclyhfTk; fhl;rp je;jhu;. jiyapy; [lhKb (Rkhu; Ie;jb ePsk;)mij> jiyiar; Rw;wp fl;bapUe;jhu;. clypy; xU kQ;rs; epwj;jpy;njhsnjhsntd xU ePz;l mq;fp> Koq;fhYf;Fk;> fZf;fhYf;Fk;,ilapy; njhq;fpa> xU gr;irNtl;b> ,Lg;gpy; xU fyu;> jiyapy;jiyg;ghif xU fyu;> Nky; Jz;L xU fyu; Mf Ie;J tiffyUld; Mil mzpthu;. ,J jhd; mtupd; KOj; Njhw;wk;!.vy;NyhuplKk;> Foe;ij Nghy fyfyntdg; NgRthu;. NjbtUgtu;fis md;Gld; elj;Jthu;> tpahjpfSf;F kUe;jspg;ghu;.~,dp! NehNa ,Uf;fhJ> Ngh|> vd;W ek;gpf;if Cl;b mDg;Gthu;.

rpj;ju; ngUkhdpd; M];ukk;> nrd;idapypUe;J cSe;J}u;Ngl;il topahf> jpUr;rp nry;Yk; Njrpa neLQ;rhiyapy;>jpUr;rpf;F Kd; cs;s> nguk;gYhu; vDk; CUf;F ntspNafhl;Lg; gFjpapy; ,Uf;fpwJ. fhrp vd;gtu; rhkpapd; gukgf;ju;

,tu;> fhyQ;nrd;w GfOf;Fupa [_gplu; NrhkRe;juk; mtu;fspd;Gjy;tu;. jw;Nghija rj;ah ];^bNah> Gul;rpj; jiytu; mkuu;vk;.[p. Mupd; ifapy; tUtjw;F Kd;du; me;j ];^bNahtpd;

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ngau;> neg;bA+d; ];^bNah]; vd;gjhFk;. jq;fg;gJik>murpsq;Fkhup Nghd;w ngupa ebfu;fs; ebj;j glq;fs; vy;yhk;jahuhd ,lk;. je;ijf;F gpwF fhrp mtu;fs;> gyntw;wpg;glq;fisj; jahupj;jtu;. Fwpg;ghf Nf.ghyre;ju; mtu;fs;,af;fj;jpy; ntspte;j> ~ghkhtp[ak;| vd;w ntw;wp glk;.

];^bNahit tpw;w gpd; - jpU fhrp mtu;fs; [_gplu;gpf;ru;];Mgp]pNyNa jdJ mYtyfj;ij elj;jpf; nfhz;bUe;jhu;fs;.rj;ah ];^bNahtpd; gf;fj;J fhk;gTz;by; ,aq;fp te;j> fhrpmtu;fspd; mYtyfj;jpw;F> rpj;ju; Rthkpfs;> khjk; xU Kiwte;J> xU thu fhyk; jq;FtJ tof;fk;. mq;F rpj;ju; mtu;fs;jq;fp ,Uf;Fk; tiu> mtiuf; fhz tUNthUf;F jpdKk; fhiy>kjpak;> ,uT czTg; ge;jpfs; elf;Fk;. ,ijnay;yhk; ghu;j;Jnfhz;L Rthkpfs;> mikjpahf jpahdpj;Jf; nfhz;bUg;ghu;.

Rthkpfs; tUk; NghJ vy;yhk; mtUf;F gzpGupgtu;fSk;tUthu;fs;. gpd;du; mtu; nguk;gYhu; nry;Yk; NghJ> mtu;fSk;$lr; nrd;WtpLthu;fs;. mtu;fspy; Rthkpfsplk; kpfTk;neUf;fkhf ,Ue;j ez;gu; ngau; jpU. fy;ahz Re;juk; mtu;fs;.Rthkpfs; nrd;id tUk; Nghnjy;yhk; ehDk; jtwhky; nrd;Wrpj;juplk; Nru;e;J tpLNtd;. mtUf;F gzptpilfs; nra;Ntd;.,jdhy; ehd; mq;F tUk; vy;NyhUf;Fk; mwpKfkhNdd;. vdf;FNtz;batu;fs;> cwtpdu;fs;> ez;gu;fs;> rpdpkh cyf ez;gu;fs;gyiur; rpj;ju; ngUkhdplk; mioj;Jr; nrd;W> mtu;fspd;Neha;fSf;F kUe;J thq;fp jUtJ vd tof;fkhf ,Ue;jJ.kUj ;Jtj ;j p w ;F vd ;W > rhk pfs ; ahu plKk ; njhifepu ;zapg;gjpy;iy. rpyu;> mtu;fshfNt xU njhifianfhLg;ghu;fs;. mij mtu; jd; ifahy; thq;f khl;lhu;. mtUld;tUgtu;fs;> mijg; ngw;Wf; nfhs;thu;fs;. ,d;Dk; rpyu;> ~ehd;vd;d ju Ntz;Lk;?| vd;W Nfl;ghu;fs;. mjw;F rpj;ju; ngUkhd;>~md;djhdj;jpw;F cq;fshy; vd;d nghUs; thq;fpj; ju KbANkh>mij thq;fpj; jhUq;fs;| vd;W Gd;difNahL nrhy;thu;!,ijf;fz;l vdf;F ,f;fhyj;jpy; ,g;gb xUtuh? vd;Wmjprahkha; ,Uf;Fk;! mjdhy; rpj;juplk; vd; <LghLmjpfkhfpaJ. rpj;ju; ngUkhDlNdNa ,Uf;f Ntz;Lk; vd;wvz;zk; ehs; NjhWk; vd;Ds; tsu;e;J nfhz;Nl ,Ue;jJ.Mdhy; mjw;fhd rkak; rupahf mikatpy;iy. NkYk;me;Neuj;jpy; ,af;Fdu; fq;if mkud; mtu;fspd; ,af;fj;jpy;ehiye;J glq;fs; njhlu;e;J Ntiy ele;J te;jjhy; vdf;FXa;T fpilf;fNt ,y;iy. ,Ug;gpDk; rpj;ju; ngUkhd; nrd;idte;Jtpl;lhy; vg;gbahtJ rkhspj;J mtuplk; nrd;W tpLNtd;.

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rpdpkh cyfpd; neUq;fpa ez;gu;fs; rpyu; vd;idf; NfypNgRthu;fs;. ~~thq;f rpd;d rpj;ju;||> vd;W tuNtw;W rpupg;ghu;fs;.Mdhy; ehd; mtu;fis fz;L nfhs;tjpy;iy. vd; FLk;gk;>ehd; rpj;jiu ehb XLtJ fz;L vjpu;g;G njuptpf;fNt nra;jJ.ehd; ngupa ebfdhfNth> my;yJ ngupa rpdpkh ,af;FduhfNthtUNtd; vd;W fdT fz;ltu;fs; mtu;fs;. mNjhL FLk;gj;jpd;eL kfdhd ehd; vq;Nf. rhkpahuhfp tpLNtNdh? vd;WmQ;rpdhu;fs;> je;ijahUf;Nfh gzpapypUe;J Xa;T ngw ,d;Dk;rpy Mz;LfNs ,Ue;j epiyapy; kfd; jiyahl;b rpj;jUf;Fmbikahfp fplf;fpd;whNd> kfDf;F jpUkzj;ij Kbj;J> FLk;gnghWg;ig xg;gilf;fyhk; vd;why;> ,td; Jwtp gpd;dhy; nry;yj;njhlq;fp tpl;lhNd vd;nwy;yhk; Ntjidg; gl;ldu;. Mdhy;,njy;yhk; vd;idf; nfhQ;rk; $l ghjpf;ftpy;iy.

xUKiw jpU. ,isauh[htpd; ez;gu; nrse;ju;> fd;dpahFkhupkhak;kh> NfhbRthkp> Nahfpuhk; #uj;Fkhu; Rthkp MfpNahiu(Gifg;glk;) Nghl;Nlh vLj;J> filrpapy; jiyahl;b rpj;jiuGifg;glk; vLf;f vd;idf; Nfl;lhu;.

mbNaDk;> Rthkp> ,tu; ,isauh[htpd; ez;gu; ,tu;cq;fis Gifg;glk; vLf;f tpUg;gg;gLfpd;whu; vd;Nwd;. rupGifg;glk; vLj;jhy; vdf;Fk; gpupz;l; Nghl;Lf; nfhLq;fs; vd;whu;.mtu; rpj;jiu ehd;F Nghl;Nlh vLj;J gpupz;l; Nghl;L nfhLg;gjhf$wpr; nrd;whu;. mtu; cldbahfg; Nghl;Nlhitj; juhjjhy; ehd;mbf;fb Nghl;Nlh Nfl;gij xU khjpupaha; epidj;jhu;.

vd; njhe;juT jhq;f Kbahky; Nghl;Nlhit ehis jUfpNwd;vd;W $wpg; NghdtUf;Fk; xU mDgtk; Vw;gl;lJ. mtu; Nuhiyf;fOTtjw;F NfkuhtpypUe;J vLf;Fk; NghJ> mJ jtwp tpOe;Jvf;];Nghrhfp ve;j glKk; tutpy;iy.

clNd Xb te;J rpj;jiu ghu;j;jhu;. Mjw;F rpj;ju;> ~vd;dg;ghrpdpkhf;fhuu;fshd cq;fshy; vd;Dila xU Nghl;Nlhitf;nfhLf;f Kbatpy;iyah?| vd;W rpupj;Jf; nfhz;Nl Nfl;lhu;.xU ehs; nrd;idapy; rpj;ju; jq;fpapUe;j rkak; mtUld; jdpikahf,Uf;Fk; xU ey;y re;ju;g;gk; mike;jJ. mg;NghJ rpj;ju; ngUkhd;fQ;rh Gifj;Jf; nfhz;L ,Ue;jhu;. tof;fk; Nghy tpuy;fshy;fdiy rpYk;gpf;Fs; mOj;jpf; nfhz;bUe;jhu;.

rpj;ju; mtu;fs; mbf;fb fQ;rh Gifg;ghu;! xU kzpj;jpahyj;jpy;1fp fQ;rh gpbj;J Kbg;ghu;. fQ;rh rpYk;gpapy; fdWk; neUg;igjk; tpuy;fshy; VNjh gQ;ir mOj;JtJ Nghy; mOj;Jthu;.,ijf; fz;L ehd; tpae;J NghNtd;! xU Ntis> ,g;gb fQ;rh

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Fbj;jhy; ehKk; rpj;juhfp tplyhNkh! vd;nwy;yhk; mtu; Gifg;gijfz;L ehd; rpe;jpj;J cz;L.

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ehd;> ehKk; Giff;fyhNkh> vd;nwOe;j vz;zj;ij kdjpypUe;JJilj;njwptJ Nghy;. me;j kfhd; fhy;fspy; tPo;e;J tzq;fpNdd;jpU.fiythzd; fz;zjhrd; mth;fs;> mkuh; jpU.ftpauRfz;zjhrd; mth;fspd; Gjy;th;fspy; xUth; Kd;dhs; ,af;Fdh;G.N.uq;fuh[d; mth;fsplk; cjtpahsuhf gzpahw;wpath;> vd;DilaneUq;fpa ez;gh;. mtUf;F ,af;Fdh; tha;g;G xd;W te;jJ. GJg;glk;vLf;f Maj;jq;fs; Kbe;J glg;gpbg;G Jtq;Fk; Neuk; neUq;fpaJ.mjdhy; mtiu mioj;Jr; nrd;W rpj;jhplk; Mrpngw itf;fyhk;vd;w vz;zj;Jld; ez;giu nguk;gY}hpy; rpj;jh; ngUkhdplk;mioj;Jr; nrd;Nwd;. ehq;fs; rpj;jh; mth;fspd; M];ukj;jpw;Fs;Eioe;Njhk;. mq;F mtiuf; fhztpy;iy. M];ukj;jpy; mg;NghJ,Ue;j xU ez;gh;> rhkp murkuj;jbapy; mkh;e;jpUg;gjhfr; nrhy;yTk;>ehq;fSk; mq;F nrd;Nwhk;. mq;F rpj;jh; jdpahf mkh;e;J,Ue;jhh;fs;. vd;idg; ghh;j;jTld; kfpo;r;rp Js;s> 'uh[h te;jhr;R!"uh[h te;jhr;R! vd;W rg;jkpl;lJ> ,g;NghJk; vd; fhjpy; xypf;fpwJ.,J gw;wp mtuplNk tpsf;fk; Nfl;Nld;> mjw;F mth; rphpj;jthNw>'uh[h" vd;W jhd; mioj;J ,Uf;fpd;Nwd;! mjdhy; jhd; ,d;Wk;>mg;gb mioj;Njd;. ,e;jg; gpwtpapy; vd;Dld; NrUk; rkak; ,d;Wjhd; te;jJ. ePAk; te;jha;> mjdhy; kfpo;r;rp Nkypl;ljhy;> cd;ngaiu mg;gbf; $g;gpl;Nld; vd;whh;. ,ijf;Nfl;lJk; vdf;F xd;Wk;Ghpatpy;iy. ez;gh; fiythzd; vd;id mjprag; nghUisg;ghh;g;gJ Nghy;> xU khjphpahf ghh;j;jhh;. rw;Wr; rkhspjj ehd;.ez;giu Rthkpf;F mwpKfk; nra;J mth; Mrp toq;fpaJ gpd;dh;.(mjw;Fs; NtW rpyh; mt;tplk; tuNt) ehq;fs; rpj;jhplk; ,Ue;Jtpil ngw;Nwhk;. nrd;idf;F jpUk;Gk; NghJ topnay;yhk; vd;fhjpy; rpj;jh; mioj;j xyp> ('uh[h te;jhr;R> uh[h te;jhr;R")kPz;Lk;> kPz;Lk; hPq;fhukpl;lJ. clnyy;yhk; ,dk; Ghpahj urhadkhWjy;fs; Vw;gl;L> mbf;fb cly; rpyph;j;jJ. 'gy gpwtp> ,g;gpwtp>eP NrUk; Neuk; te;jhr;R> eP vd;Dld; ,Ue;jtd;" vd;W ,Njthh;j;ijfs; vd; kdjpNy xypj;Jf; nfhz;bUe;jJ. xNu Fog;gk;>VNjh GhptJ NghypUe;jJ> GhpahjJ NghyTkpUe;jJ. vd; kdk;rpj;jh; ngUkhdplNk ruzile;jJ> NritNa yl;rpakhff; nfhz;Ltpl;l vdf;F rpdpkh fdTfs; Fiwaj; Jtq;fpd. vd fdTj;njhopw;rhiyfs; jfh;e;jd. ngw;Nwhh;> cw;whh;> cwtpdh;> cw;wez;gh;fs; vy;NyhiuAk; tpl;L> vd;id mwpahky;> kdjhYk;> clyhYk;>J}ukha; tpyfpg; Ngha; nfhz;bUe;Njd;. kdJ KOtJk; rpj;jh; ngUkhd;jhd; tpahgpj;J epd;whh;! mq;F NtW ahUf;FNk ,lk; ,y;iy. ehl;fs;khjq;fshapd> khjq;fs; tUlj;ij Nehf;fp tsh;e;J nfhz;bUe;jd.

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mg;NghJ> ~Nfhop $TJ~ glk; ,uT gfyhf Ntiy ele;Jnfhz;bUe;jJ> md;W mg;glj;jpd; ,Wjp ehs; Ntiy> ,uT,uz;L kzpf;F Kbe;jJ. nrd;idapy; ,Ue;J> jhk;guj;jpy; ,Ue;jvd; ,y;yk; nrd;W gLf;f> NkYk; xU kzp Neuk; fle;J nrd;wJ.gLj;jTld; mrjpahy;> mbj;Jg; Nghl;ltd; khjphp> vd;id kwe;jMo;e;j cwf;fk;> ahNuh vd; ngah; nrhy;yp vOg;Gfpwhh;fs;> vd;dhy;fz;fis jpwf;f Kbatpy;iy. ahh;? ,e;j Neuj;jpy; njhy;iy!vd;W cs;sk; rypj;Jf; nfhs;fpwJ> rpdk; %s;fpwJ> mth;fNsh!vd;id tplhJ vOg;gpf; nfhz;L ,Uf;fpwhh;fs; vhpr;rYld; vOe;J>cl;fhUfpd;Nwd;. vjphpy; nts;isj; Jz;il fl;bf; nfhz;L>nkype;j ntw;Wlk;ig xU nts;isj; Jz;lhy; Nghh;j;jpf; nfhz;Lnkhl;il jiyAld; goq;fhy ehfhPfj;jpy; gpNuk; Nghl;l %f;Ffz;zhbAld;> nghf;if tha; Gd;difAld; xU cUtk; epd;Wnfhz;bUe;jJ. vdf;F milahsk; Ghpatpy;iy! Mdhy;> vq;Nfhmbf;fb ghh;j;j kpfTk; ghpr;rakhd Kfk;! ahU? vd;d NtZk;?J}f;ff; fyf;fk; njspahj FKwyhf> vd; Fuy; xypf;fpwJ 'ePjhd; NtZk;> ,d;Dkh J}f;fk;! vOe;jpU!" vd;W Mizapl;lJme;j cUtk;> fz;fis frf;fpf; nfhz;L> Fog;gj;Jld; me;jcUtj;ij cw;Wg; ghh;f;fpNwd;! mjph;r;rpAld; mUNf Rtw;wpy;khl;bapUe;j> Njrgpjh kfhj;khfhe;jpapd; glj;ij jpUk;gpg;ghh;f;fpNwd;! vd Fog;gk; njspfpwJ! te;jpUg;gth; Njrg;gpjh!mJTk; ek; tPl;by;> vd;gLf;if miwapy; epw;fpwhh;> vd;Dld;NgRfpwhh;> vd; cly; KOtJk; kpd;rhuk; gha;fpwJ! Ngr ehvotpy;iy! Gd;difAld;> mUs; nghq;f fdpTld; Nehf;fpa'kfhj;kh>" 'th vd;Dld;!" vd;W nrhy;yp tpl;L Gwg;gl> ehd;mtiu gpd; njhlUfpNwd;. xU fhl;Lg; gFjp topahf> ehd;>fhe;jp[pia njhlh;e;J nrd;W nfhz;bUf;fpNwd;. mq;F fhl;Lg;gFjpapd; eLNt> xU rpW Xiyf; Fby;! cs;Ns nry;fpNwhk;!mq;F vq;fSf;fhfNt fhj;jpUg;gJ Nghy;> vd; cs;sj;jpy; thOk;rpj;jh; ngUkhd; = jiyahl;b rpj;jh; mkh;e;jpUf;fpwhh;. vd;idtuNtw;gJ Nghy; jiyairf;fpwhh;! Fog;gj;Jld; fhe;jp[piajpUk;gpg; ghh;f;fpNwd;! mjw;F mth;> vd;idg; ghh;j;J> 'cd;idNrh;f;f Ntz;ba ,lj;jpy; Nrh;j;J tpl;Nld;! gpwF> re;jpg;Nghk;>"vd;W $wp ,Uspy; nrd;W kiwe;J tpLfpwhh;. rpj;jh; ngUkhidtzq;FfpNwd; mth; tpG+jp jUfpwhh;> jpLf;fpl;L tpopj;njOe;JgLf;ifapy; mkh;e;Njd;! mJ vd; gLf;if miw fz;lnjy;yhk;fdth? fhe;jp[p! vd; fdtpy; te;jJ> vd;id rpj;jh; M];ukj;jpy;

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,U vd;W fl;lis ,l;lJ> vy;yhNk fdth? ,g;gb fdT tuf;fhuzk; Ghpatpy;iy? 'eP gy gpwtpfspy; vd;Dld; ,Ue;jtd;!kPz;Lk; NrUk; fhyk; te;jjhy; eP te;jha;>" vd;w rpj;jhpd; thf;Fk;vd; Qhgfj;jpy; tyk; te;jd. fhuzkpy;yhky;> fhhpakpy;iy.vd;id rpj;jh; M];ukj;jpw;F tUkhW miof;fpwhh; vd;W cs;kdk; cw;rhfj;Jld; cuf;f xypj;jJ! md;Nw jpUr;rp nry;Yk;g];]py; M];ukj;ij Nehf;fp vd; gazk; Jtq;fpaJ. gazk;njhlh;e;J nguk;gY}h; te;J Nrh;e;Njd;.

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rhkp! ,dp ehd; ,q;NfNa! cq;fSld; ,Uf;f Mirg;gLfpNwd;jq;fs; mDkjp fpilf;Fkh> vd;Nwd;. ehd; vd; mDgjpg;gJ!jhdq;fis nra;aNt gpwtp vLj;jth;> ePq;fs;. Mjyhy; ,dp>cq;fs; gzp> jUkk; nra;J> nja;tPf kf;fSf;F md;djhdj;jpd;ngUikfisf; $wp jUkj;jpd; cah;Tfis Rl;bf; fhl;bmth;fis jUkk; nra;a Cf;Ftpj;jy; MFk;. ngUQ; nry;tj;ijitj;Jf; nfhz;L> mij NkYk; mjpfhpf;fr; nra;a> miygtidmiz Nghl;L> jUk topapy; jpUg;gp> xUtid jUkthdhfr;nra;tJ jhd;> jUkk; nra;gtid tpl cah;e;j jh;kkhFk;. nra;Ak;jh;kk; jiy fhf;Fk;> jf;f rkaj;jpy; caph;fhf;Fk;! ,J nghpNahh;thf;F. ,J ,d;wsTk; ele;J nfhz;bUg;gJ fz; $lhd xd;Wvd;W rpj;jh; cgNjrk; nra;jhh;> njhlh;e;J mth; $wpaJ ,e;jehL Qhd G+kpahFk; gpuk;khp\pfSk;> kfhp\pfSk;> kfhQhdpfSk;>rpj;jh; ngUkf;fSk;> ehad;khh;fs;> Mo;thh;fs; Njhd;wp> tho;e;jehL! me;j ngUkf;fs;> rhjhuz kdpjid khjtk; nra;ahkNyNa,iwtid kfpo;tpf;f fhl;ba ey;top jhd; ,e;j jhd> jh;ktopfs;! czT caph;fhf;Fk;> cz;l cs;sq;fs; tho;j;Jk;.,e;j Gz;zpa G+kpapy; jUkq;fis> nra;fpd;w NghJ mq;F,iwtNd te;J Jiz epw;fpwhh;. kdpjd; nra;Ak; jhd jUkq;fspd;gyid ,iwtd; clNd Vw ;f pwhh ; . ,jdhy ; kdpjd ;G+h;tn[d;kq;fs; Kjy;> ,e;j n[d;kk; tiu nra;j> ghtr; Rikfs;,wf;fp itf;fg;gLfpd;wd. mtd; gpwtp tpNkhrdj;ij milfpwJ.mjdhy; xUtDf;F> jUk topiaf; fhl;bf; nfhLg;gtDf;Fk;gyd;> gy klq;fhf caUfpd;wJ. ,ij mwpe;J> Kw;fhyj;jpy;murh;fs;> nry;te;jh;fs; Nfhapy;fis fl;bdh;> Fsq;fis ntl;bdh;>md;djhd rj;jpuq;fis fl;bdh;> rhtbfs;> klk;> ghlrhiyfisj;jpwe;jdh; . me;jf; fhyj;jpy; xt;nthU ,y;yKk; jh ;krhiyfshfNt jpfo;e;jd. tPl;L thapy;Gwj;Nj jpz;izfisf;fl;b itj;J ,Ue;jhh;fs;. topNghf;fh;fs; fisg;ghwTk;> ,uTgazpfs; cwq;fp Xa;ntLf;fTk; mj;jpz;izfs; cjtpd. te;J,isg;ghWNthiu mt;tPl;lhh; czT mspj;J cgrhpg;gh;. Nkhh;je;;J jhfk; jPh;g;gh;> Jwtpfisj; Njbr; nrd;W mioj;J te;J.cztspg;gh;. ehad;khh;fs; fijfspy; mth;fs;> rptdbahUf;Fnra;Ak; njhz;Nl rptDf;Fr; nra;Ak;> njhz;L vd;W nray;gl;lijAk;> xU rptj; njhz;lh; ngw;w kfidNa rikj;Jg;ghhpkhwpa (rpWj;njhz;lh;) fijAKz;L. eL,utpy; jpBh; vd;Wte;J epd;w rptdbahUf;F cztpl jhdpak; ,y;yhj epiyapy;

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,Ul;by; taYf;Fr; nrd;W> fhiyapy; jhk; J}tp tpl;L te;jtpij ney;iy iffshy; Nrh;j;J mise;J jpul;baij nfhzh;e;J>mij nfhz;L tpUe;jspj;j ehadhh; fijfs; cz;L. ,itfs;jUkj;ij xt;nthU kdpjDk; flikahff; nfhs;sy; Ntz;Lk;>vd;W jUkj;jpd; ngUikjid giw rhw;Wfpd;wd. ghujg; Nghhpy;mbgl;L tPo;e;j> fh;zdpd; capiu fhj;J epd;wJ mtd; nra;jjUkk;. me;j jUkq;fspd; gyid gfthd; fpU\;zd;> ahrfk;ngw;Wj; jhNd fh;zdpd; KbTf;F top tFj;jhh;. rhFk; NghJk;>,iwtd; mtjhuj;Jf;Nf jh;kk; nra;j mtd; Gfo; clk;ghy;,d;Wk; tho;e;J nfhz;bUf;fpd;whNd. ts;sy;> vd;whNy fh;zd;jhNd> epidtpy; Kd; epw;fpwhd;. nrj;Jk; nfhLj;jhd;> rPjf;fhjp!vd;W ,d;Wk; rPjf;fhjp vd;Dk; ,];yhkpa ts;sy;> kf;fs;epidtpy; tho;e;J nfhz;bUf;fpwhNu! KjNyO ts;sy;fs;>,ilNaO ts;sy;fs;> filNaO ts;sy;fs; vd;W nfhLj;NjngUik gilj;jJ ,e;j ehL. jUkj;ij tsh;j;jhh; vd;gjhy;jhNd ,uhkypq;f Rthkpfis> ts;syhh; vd;fpwhh;fs;!

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jh;kj;jpw;F cfe;j ghiwfspy; rpw;Wspaha; nrJf;fj; Jtq;F.rpiyfs; cUthFk;. ePAk;. nghpa rpw;gp Mtha;. vd;W $wptpl;LvOe;J Fbypd; gpd; gf;fj;jpy;> xU Mykuj;jpd; mbapy; ,Ue;jIa;adhh; NfhapyUNf nrd;W> mq;F fple;j xU kuf;fl;ilapd;kPJ mkh;e;jhh;! ehDk; cld; nrd;W mth; fhybapy; mkh;e;Njd;.rhkpfs; fQ;rhit gw;w itj;jhh;. vd; kdjpy; vOe;j Nfs;tpfSk;gw;wpf; nfhz;ld> 'rhkp! ePq;f nrhd;d khjphp jh;k newpapNy,Ue;j ,e;j ehL> ,d;idf;F> Vd;! mij kwe;J fplf;fpwJ"vd;Nwd;. 'vy;yhk; fhy tpj;jpahrk; jhd;. kdpjd; ,d;WkdpjdhfNt ,y;iy. uhkypq;f ts;syhh; tho;e;jpUe;j NghJxU ehs; jdpik ehb CUf;F ntspNa Xhplj;jpy; mkh;e;jpUe;jhuhk;>mg;NghJ mq;F kdepiy rhpapy;yhjth; Nghy; Njhw;wkspj;j xUtNahjpgh;> me;j gfy; Neuj;jpy;> ifapy; `hpf;Nfd; tpsf;Fld;rhiyapy; nry;Yk; xt;nthU kdpjdhf> me; ;j tpsf;Fntspr;rj;jpy; xt;nthU Kfj;ij ghh;j;J tpl;L ~Nr ,J ehp ,JML> ,J khL> ,J Gyp> ,J ey;y ghk;G> fl;Ltphpad; vd;WgythW $wpf;nfhz;Nl te;jhuhk;. filrpapy;> jdpNa mkh;e;jpUe;jts;syhhplk; nrd;W mth; Kfj;jUNf> tpsf;if J}f;fpg;ghh;j;Jtpl;L kfpo;r;rp Nkypl;ljhy;:'M`h! ehd; kdpjid ghh;j;Jl;Nld;"!vd;W $wpathW Xbduhk;. mg;gb Xbath;> xU rpj;jh;. kdpjh;fisNjb miye;jth; ,Wjpahf ts;syhiu kl;Lk; jhd; kdpjdhfghh;j;jhh; vd;why; ehl;by; thOk; midj;J [PtuhrpfSk; kdpj&gq;fs; my;y vd;W jhNd nghUs;!" vd;W $wptpl;L> vd; Kfj;ijg;ghh;j;jhh;. mg;NghJk; vdf;F rhpahf tpsq;ftpy;iy. ,Ul;by;,Ug;gtidg; Nghy; ehd; ,Ug;gij czh;e;j me;j kfhd;. ~~uh[h!ekJ goq;fhy rhj;jpuq;fs;> kd;dh;fis kfhtp\;Z mk;rkhfFwpg;gpLfpd;wd. mjdhy; jhd; murid ~Nfh| vd;Wk;> mtd;thOk; muz;kidia> Nfhapy; vd;Wk; miog;gh; mjdhy; jhd;Mz;ltd; Myaj;ijAk; Nfhapy; vd;W miof;fpNwhk;. ,e;Jkjk;> kdpjDf;F> VO gpwg;Gfs; cz;L vdr;nrhy;fpwJ! ,iwtNdgy gpwg;Gfs; vLj;jpUf;fpd;whd;! mtd; kpUfg; gpwtpfs; vLj;jNghJ me;j kpUfq;fisg; NghyNt tho;e;J ,Uf;fpd;whd;. kdpjgpwg ;g pd ; NghJ me;j kdpjh ;fis NghyNt> tho ;e ;Jkiwe;jpUf;fpd;whd; 'GOtha; gpwf;fpDk; Gz;zpah cd;dbtOthjpUf;f tuk; ju Ntz;Lk;" vd;W mg;gh; rhkpfSk;>khzpf;fthrfUk; ghltpy;iyah> 'Gy;yhfp> G+z;lhfp GOtha;kukhfp" vd;nwy;yhk; ghb ,Uf;fpwhh;fs;. ed;ikAk;> jPikAk;,ul;ilg; gps;isfs; ,USk; xspAk; ,ul;ilah;fs; yl;RkpAk;>%NjtpAk; cld; gpwg;Gfs;. mijg; NghyNt Njth;fSk;mRuh;fSk;. xU je;ijf;F> ntt;NtW jha;f;F gpwe;jth;fs;

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mth;fs; Rfkha; tho;fpwhh;fs;. Mjyhy; ehq;fSk; mth;fisg;Nghytho Ntz;Lk; mth;fis Ms Ntz;Lk;> mbikg;gLj;j Ntz;Lk;vd;W tuk; Ntz;l ,iwtd; rphpj;jhd;! fypAfj;jpy; rpyfhyk;ePq;fs; kdpjh;fshf gpwe;J Ms;tPh;fs; vd;W tukspj;J kiwe;jhh;.mjdhy; ,e;j Afj;jpy; ,uhkypq;frhkp gpwg;Gf;F Kd;Nd kdpjdhfgpwg;gtd; yl;rj;Jf;F xUtdhfTk;> kw;wit elg;gd> gwg;gd>Ch;td> ePe;Jtd vd;w caphpdq;fs; kdpjdhfg; gpwe;J tho;e;JtUfpd;wd. ,it gpwf;f Jtq;fpaJk; hp\pfs;> rpj;jh;fs;>Kdpth;fs; vy;NyhUk; kiy> Fiff;Fs; jtk; nra;ar; nrd;Wtpl;ldh; vd;whh;. ,th;fs; gpwe;jhy; - mth;fs; Vd; kdpjf; Fyj;ijtpl;L kiwa Ntz;Lk;? ,J mbNadpd; Nfs;tp> ~uh[h!| kpUff;Fzq;fs; kj;jpapy; rhJf;fs;> rd;dpahrpfSf;F vg;gbkjpg;gpUf;Fk;! mjdhy; J\;liuf; fz;lhy; J}utpyF vd xUmb tpyfpg; Ngha;tpl;lhh;fs;! vd;d ntSj;jhYk; mLg;Gf;fhpntSf;Fkh! kdpjdhf gpwe;jhYk; mtd; ve;j kpUfj;jpd;mk;rj;jpy; gpwe;jpUf;fpwhNdh> me;j Fzq;fis jhNdntspfhl;Lthd;. jpUlid ghh;j;J uh[ ghh;it ghh; vd;why; jpUl;LKopjhNd fpilf;Fk;. Kd;ngy;yhk; xUtDf;Fk; kw;wtDf;Fk;gif vd;why; NeUf;F Neh;jhd; NkhJthh;fs;. mth;fspd; Nghhpy;xU jUkk; ,Uf;Fk;. MAjk; ,oe;jtid jhf;ff; $lhJ> Milmtpo;e;jtDf;F mij fl;bf;nfhs;s mtfhrk; nfhLf;f Ntz;Lk;!KJfpy; Fj;jf;$lhJ. vd;nwy;yhk; jh;k topapy; Nghhpl;lhh;fs;.,d;W vd;d epiy! xU $l;lNk nfhba MAjq;fshy;epuhAjghzpahd xU jdp kdpjid Xl> Xl tpul;b> nfh^ukhfgLnfhiy nra;fpwJ. ,J Nghy nra;jpfis mbf;fbgj;jphpiffspy; gbf;fpd;Nwhk;. ,J xU ehia gy eha;fs; Juj;jpr;nrd;W fbj;J FjWtijg; Nghy; ,y;iy! xU fl;rpf; fhuDf;F,d;ndhU fl;rpf;fhuidf; fz;lhy; gpbf;fhJ. xU rhjpf;F,d;ndhU rhjpf;fhuidf; fz;lhy; gpbf;fhJ. xU Ch;f;fhuDf;F,d;ndhU Ch;f;fhuidf; fz;lhy; MfhJ> xU khepyj;Jf;F.,d;ndhU khepyk; vd;why; Ntk;ghf ,Uf;Fk;. rptd; NfhapYf;F>itztd; Nghfkhl;lhd;. cyfpy; \pah K];yPk;fis fz;lhNynfhy;yj; Jbf;Fk; Rd;dp K];yPk ;fs;. fj;Njhypf;fiumopf;fj;Jbf;Fk;> gpuhl;l];lz;Lfs;. njUTf;Fj;njU gif.,itfis fhZk; NghJ ahidiaf; fz;lhy; rpq;fj;jpw;Fg;gpbf;fhJ> rpq;fj;ij Gypf;Fg; gpbf;fhJ> ghk;Gf;Fk;> fPhpf;Fk;MfhJ> gUe;J rpd;d gwitfSf;F vkd;. xU kpUfj;jpd;vy;iyf;F mjd; ,dkhd kw;nwhU kpUfNk te;jhYk; mq;Fchpikg; Nghh; epfOk;. rpWj;ij> f\;lg;gl;L Ntl;ilahbaij>kuj;jpd; cr;rpf;F nfhz;L; nrd;W gj;jpug;gLj;jpf; nfhz;L jpd;Dk;!

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,y;iyNay; mijtpl tYj;j rpq;fNkh> fhl;L eha;fs; $l;lNkh>fOij Gypfs; $l;lNkh te;J> me;j ,iuia gwpj;Jf; nfhs;Sk;.,jw;fpilapy;> me;j khkprj;Jf;F> fOF $l;lq;fs; Nghl;bapLk;.ehpfs; rkak; ghh;j;J rpWJz;Lfis ft;tpf; nfhz;L XLk;.typatNd nty;Ythd;! ,g;gbj;jhNd> ,d;W kdpju;fs;tho;e;Jnfhz;bUf;fpwhh;fs;. ,d;W nfh^ukhd fw;gopg;Gfs;>nfhiyfs; Mfpait> kpUfj;jdkhf elf;fpwJ. ,d;W kdpjdhftho> tpUk;Gfpwtd; f\;lg;gLfpwhd;! mtDf;F vq;Fk; epahak;fpilg;gjpy;iy! yQ;rk;> kh%y; vd;W mePjpia fhty; fhf;fpd;wdh;.vtUf;Fk; ehl;Lg;gw;wpy;iy! murpaYk;> ,d;W mf;fpukq;fspd;cr;rpapy; eldkhbf; nfhz;bUf;fpwJ. nfhiyf;fhuh;fs;>nfhs;isf;fhuh;fs; vy;yhk; murpd; jiynaOj;ij epu;zapUf;fpwhu;fs;. ,d;W fhR jhd; flTs; murpay; ehfhPfk; mbNahLmope;J NghdJ. ehl;bd; eyk; gw;wp ahUf;Fk; mf;fiw ,y;iy.jhk; tho Ntz;Lk;. mjw;fhf jd; fl;rp thoNtz;Lk;. xUNtis jw;NghJ ,Uf;Fk; fl;rpapy; rk;ghj;jpak; FiwtJ Nghy;Njhd;wpdhy; mLj;j fl;rpapy; If;fpakhtNjhL jha;f; fl;rpia>Ntrpf;fl;rp vd;W khw;wp VRk; ,ul;il ehf;Fj;jdk;! fhRcs;sth;fSf;Nf jukhd fy;tp. fhR ,Ue;jhy; ghpl;ir vOjhkNygh];! Muha;r;rp gz;zhkNy lhf;lh; gl;lk;! bfphp> bg;sNkh vJNtz;LkhdhYk; clNd fpilf;Fk;. ,d;W murpay;> Kjy; ,y;yhjngUk; tpahghukhfp tpl;lJ.

,d;W fy;tpr;rhiyfs; murpay;thjpfs; ifapy;. gzf;fhud;>gzf;fhudhfpf; nfhz;Nl Nghfpwhd;. Viofs;> ViofshfNt,Uf;fpd;wdh;. Vd;! vd;W ahUNk rpe;jpg;gjpy;iy. fhy; tapWepuk;gpdhy; NghJk; uhkd; Mz;lhy; vd;d> ,uhtzd; Mz;lhy;vd;d vd;W kukha;; epd;W tpLfpwhh;fs;. md;W ,iwtd; nfhLj;jtuk; jhd;> ,d;W KbAk; Neuk; neUq;fptpl;lJ. mbNad;rpdpkhtpypUf;Fk; NghJ nrhFR tho;f;if tho;e;Njd;. vq;Fnrd;whYk; Mlk;guk;> Vrp&k; tho;f;if> ebfu;fSld; ml;lrhfk;>epidj;j rhg;ghL> Nfhop Kjypa capUs;s [Ptd;fis vd;clYf;Fs; tpjtpjkhf rikj;J tha; topahf Gijj;J tpLNtd;.

mJ kl;Lky;y epidj;j cilfs; thq;fpf; nfhLf;f Kd;ddpebfh;fs;. vd;idg; nghWj;jtiu uh[h tPl;L nry;yg; gps;isahfNttsh;e;Njd;. ahiu fhf;fha; gpbj;jhy; vy;NyhUk; mlq;Fthh;fs;>glk; vLg;gJ vg;gb> kf;fis jd; gf;fk; trpag;gLj;JtJ vg;gb>vDk; jhuf ke;jpuj;ij ed;whf fw;Wzh;e;Njd;.

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Mdhy; rpdpkhf;fhuh;fSf;F ,Uf;Fk; kf;fspd; trpaj;ijitj;J ,iw topapy; nry;yf;$ba khh;f;fj;ij iftpl;Lmth;fis ,iwtd; Nt\k; Nghl;lhy; Kdpth;fs; Nghy; Mfptplyhk; vd;w vz;zj;jpy; ,Uf;f! mbNaDf;F mbj;j uh[Nahfk;jhd; rpj ;jhpd; nry;tdhf khw itj;jJ. Mlk;gukhdcyfj;ijtpl;L rpj;jhpd; 10x10 XiyFbir> kz; Rth;> jiyFdpe;J nry;y Ntz;Lk;. 5 Ngh;fs; mlf;f XLf;fkha; gLf;fNtz;Lk;.

mjpy; ey;y ghk;Gf;Fk; ,lk; cz;L. fUj;Njs; mNefk;nrhe;jkhfNt Fbj;jdk; elj;JfpwJ. g+uhd; ,\;lk; Nghy;tUfpwJ. Fstp rpj;jhpd; FbYf;Fg; gpd; $L fl;b tho;fpwJ.khd;NjhYf;F mbapy; midj;J [PtuhrpfSk; cz;L. gj;Jeha;fSk;> gRf;fSk; cz;L. gwitf; $l;lq;fSk; cz;L. mjpy;Fwpg;gpl;l Neuj;jpy; nts;is epw fhfk; te;J nry;Yk;. ,Jrpj;jhplk; grpahwpfiue;J tpil ngw;W kWehs; 12 kzpf;F kjpak;tUk;.

,jd; kj;jpapy; nrd;idapd; nrhFR tho;f;if kwe;Jkhaf;Fifapy; vJ vd;d> vg;NghJ elf;Fk; vd;W mr;rk; ,Ue;jhYk;ehSf;F ehs; Md;kPf czh;Tfs; ,Jtiu ve;j Gj;jfj;jpYk;gbf;fhj ufrpak;> Mapuf;fzf;fhd Mrdk;> GUt kj;jp ufrpak;.fhzf;fhz> vd; cs;sk; G+hpg;gha; ,Ue;jJ. gpbj;jhYk; gpbj;Njd;vd; md;gpd; N[hjpia rpf;nfdg; gpbj;Njd; vd;w kfpo;r;rpNa.

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'ehis ekJ kiyg; gazk;" vd;W nrhd;d rpj;jh; thf;Fvdf;F gpbgltpy;iy. mjpfhiyapNyNa vdf;F Kd;G te;J>rpj;jh; Fbypy; jq;fpapUe;j gjpide;J egh;fs; jahh; epiyapy;,Ue;jhh;fs;. ,ijf; fz;L NkYk; Fog;gk;! me;j md;gh;fspy;nrd;idapNyNa mwpKfkhfp ,Ue;j xUthplk; ehk; vq;Fnry;fpNwhk;> Vd; vd;W Nfs;tpf;fizfis njhLj;Njd;. rpj;jh;ngUkhd; ,g;gb mt;tg;NghJ kiyf;F kUe;Jf;fhd %ypiffisNrfhpg;gjw;fhf nrd;W tUtJ tof;fk;. tpUk;gp tUgth;fiscld; mioj;Jr; nry;thh;. ,d;iwa gazk; gr;ir kiyapy;Jtq;FfpwJ! vd;w gjpy;fs; gha;e;J te;jd.

clNd> vd; fz;fs; M];ukj;jpw;F rw;W njhiytpy; njhpe;jgr;irkiyia ghh;j;jJ. 'gr;ir khkyh; Nghy; Nkdp|| vd,iwtid tUzpj;J ghbdhNu 'nghpaho;thh|| me;j nja;tPfkiy jhd;> ,e;j gr;irkiy. ~gr;rky> gtoky vq;fsJ ehL~vd;W FwtQ;rpf;fijapy; FwtQ;rp Gfo;e;J ghLk; ,k;kiy>kiytho; kf;fspd; jhafk;> Nghd;wJ. me;j kiyf;FKjd;Kjyhf nry;tij epidj;J vd;Ds; Nguhde;jk;Cw;nwLj;jJ. gazj;jpw;F Njitahd rikay; ghj;jpuq;fs;>kspifrhkhd;fs; Nghd;wit jahh; epiyapy; ,Ue;jd. vy;NyhUk;>gpuahz igfSld; Maj;jkhf ,Ue;Njhk;. kiyapy; ,d;Wmd;djhdj;ij ehk; nra;jhy; vd;d vd;W xU vz;zk; vd;Ds;vOe;jJ. rpj;jh; ngUkhdplk; ,jw;fhd mDkjpia gzpTld;Ntz;bg; ngw;Nwd;.

kiyf;Fg; Gwg;gl;Nlhk;. nry;Yk; topapy;> md;iwamd;djhdj;jpw;fhd kspif rhkhd;fis thq;fpNdhk;. kiyapy;Vwj;Jtq;fpNdhk;! ,iwtid Gfo> nghpaho;thh;> Vd; ,e;jkiyia xg;gpl;lhh; vd;gJ kiyapd; ,aw;if moF nrhy;yhky;nrhy;ypaJ. mUikahd kiyf;fhw;W> vq;fs; midtiuAk; th!th vd;W cly; rpyph;f;f cs;sk; Fspu ey;tuT $wpaJ.

ehq;fs; ,e;j kiyia gw;wp Nfl;l Nfs;tpfSf;F> vq;fs;rpj;jh;ngUkhd; nghWikahf gjpy; $wp te;jhh;. gQ;rghz;lth;fs;>jk; tdthr fhyj;jpy;> njd;dfk; te;j NghJ mth;fs; ,q;Frpyfhyk; tho;e;jpUe;jjhfTk;. mth;fs; gad;gLj;jpa rpynghUs;fis> ,k;kiyapy;> vq;Nfh kiwj;J itj;J tpl;Lnrd;wjhfTk; mwpe;Njhk;. kiyahsg;gl;b vd;w fpuhkj;jpy; ,Ue;J

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15 fp.kP. J}uk; ele;J fhl;Lf;Fs; Mw;wq;fiu Xuk; Ngha; nfhz;Nl,Ue;Njhk;. vq;F ghh;j;jhYk; gr;irg; gNrnyd ghiw. ,e;jg;ghiw rpwpaJk;> nghpaJkha; ,Ue;jd. Mdhy; rpj;jh; ngUkhd;kpd;dy; Ntfj;jpy; jhz;b 20 mb J}uj;jjpy; ,Ug;ghh;. vq;fisghh;j;J vd;d Nrhh;e;Jtpl;Bh;fsh? Ck; thq;f rPf;fpuk; Ngha;tplyhk;> vd;W Ngha; nfhz;Nl ,Ug;ghh;fs;.

ehd; nrhFrhf tsh;e;jtd;> tho;e;jtd;> vd;dlh ,Jigj;jpaf;fhuj;jdkha; tifaha; te;J ,q;F khl;bf;nfhz;NlhNk! Gyp thiy ,Wf;fp> gpbj;J nfhz;l xUtd; kdepiyapy;> Mg;G mirj;j Fuq;fpidg; Nghy; jtpj;Njd;. jpUk;gptpL vd;W kdk; fl;lisapl;lJ. Mdhy; cs; kdk; mij Vw;fkWj;jJ. ,e;jg; gazk;> tho;f;ifapy; vy;NyhUf;Fk; fpilf;f$barhjhuzkhd gazky;y> rpj;jh; ngUkfdhy; eP mjpraq;fisAk;mDgtq;fisAk; milag; Nghfpwha;. gazj;ij njhlh;e;JNkw;nfhs;> vd mJ fl;lisapl;lJ.

jpBh; vd;W> clypy; Vw;gl;l xU njha;T kiwe;jJ. cw;rhfk;Cw;nwLj;jJ> ,jw;Fs;> rpj;jh; Rthkpfs; vq;fis tpl;L ntFJ}uk;Kd;Ndwp nrd;W nfhz;bUe;jhh;fs;. vq;fisj; jpUk;gpg; ghh;j;jrpj;jh; ngUkhd; vq;fs; Nky; ghpjhgg;gLtijg; Nghy; rw;W epd;whh;..gpwF mUNf xU ,lj;ij Njh;e;njLj;J mkh;e;jhh;! ehq;fs;Xl;lKk;> eilAkhf mtiu nrd;wile;Njhk;. vq;fisg; ghh;j;jrpj;jh; ngUkhd;> Gd; rphpg;NghL 'taR gps;isq;f ,e;jtajhdtNdhL Nghl;b Nghl Kbatpy;iyah?"vd;W tpisahl;lhff;Nfl;lhh;. mg;NghJ vdf;F taJ 24 ,Uf;Fk;. vy;NyhUk;cl;fhUq;fs;> rw;W Xa;T vLq;fs; vd;whh;. ehq;fs; kfpo;r;rpahfmkh;e;Njhk;. ifapy; nfhz;L nrd;wpUe;j jpz;gz;lq;fis rhg;gplj;Jtq;fpNdhk;. kiyf;fhw;W vq;fis jhyhl;baJ. ,ij fz;fis%b mDgtpj;Jf; nfhz;bUe;Njhk;! Mdhy; rpj;jh; ngUkhdhh;mLg;G %l;b vq;fSf;F rpy fhl;L jiofisg; Nghl;L B jahhpj;Jf;nfhz;bUe;jhh;. B Njthk;Ujkhf Urpj;jJ.

gazk; kPz;Lk; Jtq;fpaJ. kjpa cztpw;fhf Xhplj;jpy;vq;fs; gazk; epd;wJ. epoyhd gFjpapy; mLg;G %l;b> rikay;Jtq;fpaJ. ehq;fs; rikaYf;F Njh;e;njLj;j gFjp ,aw;ifvopy; nfhQ;Rk; gFjpahFk;. ehq;fs; mkh;e;jpUe;j gFjpapd; mUNf>xU rpwpa mUtp Xbf; nfhz;bUe;jJ. ghiwfSk;> kuq;fSkhfmikjpahd ,lkhf ,Ue;jJ. rikaYf;F mLg;nghpf;f tpwFNjitg;gl;lJ. tpwF Nrfhpf;f nrd;w xU md;gh; ehq;fs;

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mkh;e;jpUe;j gFjpf;F rw;W js;sp> gj;J gjpide;J mb cauj;jpy;,Ue;j xU ghiw kPJ Vwp> mq;F fple;j kuj;Jz;Lfis Nrfhpj;J>mij J}f ;f p nfhz;L ,wq ;FtJ r pukk ; vd ;gjhy ; >Gj;jprhypj;jdkhf> me;j ghiwkPjpUe;J> fPNo Xbf; nfhz;bUe;jMw;wpy;> tpwFfis Nghl;lhh;. ePNuhl;lk;> ehq;fs; mkhe;J ,Ue;jgf;fkhf te;jjhy;> tpwFfs;> vq;fis Nehf;fp kpje;J te;jd.

mg;NghJ> xU ngUk; mjprak; epfo;e;jJ! kpje;J te;jfl;ilfspy; xd;W kl;Lk;> ePNuhl;lj;ij vjph;j;J nrd;wJ. ,ijfz;L Mr;rhpag;gl;l ehq;fs;> mij rpj;jh; ngUkhdplk; Rl;bfhl;bNdhk;. ,J> xU mG+h;t tif kuj;jpd; Jz;L. ,J ~VWrpq;fp~ vd;w rQ;rPtp %ypif kuj;jpd; tifia Nrh;e;jJ! VWrpq;fp Nghy;> ,wq;F rpq;fp vd;w tifAk; cz;L. mij vLj;JthUq;fs;. ,d;W ,uT elf;Fk; ahf Fz;lj;jpy; ,ij Nghl;lhy;>Njth;fSk;> rpj;jh;fSk;> rg;j fd;dpaUk; trpakhfp tpLthh;fs;.ahf Fz;lj;ij Rw;wp kfpo;r;rpAld; Fk;kpabj;J ghLthh;fs;vd;whh;. md;W md;djhdk; vd;Dila gzp my;yth.

rikay; ele;J nfhz;bUf;Fk; NghJ> Fok;Gf;F cg;G Nghlcg;ig NjbNdhk;. fpilf;ftpy;iy. cg;G thq;fNt ,y;iy vd;wcz;ik Ghpe;jJ. jpifj;Jg; NghNdhk;. cg;gpy;yh gz;lk;>Fg;igapNy ~vd;w gonkhop~ vd;idf; Nfyp nra;jJ! NtWtopapy;iy kw;wth;fSf;F njhpe;jhy; Nfypf;fplkhFk;. Mjyhy;rpj;jiuNa ruzile;Njd;.

rpj;jh; $wpdhh; ~cg;gpy;yh gz;lk; Fg;igapNy. mUfpypUe;J,ijf; Nfl;l 60 tajhd rpj;j itj;jpah; jpUthtLJiw nry;yKj;Jma;ah jd; ,Lg;gpy; vg;gb jhd; ,e;Jg;ig itj;J ,Ue;jhh;fNsh>njhpatpy;iy. mij vLj;J rikaypy; Nghl;lhh;. cg;G Rit$baJ. vdf;F ghPl;irapy; ,iwtNd ghrhf;fp tpl;lhh;fs; vd;w kfpo;r;rp.

jUkNk cUthd fhe;jp kfhd; Nehl;Lfis fs;sj;jdkhfNrh;j;J ViofSf;Fk;> kw;wth;fSf;Fk; cjthj kdpj $l;lj;jpy;mbNad; Nrh;e;J rpd;dh gpd;dkhfp ,Ue;jhy;> ,ijg; Nghy;jUkrpe;jid te;jpUf;Fkh? mJTk; vq;Nf vg;gb nra;jhy; ed;ikgaf;Fk; vd;w khngUk; gbg;G gbj;jJ Nghy; ,d;W tiu rp;j;jUld;,Uf;Fk; tha;g;G. vj;jid n[d;kj;jpw;Fk; ed;wpf; fldhfNttho;Ntd;. FUtpd; jpUtUis epidj;J kdk; cUfpNdd;.midj;Jk; czh;e;j rpj;jh; uh[h rhg;ghL uh[h rg;ghLjhd; vd;whh;.

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md;W ,uT ehq;fs; jq;Ftjw;fhf> xU ,lj;ij rpj;jh;Rthkpfs; Njh;e;njLj;jhh;fs;. ahf Fz;lk;> %l;lg;gl;lJ. vy;NyhUk;Rw;wpYk; mkh;e;Njhk;. ahfj;jPapy; ~VWrpq;fp~ fl;ilia Nghl;Nlhk;.ahfk; elf;f> elf;f vd; fz;Kd;Nd gytpjkhd mw;Gj fhl;rpfs;Njhd;wpd. gy nja;tPf Foe;ijfs;> ahf Fz;lj;ij Rw;wp Fk;kpMba fhl;rp> ,ij Nfl;lth;fs;> fk;gpA+l;lh; fhyj;jpy; fijtpLfpwhd;> vd;W Nfyp NgRthh;fs;. mij gw;wp vdf;F ftiy,y;iy. mijf; fhz;gjw;F ghf;fpak; nra;jpUf;f Ntz;Lk;.me;j ghf;fpaj;ij vdf;F mUspath; rpj;jh; ngUkhd; my;yth!mtUila rpj;J tpisahl;Lfis ghkud; Ghpe;J nfhs;tJkpfTk;fbdk;. mjpYk; Gj;jfk; gbj;jth;fs; njsptJ fbdk;.

xU ,lj;jpy; kuq;fs; nrbfs; vy;yhk; fha;e;J Ngha; Nrhfkhfepd;wd! ,ijf;fz;L ~kdk; thba ehd;~ gRikf;F ngah;Nghd,k;kiyapy; ,g;gb rpy ,lq;fs; fha;e;J fplg;gNjd;?" vd;Wrpj;jh; ngUkhdplk; Nfl;Nld;. mjw;F> ~~mtu; vd;d nra;tJfhytpj;ahrk;> ehl;by; [dj;njhif ngUfp tpl;lJ> Mdhy;gpiog;gpw;fhd rhpahd topapy;iy. ,jdhy; rpyh; FWf;F topapy;FNgudhf nra;Ak; Kaw;rpfspd; ntspg;ghNl> ePq;fs; ghh;f;Fk;,e;j fhl;bd; Nrhfk;. jpUl;Lj;jdkhf tpiy cah;e;j kuq;fisntl;b flj;jptpw;fpwhh;fs;" vd;whh;.! fhl;byhfh mjpfhhpfs;,itfis jLf;f khl;lhh;fsh?" vd;Nwd;. ghtk; mth;fSk;kdpjh;fs; jhNd! fs;td; nghprh? fhg;ghd; nghprh? vd;w Nfs;tpfhyk; fhykhf Nfl;fg;gl;L te;jhYk; nraypy; fs;td; vd;gJepUgpf;fg;gl;L tUfpwJ! CUf;Fs; fhty; Jiw ,Ue;Jk;fsTfSk;> Fw;wq;fSk; tskhfj;jhNd ,Uf;fpd;wd! jpUlh;fs;jpUbf;nfhz;Nl ,Ug;ghh;fs.; mij fhf;fp rl;il Nghl;l $l;lk;jLf;f Kad;W nfhz;Nl ,Uf;Fk;. ePjp kd;wq;fspYk; tof;Ffs;ele;J nfhz;Nl ,Uf;Fk;. tof;fwpQh;fs; thjhbf; nfhz;Nl,Ug;ghh;fs;. jPh;g;GfSk; toq;fg;gLk;. fPo; Nfhh;l;L> Nky; Nfhh;l;L>cr;r ePjp kd;wk; vd;W tof;Ffs; tUlf;fzf;fpy; gazpf;Fk;.rpyUf;F ePjp;fpilg;gJk; cz;L. ngUk;ghyhd Fw;wthspfs;>rl;lj;jpd; Xl;ilfs; topahf jg;GtJk;> jtWtJ ,y;iy. ePjpkd;wq;fspy; ifapy; epaha juhR Ve;jp ePjp Njtij rpiyahfepd;W nfhz;Nl ,Uf;fpwhh;fs;. Mdhy; mts; fz;fs; jhd;fUg;G Jzpahy; fl;lg;gl;L ,Uf;fpd;wJ>|| vd;w gjpiy rpj;jh;ngUkhd; nrhd;dhh;. ~~ek;Kd;;;Ndhh;fs;> kuj;jpd; ngUik mwpe;J>mij nja;tPfkhf tzq;fpdhh;fs;. mjd; kUj;Jt Fzj;jpw;fhf>mitfs; Nghw;wp fhg;ghw;wg;gl;ld!

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kuq;fs;> nja;tj;jpw;F rkkhf> kdpjid fhf;fpd;wJ vd;Wcyfpw;F fhl;lj;jhd;> xt;nthU NfhtpYk;. VjhtJ xU kuk;>];jy tpUl;rkhf. tsh;f;fg;gl;L tzq;fg;gl;lJ. kuj;ijf;fhf;fMz;ltd; md;W Njitg;gl;lhd;. Mdhy; ,d;Nwh! me;jMz;ltdpd; Ik;nghd; rpiyfSf;Nf kdpjdhy; Mgj;J te;Jtpl;l NghJ> kuq;fSf;F ghJfhg;G VJ? kuq;fis mopg;gjpdhy;ek;ik ehNk mopj;Jf; nfhz;bUf;fpd;Nwhk;. kdpjd; nra;fpd;w,e;jFw;wq;fSf;F Fw;wkw;w tpyq;fpdq;fSk; Nrh;e;J mopag;Nghfpd;wd. ,jdhy; 'fhah nta;a fhQ;rp! fdj;j nts;sk;te;J Ngah kio nga;Ak;. ,J md;Nw rpj;jh;fs; nrhd;d thf;F"vd;W $wp tpl;L rw;W fz;fis %b rpe;jidapy; Mo;e;jhh;vq;fs; rpj;jh; ngUkhd;.

fhNl mirtw;W mikjpahf ,Ue;jJ Nghy; ,Ue;jJ. ehq;fs;vy;NyhUk; rpj;jh; ngUkhidNa> itj;j fz; thq;fhky; ghh;j;Jf;nfhz;bUe;Njhk;. rw;W Neuj;jpy;> fz;fis jpwe;j nghpath;vd;idg; ghh;j;J Ngrj; Jtq;fpdhh;. ~~uh[h! ,uz;lhapuj;J gj;JtUlq;fSf;F xU Kiw ,e;j G+Tyfpy;> ,aw;if xU Nguopitepfo;j;JtJ tof;fk;. mLj;J tug;NghFk;. gpusa fhyk; rkPgpj;Jtpl;lJ! G+kp khjh rPw;wk; nfhz;L vOths;! Gay; fhw;W> G+kpiajhf;Fk;> fly; nghq;fp fiuia flf;Fk;> vhpkiyfs; ntbj;JneUg;ig ff;Fk;> thdpypUe;J vhpfw;fs; kionadg; nghopAk;,jdhy; G+kpapy; ngUk; efuq;fs; mopAk;. flw;fiu efuq;fisfly; nfhs;Sk;. cyfj;jpd; ,d;iwa G+Nfhsf;NfhLfs; cUkhWk;||vd;W $wpdhh;. ,ij Nfl;L mjph;r;rpapdhy; vtUk; Ngrtpy;iy.fp.gp.Kjyhk; E}w;whz;by;> fly; nfhz;l G+k;Gfhh; efuk; vd;epidtpy; te;jJ. ,uz;lhapuj;jpy; cyfk; mopAk; vd;W gyh;NgRfpwhh;fs;. ,th; nrhy;tJk; mJ jhNd? vd;w tpdh vd;Ds;vo> tpil fhz rpj;jhplNk tpsf;fk; Nfl;Nld;. 'Rthkp! ,e;jG+kp tug;NghFk; ,uz;lhapukhtJ Mz;bNy mopAk; vd;W$Wfpd;whh;fNs! mg;gbahdhy; tUk; ,uz;lhapuj;jpy; jhd; ePq;fs;nrhd;dthW cyfk; mopAkh?" vd;W Nfl;Nld;. ~~mth;fs; jtwhf.$Wfpwhh;fs;|| rhpahd fzf;Fg;gb tUfpw 2010Mk; Mz;Lf;Fg;gpd; ,it epfOk;.

,ij ehd; ntFfhyj;jpw;F Kd;Ng vd;Dila E}ypy;Fwpg;gpl;Ls;Nsd;. Mdhy; mjw;fhd Maj;jk; 1981Ny Jtq;fptpl;lJ. G+kpf;F xU yhf;(lock) cz;L. g+kpapd; yhf;iffow;wpahfptpl;lJ. ,jd; vjpnuhyp cyfpy; gutyhf Vw;gLk;.,e;jpahtpNyNa G+kp mjph;r;rpahy; NguopT mt;tg;NghJ Vw;gLk;.

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,J ngUk;ghYk; ,utpy; mJTk; tpbaw;fhiy nghOJ Ie;Jkzpf;Fs; epfOk;. rpy ,lq;fspy; Kjypy; Nyrhf epy eLf;fk;!,ij Nyrhf vLj;Jf; nfhs;sf; $lhJ. mLj;j Kiw gykhfeLq;fp> vr;rhpf;iftpLk;. G+kp khjh %d;whtJ Kiw %h;f;fkhfptpLths;. ,jpypUe;J caph; jg;Gth;fs; Gz;zpak; nra;jth;fs;.mth;fis ,iwtd; fhg;ghd;. mjpYk; ahh; tPl;bd; kPJ fhfk;cs;sNjh me;j tPL G+kp mjph;r;rpapy; xd;Wk; MfhJ! Mdhy;kdpjdpd; khkpr ntwpahy; fhf;fhit tp\k; itj;J Gwh fwpvd;W filapy; tpw;fpwhdhk; vd;d nra;tJ? [Pt fhUz;aKk;>jUk rpe;jidAk; ,Ue;jhy; jhd; rpj;jh;fs; mth;fis fhg;ghh;fs;.mjdhy; jhd; nghpath;fs; vy;yhk; gbj;Jg;gbj;Jr; nrhd;dhh;fs;.ghtk; nra;ahNj> mJ gL FopapDs; Mo;j;jp tpLk;. jUkk;jiyfhf;Fk;!|| vd;nwy;yhk; $wp epWj;jpdhh;.

~~Mdhy; kdpj FyNkh> mopAk; nghUs;fs; Nky; Mir itj;Jmopit Nehf;fp mbNghLfpwJ. fhrhirahy;> kdpjd; gprhrhfmiyfpwhd;. Njitf;F Nky; Mirg;glhky;> mijj; jUkk;nra;jhy; mJTk; Fwpg;ghf md;djhdk; nra;jhy; kfhd;fspd;mUisAk; kdpjd; Nrkpj;J itf;fyhk;. uh[h! cd;idg; gw;wpNtW ahUNk. mwpa khl;lhh;fs; Vd; cdf;Nf njhpahJ. Mdhy;tpiutpy; eP epidj;Jf; $l ghh;j;jpuhj mNef nja;t rf;jpfs;cd;id Njb te;J NrUk;. jUkq;fis nra;aNt eP> gilf;fg;gl;L,Uf;fpwha;. ifyha rl;lKdp> ,uhkypq;f ts;syhfp> kdpjclYld; N[hjpahdth;. mth;jhd; cd;Ds; KO kdjhfr;nray;glg; Nghfpwth;. mth; tlY}hpy; Jtq;fpa md;djhdk; ,dpcd;dhy; njhlug; NghfpwJ!" vd;whh;. ,ijf; Nfl;L ehd;czh;tpd;wp rpiy Nghy;> mkh;e;jpUe;Njd;. cld; te;jth;fs; vd;idxU Nfypg;nghUisg; Nghy; ghh;j;jhh;fs;. mjhtJ ,tdhtJ.rptdhtJ vd;gJ Nghy! ,J 1981k; tUlk; rpj;jh; $wpaJ.~~uh[h! tUk; topapy; eP> kiyNaWk; NghJ gl;l f\;lk; Rfthrpahdcd;id 'INah" Vd; te;Njhk; vd;W vz;z itj;jjy;yth?||vd;whh;. ehd; jpLf;fpl;Nld;! ehk; epidj;jij mg;gbNanrhy;Yfpd;whNu vd;W> ~~uh[h> ,e;j tho;f;ifNa xU rpdpkhjhd;. ,e;j rpdpkh> rpdpkhTf;Fs; xU rpdpkh! tho;f;if vDk;rpdpkhtpy; kdpjd; xt;nthUtDk; xt;nthU Ntlk; jhd;NghLfpwhh;fs;. Mdhy; ebfNdh> RaNtlj;NjhL fijf;fhf gyNtlk; NghLfpwhd;. ,ij cz;ik vd epidj;J ntwp gpbj;jurpfdha;> ebfdpd; njhz;ldha; gyh; tPzha; miyfpwhh;fs;.ebfDk; kdpjh;fs; jhNd? mtDf;Fk; %g;GtUk; ,wg;gpy; Kbthd;!mtd; Nghd gpd; mtidj; jiytdhf ,ja nja;tkhf>tzq;fpj;jphpe;jth;fs; me;j ebfNdhL Nrh;e;J capiu tpl;L

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tpLthh;fsh? mjd; gpwF NtW ve;j ebfidAk; urpf;f khl;lhh;fsh?,e;j rpdpkhtpy; xU kdpjdpd; ey;y Neuk; Kbe;J tpl;;lhy;>mtd; vt;tsT nghpa jpwikrhypahf ,Ue;jhYk; mtd; xJf;fg;gLthd;! ,J jhd; ,d;iwa epiy.

Mdhy; ,J Ghpahky; mth;fs; NghLfpw Ml;lk; ghpjhgkhdJ.,th;fs; gzj;ijAk;> GfioAk; kl;Lk; rk;ghjpf;ftpy;iy. ghtq;fis,uz;L klq;fhf rk;ghjpf;fpwhh;fs;. mjdhy; me;jj; njhopy; cq;fSf;FNtz;lhk;> vd;W ehd; ,g;NghJ nrhd;dhy; cq;fs; kdk; Vw;fhJ.Mdhy; fhyk; cq;fis khw;Wk;! fhzhky; Nghd fd;Wf; Fl;b>kPz;Lk; ke;ijapy; NrUk; fhyk; rkPgkhf cs;sJ. mjdhy;jhd; ,g;NghJ ePq;fs; vd;Dld; ,q;F mkh;e;jpUf;fpwPh;fs;"> vd;whh;.

~~uh[h! kdpjh;fs; kl;Lk; kPz;Lk; kPz;Lk; gpwg;gjpy;iy.Njth;fSk;> kdpjdha; gpwg;gJz;L. rpj;jh;fs; mt;tg;NghJ> cyfed;ikf;fhf rhjhuz kdpjdhf gpwe;J> tho;e;J xU fhyfl;lj;jpy;jd;id czh;e;J mlq;fp te;j Ntiy Kbe;jJk;> nrd;W tpLthh;fs;.

uh[h rpj;jh;fs; ahUk; Nahdp topaha; gpwg;gjpy;iy. mth;fs;epidj;jhy; ve;j $l;bYk; gpuNtrpf;fyhk; vd;whh;.

mNj Nghy; jhd; xU ehs; nguk;gY}h; khtl;lj;jpy; goq;FbrpWtd; godpr;rhkp vd;w ngaUilatd;> fpzw;wpy; jtwp tpOe;J,we;J tpl;lhd;. mtd; cliy Rw;wp> Rw;wKk;> RoYk; mOJnfhz;bUe;jdh;. mg;NghJ gufha gpuNtrkha; tUk;NghJ ehd;rpy fhuzq;fSf;fhf ,we;J fple;j> rpWtdpd; clypy; GFe;Njd;.khpj;jtd; vd;W vz;zpa mr;rpWtd; rphpj;jthW> caph;j;njOe;jhd;.rpWth;fSf;Fhpa Rl;bj;jdkhd tpisahl;Lfspy; <Lgl;L fhyj;ijfopj;j vdf;F> thypg tajpy; jpUkzKk; ele;jJ. kidtpfUTw;whs;> vdf;F kdJf;Fs; gaq;fu Fog;gk;> vd;id mwpahky;Ciu tpl;L XbNdd;.

ghk;Ng (,d;iwa Kk;ig) nrd;Nwd;. B filapy;> Bkh];luhfgzp nra;Njd;. gpwF nrd;idf;F te;Njd;. #isNkl;by; rpyk;gk;>F];jp fw;W jUk; Mrphpauhf rpyfhyk; flj;jp> gpwF tho;f;ifJiztpf;F MWjy; juNtz;b fl;lis gpwe;jJ. kPz;Lk; CUf;Fr;nrd;Nwd;. kidtpAld; md;Gld; ,y;ywj;jpy; <Lgl;Nld;. vdf;Fthhprhf te;j Foe;ij gpwe;j rpyfhyj;jpy; ,we;J tpl;lJ.kidtpAk; kuzj;ij jOtpdhs;. fhy; fl;L tpLgl;lJ. kPz;Lk;fhL> NkLfspy; miye;Njd;. ehd; ahh; vd;W nky;y> nky;yGhpaj; Jtq;fpaJ. ,ilapy; khatuj;jpy; rpyfhyk;> Nfhitapy;rpy fhyk;> Nfhit Ngh&h; RLfhl;by; ntl;bahd; Ntiy RLfhl;L

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thrk;! ,g;gb fhyk; XbaJ. ,Wjpahf jpUr;rpapy; itj;jpauhfrpyfhyk;. mg;NghJ ehd; ,q;fpUg;gJ Nfs;tpg;gl;L> vd; khkdhh;vd;id Njb te;jhh;. mth; fhq;fpu]; ,af;fj;jpy; xU jiyth;.vd;id nguk;gY}h; mioj;J te;jhh;! ,q;NfNa eP> vq;FNtz;LkhdhYk; jq;fyhk;> vd;d trjp Ntz;LkhdhYk; nra;fpNwd;vd;whh;. mtUld; vd; jk;gp NtYTk;> te;jpUe;jhd;. ,q;F Ms;el khl;lk; ,y;yhj ,lj;jpy; xU Fbir Nghl;L nfhLq;fs;vd;Nwd;. mtUk; fhl;L gFjpapy; Fbir fl;bj;je;jhh;. mJ jhd;ek;Kila ,d;iwa M];ukk;|| vd;W Kbj;jhh;.

mth; Ngr;ir Nfl;L vdf;F gpukpg;ghfTk; ,Ue;jJ. vd;dNthfij nrhy;Yfpwhh;. $L tpl;L $L gha;e;J tho;e;J tUtjhftpf;ukhjpj;jd; fij Nghy nrhy;Yfpwhh;. ,ij ek;gNt f\;lkh,Uf;Nf vd;W vd;Ds; Fok;gpf; nfhz;bUe;Njd;. me;j ,lj;jpy;mikjp epytpaJ.

rpj;jh; fQ;rh gw;w itj;J> Giff;f Jtq;fpdhh;. nky;y vd;idjpUk;gpg; ghh;j;jhh;. mth; cjLfspy; nky;ypa Gd;dif! 'vd;duh[h ,e;j fpotd; nrhd;dij cd;dhy; ek;g Kbatpy;iyah?VNjh fij nrhy;fpwhh; vd;W epidf;fpwha;? ,g;NghJ GhpahJNghfg;Nghf GhpAk;!" vd;W $wp> Foe;ij Nghy; tha; tpl;L rphpj;jth;.~~vd;d? Fog;gj;ij Vw;gLj;jp tpl;Nldh uh[h|| vd;whh;. ~~ifyhath;f;fk;> vd;W nrhy;yg;gLk; %yj;jPrh;> fhyq;fp ehjh;> nfhq;fzth;>Nghfh; MfpNahhpy; ehd; jhd; nfhq;fzth;. Kdpth;fNs fhzKbahj Qhd tiuapy; cr;rkhd MW tiuia fle;J> nrh&gkzp nfhz;L Jzpe;J fle;J> rpyk;nghyp Nfl;L kPz;Lk; te;jtd;.cf;fpukhd jtkpUe;J fhf;ifapy; xd;wp> fhfkhf fhzhj,lnky;yhk; fz;L te;j fhfGrz;lh; ehd;! ,g;NghJ jiyahl;brpj;jh; vd;W ePq;fs; epidf;Fk; ,e;j cUtj;jpy; ,Ug;gJTk;ehNd!

~uh[h~! Jtf;fj;jpy; xd;gJ rpj;jh;fs;> ,ilf;fhyj;jpy; Gfo;kpf;f> gjpndl;L rpj;jh;fs;. Mdhy; mJ tsh;e;J ,d;W ,UE}w;wpg;gj;J rpj;jh;fs;! [Pt rkhjp mile;Jk;> ,d;Dk; mjw;fhdrkak; mikahJ tho;e;J tUNthUk; G+kpapy; cz;L! xt;nthUfhyf;fl;lq;fspy;> rpj;jh;fs; kPz;Lk; G+kpapy; gpwf;fpwhh;fs;.cyfj;jpw;F Gjpa jj;Jtq;fisAk;> Gjpa kjq;fisAk; mspj;Jtpl;L kiwfpwhh;fs;.

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mWg;gjw;fhf Nkh]]hf vfpg;jpy; Vio A+j ngz;zpw;F kfdha;gpwe;jhh;. A+j Foe;ijfis nfhy;Yk;> muRf;F gzpe;J iey;ejpapy; $ilapypl;L kpjf;f tplg;gl;L> mij murFkhhp vLj;Jtsh;f;f> vfpg;jpd; ,sturdhf Kb#lg;gl;L gpd;> jhd; te;jfhhpaKzh;e;J ntspg;gl;L A+jh;fis fhg;ghw;wp A+jkjj;ijNjhw;Wtpj;jhh;. gpd;dh; vd; FU ehjNd ,];yhkpa khh;f;fj;ijcUthf;fpdhh;. njhlh;e;J gy fhyq;fspy; gy tpj gpwtpfisvLj;J ,];yhkpa khh;f;fj;ij cynfq;Fk; gug;gpdhh;. mijg;NghyNt rpj;jh; = Gypg;ghzp ngUkhd; fUizia> mfpk;iriamd;ig Nghjpj;J mjw;fhfNt jd;idNa gypahf <e;j VR gpuhdhfgpwe;jhh;. ,ijg; NghyNt Gj;jh;> kfhtPuh;> rq;fuh;> ,uhkD[h;>khj;th;> ,uhkypq;fh; vd;Dk; kfhd;fs; Njhd;wpdhh;fs;.

rpj;jh; ngUkhd;fspd; rkhjpfs; mike;j ,lj;jpYs;sNfhapy;fs; ,d;W nghypTld; tpsq;Ffpd;wd. gy;yhapuf;fzf;fhdkf;fs; czT Njb> rhhp rhhpahf nry;Yk; vWk;G $l;lq;fisg;Nghy gf;jp ehb gf;jh;fs; ,f;Nfhapiy Nehf;fp miy miyahfnrd;W nfhz;Nl ,Uf;fpwhh;fs;. cjhuzk; Ntz;Lnkd;why; ,e;jnfhq;fzthpd; rkhjp jpUg;gjpapy; jhd; cs;sJ" vd;whh;. ,ilapy;FWf;fpl;l ehd;> gf;Ftkpy;yhj fhuzj;jhy;> mtrug;gl;L mtiug;ghh;j;J xU Nfs;tp Nfl;Nld;. ~~rhkpahh;fs; mw;Gjq;fisepfo;j;Jfpwhh;fs;. mjdhy; kf;fs; mth;fis nja;tkhfNghw;Wfpwhh;fs;. Mdhy; jhq;fNsh ,g;gb %ypif Njb kiyf;FtUfpwPh;fs;. kUe;Jfis nra;J jPuhj Neha;fis jPh;f;fpwPh;fs;mjw;fhd fhRk; Nfl;ljpy;iy! md;djhdj;Jf;F mhprp %l;iljhd; Nfl;fpwPh;fs;!

ve;j ge;jhTkpy;yhky; mlf;fkhf tho;fpwPh;fs;. ePq;fs; kl;Lk;khah [hyk; nra;J> rpj;J tpisahbdhy;> kf;fs; jq;fis NjbXb tUthh;fs;. nghUis ms;spf; nfhLg;ghh;fs;. mijf; nfhz;LMapukhapuk; NgUf;F md;djhdk; nra;ayhNk?|| vd;W Nfl;Nld;!,ijf; Nfl;lJk;> rpj;jh; ngUkhd; vd;idNa cw;W Nehf;fpdhh;fs;mij fz;l ehd; jtwhf VjhtJ Nfl;Ltpl;NlhNkh? vd;W fyq;fpg;NghNdd;! cld; te;jpUe;j gjpide;J NgUk; vd;id ntWg;ghfcw;W Nehf;fpdhh;fs;! Muk;gj;jpypUe;Nj mth;fSf;F ehd; rpj;jhplk;neUq;fp goFtJ Nfs;tpfs; Nfl;gJ vy;yhk; gpbf;ftpy;iy.mNjhL mg;NghJ vdf;F ,Ugj;jp ehY taR jhd;! ,t;tsTNgh;fSila ntWg;ig rk;ghjpj;Jf; nfhz;L ehd; ,Wjpapy;rpj;jh; ngUkhdplNk ntWg;ig rk;ghjpj;J tpl;NlhNk> vd;W vd;kdk; fyf;fj;jpy; Mo;e;jJ. ,Jtiu vd;id cw;W Nehf;fpathW

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Kfj;jpy; ve;j rydKkpy;yhky; ,Ue;j rpj;jh; ngUkhd; VNjheifr; Ritia urpg;gJ Nghy> tha; tpl;L eiff;fyhdhh;. ,ijf;fz;L ehd; NkYk; kpuz;L NghNdd;. rphpg;gpd; ,ilNa cld;te;jth;fisg; ghh;j;J ~~uh[h vd;id Nkhb tpj;ij fhl;lnrhy;fpwhh;fs;" vd;W $wpathNw NkYk; rphpj;jhh;!

,ijf; fz;L> vd;id mt;tsthf gpbf;fhj xUth; 'Naht;!rpdpkhf;fhuNu! thia tr;Rf;fpl;L> nfhQ;r Neuk; Rk;kh ,Uf;fkhl;Buh! mjpfg; gpurq;fpj;jdkhf ele;J fpl;L rq;fg;gLj;JwpNa"vd;whh;. rkaj;ijg; gad;gLj;jpf; nfhz;l jpUg;jp mth; Kfj;jpy;epytpaJ. Mdhy; clNd FWf;fpl;l rpj;jh; ngUkhd; me;j kdpjiughh;j;J 'ePq;fs; jhd; ,g;g mtrug;glwPq;f! Vd;D Nfl;lhj; jhNdtpil fpilf;Fk;. md;djhdk; epiwa NgUf;F nra;a Ntz;Lk; vd;w>Mh;tj;jpNy jhd; mg;gbf; Nfl;lhh;. ,jpy; mtUf;F Ra yhgk; VJkpy;iy!ePq;f NtzhghUq;f> vjph;fhyj;jpNy mtU vg;gb vy;yhk; md;djhdk;nra;thUd;D" vd;W $w> me;j kdpjh; Kfj;jpy; < Mltpy;iy.

nksdk; fiye;j rpj;jh; ngUkhd; vd;id rw;W Neuk;cw;Wg;ghh;j;jhh;. gpwF nky;ypa Fuypy; Ngrj;Jtq;fpdhh;. ~~uh[hNuhl;Ly ghk;G> fPhpfis itj;J nfhz;L tha; [hyf;fh Ngrpjhaj;J tpf;fpwhNd! mtidr; Rw;wp $l;lk; $LfpwJ. mtidf;fz;L mQ;RfpwJ. mtd; nrhy;Yf;F fl;Lg; gl;L fhir ,of;fpwJ.me;j tpj;ijf;fhud; gpiog;G elj;Jfpwtd;. mtDf;F mJ njhopy;.,ijg; Nghy; khah [hy tpj;ijfshy; jd;id ,iwtd; mtjhuk;>Kdpth; mtjhuk; vd;nwy;yhk; $wp mij ek;gp $Lk; kf;fsplk;>,d;W rpy rhkpahh;fs; gtdptUfpwhh;fs;. Nfhb fzf;fpy; gzk;Nfl;fpwhh;fs;. ,jdhy; mth;fis ehb XLgth;fSf;F vd;dfpilf;fpwJ? gyu;> ehd; ,d;dhuJ gf;jh; vd;W $wp. jkf;FngUik Nrh;j;Jf; nfhs;fpwhh;fs;. ghh;! ghh;! fy;Y}hp ghU> kUj;Jtkidfs; ghU> M];ukj;ij ghU> (mJ nghpa fl;blkhf gyVhpahtpy; tphpe;J fplf;Fk;.) jhprdk; ghh;! vd;W kf;fis gpukpf;fitf;fpd;wdh;. rhjhuzkhf ,Ue;j xUj;jd; ,t;tsT gpukpg;Gf;FMshf kha tpj;ijfs; mtDf;F Njitg;gLfpd;wd. mjdhy;nra;fpwhh;fs; mth;fs; nfsutkhf gpiog;G elj;Jfpwth;fs;. ehd;mg;gb gpiog;gjw;fhf gpwf;ftpy;iy. ehd; te;j Nehf;fk; xUgj;J Ngiuj; Njh;e;njLg;gjw;F jhd;. Vd; vd;why; 2010f;Fk; gpd;Vw;gLk; moptpd; NghJ mth;fs; kf;fSf;F Mf;fg;gzp Ghpthh;fs;.cyfpy; jh;kj;ij epiy ehl;Lthh;fs;. mg;NghJ nfhq;fzth;Ml;rp Vw;gLk;. ehd; te;j Ntiy Kba rpy tUlq;fNs ,Uf;fpd;wd.Kbe;jJk; ,e;j rl;ilia fol;b vwpe;J tpLNtd;.|| vd;W nrhy;yp

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Kbf;fTk;. ehq;fs; vy;NyhUk; vd;d ,g;gb? ,d;Dk; rpy tUlq;fs;jhd; ,Ug;Ngd; vd;gJ Nghy $WfpwhNu vd;W Ntjidg; gl;Nlhk;!kTdj;ijf; fiyj;j rpj;jh; ngUkhd; rphpj;jthNw gLq;fs;! gLq;fs;ehisf;F rPf;fpukhfNt Gwg;gl;Lg; Nghf Ntz;Lk;!>|| vd;whu;.

Mo;e;j cwf;fj;jpy; ,Ue;J fz;fs; nkJthf jpwf;f>gwitfs; $l;lq;$l;lkhf rpwfbj;J ehyh gf;fKk; gy xypfSld;$f;$ vd;W $tp gwe;J nrd;wd. tz;Lfs; hPq;fhuk; nra;jd.tpl;by; G+r;rpfs; ,iyf;F ,iy jhtpd. kuq;fs; ,sk; njd;wypy;nka;kwe;J jiyairj;jJ Nghy vd; kdjpy; gl;lJ.

me;j ,jkhd fhiy Ntisapy; epj;jpiu Njtp vd;id tpl;Lmfy khl;Nld; vd;W mlk; gpbj;jhs;. gpwF gpbthjkhf cwf;fj;ijcjwptpl;L cw;rhfj;Jld; vOe;J cl;fhh;e;Njd;. fhiy #hpad;,aw;if md;idapd; vopiy kQ;rs; ntspr;rk; Nghl;L fhl;bf;nfhz;bUe;jhd;. mtru> mtrukhf fhiyf; fld;fisKbj;Jf;nfhz;L vq;fs; FO mq;fpUe;J gazj;ij njhlq;fpaJ!

rpj;jh; ngUkhid njhlh;e;J nrd;w ehq;fs;. 'ehkf;fy; mUtp"vDk; ,lj;ij mile;Njhk;! mofpa mUtp! nts;spia cUf;fpCw;wpdhw; Nghy;> ];gbfkha; ,sfp tPo;e;J nfhz;L ,Ue;jJ.me;j mw;Gjkhd #o;epiyapy;> xU nghpa kuj;jbapy; jq;fpNdhk;.

rpj;jh; ngUkhd; rw;W js;spapUe;j ghiwapy; nrd;W mkh;e;jhh;.kw;wth;fs; Xa;ntLf;fj; Jtq;fpdh;. ehd; rpj;jiu Nehf;fp ele;Njd;!'th uh[h! cl;fhh;! VNjh Fog;gkhf ,Ug;gJ NghypUf;F|| vd;WNfl;fTk;> ~~Iah! ehL nts;sf;fhud; fpl;l mbikahfp fple;jg;Ngh$l> ehl;bNy tWikapy;iy! &gha;f;F gjpdhW gb mhprp. vl;L&gha;f;F xU gTDd;D vq;f nghpatq;f nrhy;Ythq;f! mg;gehl;bNy jUkk; ,Ue;jpr;R> [dq;f fpl;l nja;tgak; ,Ue;Jr;R>fy;tpawpT Fiwth ,Ue;jhYk;> kdpjd; kdpjdhfNt thoKaw;rpj;jhq;f tuyhW! Mdh> ,d;idf;Nfh epiyik jiy fPohNghapUr;Nr! kio FiwQ;R fpl;Nl tUJ! gbr;rtq;f rjtPjk;>mjpfkhf> mjpfkhf kD\d; kpUfkh khwpfpl;Nl Nghwhd;!vy;yhUNk mtrug; gLwhq;f! Nfhtg;gLwhq;f> nfhiy> nfhs;ismjpfkhapLr;R. Rje;jpu ehl;Ly kf;fSf;F Xl;L Nghlw ehs;kl;Lk; jhd; [dehafj;ij gj;jpNa epidg;G tUJ!

murpay;thjpfs; muh[fthjpahapl ;lhq ;f! Viofs;>ViofshfNt ,Uf;fpwhh;fs;. md;W md;dpad; ehl;il Ruz;Lfpwhd;vd;W $wp> Rje;jpug; Nghuhl;lj;j elj;jpdhh;fs;! Mdhy; ,d;Wek;ik ehNk> MSfpNwhk; vd;W nrhy;fpNwhk;! Mdhy; Xl;LNghlNt fhR nfhLj;J gof;fp tpl ;lhh ;fNs! mjdhy;jFjpaw;wth;fSf;F gjtp fpilj;J tpLfpwJ. ,jw;nfy;yhk;

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vd;d fhuzk;?" vd;W Nfl;lJk; rpj;jh; ngUkhd; Gd;difAld;kPz;Lk; Ngrj; Jtq;fpdhh;. ~~uh[h! Kd;Ng cdf;F ,jw;nfy;yhk;gjpy; nrhy;ypapUf;fpNwd;. ,g;NghJ elg;gJ gwit> kpUfq;fspd;Ml;rp! kpUfq;fSf;fpilNa jh;k epahak; vjph; ghh;f;f KbAkh?gwitfSk; Raeyj;jpd; mq;fq;fs; jhNd! tYj;jtd;,isj;jtid nty;thd;! jb vLj;jtd; jz;ly;fhud;Dnrhy;Ythq;fy;y! mJ khjphp jhd; murpay;thjpfs;! vhpapw tPl;by;GLq;fpa tiu yhgk; jhNd vd;W miygth;fs; jhNd> gjtpf;fhfgQ;rkh ghjfq;fisg; Gupe;J kf;fis Ruz;Lk; NghJ kl;Lk;>vjph;fl;rp MSk; fl;rp vd;w Ngjq;fis kwe;J. $l;Lf; nfhs;ismbg;gJ gyKiw epjh;rdkhf kf;fSf;F njhpe;jpUe;Jk;>.mth;fSf;F mJ gw;wp ftiyNa ,y;iy. jhDk; jd; FLk;gKk;tho tho;tJjhd; jdpkdpjdpd; jw;fhy tho;f;if Kiw! tug;GauePh; caUk;> ePh; cau ney; caUk;> ney; cau Fb caUk;> Fbcau Nfhd; cah;thd;! ePh; cauDk;dh fhyk; jtwhky; gUtkioRgpl;rj;ij ms;spj; jUk; tifapy; nga;aZk;! mg;gb kionghopaDk;dh Ms;gtd; ePjp jtwhky;> jUkk; jtwhky;> Fbfisfhg;gtdhf> Nerpg;gtdhf ,Uf;fZk;! Mdh ,g;g mg;gbahelf;FJ?|| vd;whh;. mg;NghJ ebfh; vk;.[p.Mh; Ml;rp ele;Jnfhz;bUe;jJ! mjdhy; jpLf;fpl;l ehd; ~~Iah vk;.[p.Mh; nghpanfhilts;sy;. jhdpUe;j fl;rp jtwhd ghijapy; nry;tjhff;$wp> jhNd GJ fl;rp fz;lhh;. mth; Ml;rp ey;yhjhNd elf;FJvd;Nwd;;! ~~uh[h| ehd; Kd;Ng uhkypq;f rhkpia ghh;j;J xUth;.,g;NghJ jhd; xU kdpjidf; fz;Nld; vd;W kfpo;e;jhNu mijg;Nghy; kdpjh;fSk; mt;tg;NghJ Njhd;Wthh;fs;! mg;gbgl;lth;fs;jhd; vk;.[p.MUk;> fiyQUk;> ey;yJ nra;a Kad;wtu;fs;$l ,Uf;Fk; fl;rpf;fhuh;fs; vd;w $l;lk;> mth;fsJ yl;rpaq;fismyl;rpag;gLj;jpd. ,g;NghJ MSk; vk;.[p.Mh; vd;d Kad;Wk;mtuhy; ,aq;f KbahJ! mtNuh ebfh; mtiur;Rw;wp ,Ug;gth;fs;mt;tsT NgUk; mtiu tpl> ebg;Gj; jpwik cs;sth;fs;.tho;f;ifapNy ebf;Fk; ty;yth;fs;! ,jdhy; ,d;W mthpd; cs;sk;glhjghL gLfpwJ! VjhtJ ey;yJ nra;aZk;Djhd; kjpa czTjpl;lj;ijf; nfhz;Lte;jhh;! Mdh gyd; vjpubahfj; jhNd ,Uf;F!gs;sp kzp mbj;jTld; gbf;f XLk; gps;isfs; ,d;W rhg;ghLjl;ilj; J}f;fp nfhz;ly;yth XLfpwhh;fs;.

,jdhy; me;j gps;isfisg; ngw;w jfg;gd;fSf;F NrhWNghLk; fhR kpr;rk; MfpwJ. Mdhy; mij vLj;J nfhz;L Ngha;rhuhaf;filfspy; my;yth nfhl;Lfpwhh;fs;! vk;.[p.MUf;F kJvd;gJ tp\k; Nghy ntWf;Fk; tp\ak; vd;W nrhy;Ythh;fs;!Mdhy; ,d;W murhq;fk; elj;j me;j fhR jhNd Njitg;gLfpwJ!fhe;jpapd; nfhs;iffis mNefk; Ngu; kwe;J tpl;lNghJ ,th;vd;d nra;thh;.> nkhj;jj;jpy; Foe;ijfis ngw;Nwhh; ,Ue;Jk;>mdhijfshf;fp tpl;lNj murhq;fk;! muR nrq;Nfhy; mlkhdj;jpy;

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my;yth ,Uf;fpwJ!" vd;W epWj;jpath; ~~,e;j epiyikfisf;fz;L Ntjidg; gl;Lf; nfhz;L ,Uf;Fk; mth; cly; tpiutpy;Neha;fskhf khwg; NghfpwJ.|| vd;W $wpathW> rpj;jh; ngUkhd;xU %ypifg; nghbia vd; ifapy; Nghl;L ~rhg;gpL~ vd;whh;!ehDk; ae;jpukhf nray;gl;L me;j nghbia thapy; Nghl;L nfhz;Nld;.

mJ tiu ehd; mwpe;jplhj mUikahd UrpNahL> nja;tPfkzj;NjhL ,Ue;jJ! ~uh[h~ ePAk; Xa;ntL vd;W $wp tpl;LfQ;rh rpYk;gpia epug;gj; Jtq;fpdhh;. ehDk;-rw;Wj; js;sp nrd;Wjdpikapy; mkh;e;Njd;! vd;id mwpahky; fz;fs; %baJ. Mdhy;tpopj;Jf; nfhz;L ,Ug;gJ Nghy; vd;Ds; gy fhl;rpfs; Njhd;wpd!tpNdhjkhd czh;TfSk;> mDgtq;fSk; gilnaLj;jd! kdk;Mde;jj;jpy; jpisj;jJ! tz;z tisaq;fs; tl;lkpl;ld.mjdpilNa VNjNjh Ghpahj fhl;rpfs;. cwq;fhkNy fdT Nghyczh;e;Njd;. ,g;gb vt;tsT Neuk; mkh;e;NjNdh ahdwpNad;.ahNuh vd;id nky;yj; njhLtij czh;e;J fz; tpopj;Njd;.vjpNu rpj;jh; ngUkhd;! tp\kg;Gd;difAld; epd;wpUe;jhh;. "vd;duh[h cd; kdir ghh;j;jhah?" vd;whh;. vdf;F xd;Wk; Ghpahky;tpopj;Njd;. kdir ghh;g;gjh? czuj;jhNd KbAk;! vd;W vd;Ds;Nfs;tp vOe;jJ! clNd rpj;jh; ~~vd;d uh[h Ghpaiyah? ,g;Nghtz;z> tz;z tisa Gif %l;lq;fSf;F ,ilNa vijg;ghh;j;jhNah mJ jhd; cd; kdk;.kWgbAk; Kaw;rp nra;! mjpy;mz;lq;fisNa eP> ghh;f;fyhk;" vd;W $wptpl;L fhl;Lf;Fs; elf;fj;Jtq;fpdhh;. rpj;jh; thf;F> gypj;jJ! ntF tpiutpy; vd; kdk;kPz;Lk; ,t;tplj;jpy; rpy tpguq;fis njhpag;gLj;jpdhy; ed;whfNt,Uf;Fk;. rpj;jhpd; if tpuy;fs; vd; Nkdpapy; gjpa kPz;Lk; vd;epidTf;F te;Njd;! jpahdj;jpy; mkh;e;jtd; mg;NghJ mUtpapy;Fspj;Jf; nfhz;bUe;Njd; mJTk; eph;thzkhf! vd;dthapw;Wvdf;Fok;gpNdd;! ~~uh[h ,e;j tdj;jpy; ngz; Njtijfs;cyhTfpd;whh;fs;! mNjhL kw;wth;fs; cd;id gw;wp Fiw $wj;Jtq;fptpLthh;fs;. clNd Jzpia cLj;jpf; nfhs;> vd;W $wptpl;LkPz;Lk; mq;fpUe;J mfd;whh;! vd; eph;thz epiyikia fz;Lmtkhdj;;jhy; cly; $rpaJ. ,e;j rq;flkhd epiyiar;rkhspf;ftop Ghpahky; jpifj;j ehd; mUtpia tpl;L mtrukhf ntspNawpcilfis> cLj;jpf; nfhz;Nld;. mg;NghJ miu kaf;f epiyapNyNa,Ue;Njd;. fhl;L kuq;fSk; nrbfSk; vdf;Fj; Njtijfs; NghyTk;>kdpjh;fs; NghyTk;> fhl;rpaspj;jd! ,e;j fdT epiyapy; vdfhy;fs; rpj;jiu nrd;wile;jJ. mth; mkUk;gb ifairf;f mkh;e;Njd;.

~vd;d uh[h ,d;idf;F ,uT ,ir epfo;r;rp xz;Zf;F Vw;ghLgz;zpapUf;fhq;f!|| vd;whh;. ,ir epfo;r;rpah? mJTk; ,e;j fhl;by;,utpyh? Gjph;! tpsq;ftpy;iy!

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rpj;jh;fs;> hp\pfs;> Kdpth;fs;> Njth;fs; vy;yhUk; Nrh;e;J xU,ir epfo;r;rp elj;Jthh;fs;! ,d;idf;F uhj;jphp ePAk; Njtfhdk;Nfl;fg; Nghfpwha;!" vd;whh;.

NkYk; Gjph;> kiyahf cUntLj;jJ! xd;Wk; Ghpahky; vq;fs;FOtpdh; mkh;e;jpUe;j ,lj;jpw;Fr; nrd;Nwd;. Mdhy; vd;idf;fz;lTld; vy;NyhUk; Kfj;ij jpUg;gpf; nfhz;ldh;. mg;NghJvq;fSld; te;jpUe;j rptypq;fk; vd;w ,isQd; fhl;Lf; Fs;spUe;JtpwF Nrfhpj;J vLj;Jf; nfhz;L te;jtd; tpwFfis mLg;gUNfNghl;L tpl;L> vd;id Nehf;fp te;jhd;.

te;jtd; vd;id ghh;j;J Nfypahf rphpj;J tpl;L> 'vd;d rhh;!,g;gb gz;zpl;Bq;f?" vd;whd;.

ehd; Ghpahky; ~~mg;gb vd;d nra;J tpl;Nld;? vd;wJk;. vd;drhh; tpisahLwPq;fsh? vd;wtd; Fuiy jho;j;jp ~cq;fSf;Fvd;d Mr;R rhh;? Vd; mg;gb gz;zPq;f?|| vd;whd;!

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'mNjh mq;F cl;fhh;e;J jpahdj;jp;y; ,Ue;jPh;fs;! jpBnud;WvOe;J cq;fs; bui]nay;yhk; fol;b Nghl;L tpl ;L>eldkhbathNw mUtpf;F Xb> Mde;jkha; Fspf;f Muk;gpj;jPh;fs;!,ij fz;lJk;> vq;fSf;nfy;yhk; xNu mjph;r;rp!

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~~XN`h! mjhd; vy;yhUk; Kiwg;gh ,Uf;fhq;fsh?|| vd;W $wptpl;L>NtjidAld; jiy Fdpe;Njd;. Jtf;fj;jpNyNa me;j $l;lj;jpy;rpyh;. vd;id ntWg;ghh;fs;. ntWk; thia nky;Yfpwth;fSF;F mty;fpilj;J tpl;lNj! ,dpNky;> Xahky; mir Nghl Jtq;fp tpLthh;fNs!vd;W> vd; kdk; rQ;ryg;gl;lJ. kdk; rpj;jhplk;; ruzile;jJ.

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te;j fisg;G jP %l;b mf;dpia tsh;j;Njhk;. cly; Nrhh;thy;mf;fpdpia Rw;wp gLj;Jf; nfhz;Nlhk;. cwf;fk; clNd te;jJ.midtUk; jk;ik kwe;J Mo;e;j J}f;fj;jpy; ,Ue;Njhk;! ahNuhvd;id vOg;gpaJ Nghy; czh;e;Njd;! rpj;jh;jhd; vOg;Gfpwhh;vd;W vz;zp> fz; tpopj;Njd;. me;j gaq;fu fhL! fLk; ,Uspy;%o;fpf; fple;jJ. vq;fs; mUfpy;; mizahky; vhpe;J nfhz;bUe;jjPapd; ntspr;rj;jpy; kw;wth;fs; fLk; Fsphpy; RUz;L fple;J>cwq;fp nfhz;bUg;gJ njhpe;jJ. rpj;jh; gLj;jpUe;j gLf;ifkl;Lk; ,Ue;jJ. Mdhy; rpj;jh; mjpypy;iy! rw;W js;sp Ik;gJ>mWgJ mbfspy; tPo;e;J nfhz;bUe;j ehkf;fy; mUtpapd; Xir.

mNjhL NtW ahNuh rpyh; NgRk; XirAk; fye;J te;J fhjpy;xyp;j;jd! kdk; glglj;jJ. mr;rk; cr;rj;ij mile;jJ. me;j Ngr;Rf;fspd; eLtpy; vd; ngaiu ~uh[;Fkhh;~ vd;W ahNuh nrhy;YtJk; Nfl;lJ!me;j Fuiy cw;Wf; Nfl;Nld;> mJ rpj;jh; ngUkhd; Fuy; NghYk;xypj;jJ! mNj Neuk; jpBh; vd;W ,irf; fUtpfspd; ,dpa ,ir> nts;skhff;fhw;wpy; gha;e;jJ. ,ijf; Nfl;lJk;> vd; cs;sk; Mde;jf; $j;jhbaJ.

',d;W ,uT ~~Njtfhdk; Nfl;gha;" vd;W rpj;jh; $wpaJ vd;epidtpy; te;jJ. mr;rk; mfd;wJ. Mde;jk; miy NkhjpaJ.Nksjhs thj;jpa xypfs; njhlh;e;J xU kzp Neuj;Jf;F Fiwahky;>xypj;Jf; nfhz;Nl ,Ue;jJ. me;j ,ir vd;id KOJk; Mf;ukpj;Jf;nfhz;lJ. mij fz; %b urpj;J nfhz;bUe;jtd;> vg;NghJ kPz;Lk;cwf;fj;jpy; Mo;e;J NghNdd;; vd;gJ vdf;Nf njhpahJ! tpbe;jJ$lj; njhpahky; vd; J}f;fk; njhlh;e;J nfhz;NlapUf;f> ahNuhvd;id vOg;gpdhh;fs;. cwf;fk; fiye;jJ. cs;sk; kyu rpj;jiu Njbr;nrd;Nwd;. jdpikapy; mkh;e;jpUe;j me;j kfhd;> 'vd;d uh[h fz; tpopj;Jfr;NrhpNfl;l fisg;Ngh>|| vd;W fpz;lyhf tpdtpdhh;. ,uT epfo;r;rpiamg;gbNa nrhy;fpwhNu vd;w tpag;Gld;> Mde;jkhf ,Ue;jJ. Mdhy;,il> ,ilNa Ngr;Rf;Fuy;fs; Nfl;Nld;. me;j Neuj;jpy; ,e;j,lj;jpy; ahh; te;J Ngrpdhh;fs; vd;W vd; Iaj;ijAk; ntspapl;Nld;.

,ijf; Nfl;lJk; 'X! mJth! vd; nrhe;jf;fhuq;f! mjdhy;jhd; fr;Nrhp vy;yhk; ele;jJ! cdf;F ,ird;dh> ,\;lkhr;Nr!mjhd; vOg;gpNdd;" vd rhjhuzkhf $wptpl;L> fQ;rh igia vLj;jhh;.,ij Nfl;lJk; vd; kdjpy; Mr;rhpaKk;> Mde;jKk; fye;j xU GJczh;r;rp kha ke;jpu fhl;rpfis rpdpkhtpy; ghh;j;j khjphp vy;yhNk>khakh ,Uf;Nf vd;W> vz;z miyfs; vd;id Gul;b vLj;jd. xd;Wk;Ngr ,ayhky; rpiyahf epd;w vd;idg;ghh;j;j rpj;jh; ngUkhd;> 'ehisf;Fehk; 'vl;nlUik ghspf;F NghNwhk;! vy;yhh; fpl;NlAk; nrhy;ypUq;f"> vd;wthWjpahdj;jpypUe;jhh;.

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fhiy fld;fis Kbj;Jf; nfhz;L vl;nlUik ghspf;Fgazj;ij Jtq;fpNdhk;. nrd;w ghij tu> tu fuLKulhfelf;fNt jLkhw Ntz;bapUe;jJ.

xU ,lj;jpy; nrq;Fj;jhf ghiwfs; kPJ ghij. NkypUe;JxU rpW mUtp! ghiwfis eidj;jthW> nrd;W nfhz;bUe;jJ.mjdhy; ghiwfs; rWf;fpd. kpfTk; vr;rhpf;ifAld;> fuzk;jg;gpdhy; kuzk; vd;Dk; epiyapy; %r;ir gpbj;Jf; nfhz;Lnky;y xUth; gpd; xUtuhf Vwpf;nfhz;bUe;Njhk;! fhNyh> ifNahrw;W rWf;fpdhy; $l Mokhdg; gFjpapy; tpo Ntz;baJ jhd;KbthFk;! ehd; ,Ue;j gFjpapy; fPNo epd;W nfhz;bUe;j rikay;nra;gth; rpd;d igad; khjphp njhpe;jhh;! vd; ,ja xyp vd;fhjpy; buk; thrpg;gJ Nghy; Nfl;lJ. NkNy ,Ug;gth; rWf;fptpOe;jhy;> mtUf;F fPNo mLj;J Vwpf;nfhz;bUg;gth; Nky; jhd;tpo Ntz;Lk;. mg;NghJ me;j ,UtUk; mLj;J VWgth; NkNytpo ,g;gb rq;fpyp njhlh; Nghy; xUth; Nky; xUth; tpOe;J fPo;Nehf;fp gazk; nra;a Ntz;baJ jhd;.

vdf;F NkNy gjpndl;L taJ igad; xUtd; jpzwpf;nfhz;bUe;jhd;. rpj;jh; tpWtpW vd;W Vwp rkjsj;ij mile;jTld;>vd;id vl;bg;ghh;j;jhh;. vq;fs; Kfj;jpy; gPjp gPwpl;L XLtijf;fz;l mth; Gd;difAld; vq;fis Nehf;fp 'gag;glhky; thUq;fs;!fPNo tpOe;J cly; rpjwpdhYk;> mij xd;W Nrh;j;J fhg;ghw;WNtd;!,q;F te;jth;fSf;F nghpa tpNkhrdk; fpilf;Fk;. cq;fshy;KbAk; VwpthUq;fs;" vd;whh;.

,ijf; Nfl;l vd;dhy; NkNyAk; Nghf Kbahky;> fPNoAk;Nghf Kbahky; gakhf ,Ue;jJ! Vd; vd;why; ehd; ghijiaghjp fle;j-ghjp fpzW jhz;ba epiyapy; ,Ue;Njd;. vdf;FfPNo epd;wth; Gfo;ngw;w gioa rpdpkh glj;jahhpg;G epWtdj;Jf;Fnrhe;jf;fhuh;! mtUk; jaq;fp epd;whh;.

mNj rkak; vd; jiyf;F NkNy Vwpf;nfhz;bUe;j me;jgjpndl;L taJg; igad; Vw Kbahky; jtpj;J nfhz;bUe;jhd;.,ijf; fz;lJk; ehd; NkYk; fyq;fpg; NghNdd;> ,J vd;d rpdpkhtpy;tUk; kiyNaWk; fhl;rpNghy; ,Uf;Nf. trkh te;J khl;bfpl;NlhNk!

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vd;W rpe;jpj;jpUf;f vq;fs; jiyf;F NkNy xU gr;ir epwehfk;. vd;id Vsdkha; ghh;j;Jf; nfhz;bUe;jJ. ,J vd;dlhNrhjid ek; jiykPJ tpOe;J fbj;J tpl;lhy; mNjh fjpjhd;.Ngrhk rpdpkhf;fhuNdhL $j;jbj;J Fk;khsk; Nghl;L vy;NyhUk;rhFk; NghJ ehKk; rhfNtz;baJ jhNd. ,njd;d Mq;fpyglj;jpy ebf;fpwkhjphp ,Uf;F fky;> u[pdp $l ^g; Nghl;L jhd;VwZk;> ekf;F NkNy ghk;G> fPNo gL ghjhs gs;sk;. ,e;jNrhjidiaAk; NtjidiaAk; epidj;J vd; kdNk epd;Wtpl;lJ.rhpahf khl;bf; nfhz;Nlhk; vd;W epidf;f vd; gpd;dhbte;jth;fs; Kfj;jpy; glglg;Gk; njk;Ng ,y;yhjth; Nghy; jpzwpnfhz;L ,Ue;jdh;.

NkNy Vwpg; NghNthkh? ,y;y xNuabahf NkNyNa Ngha;tpLNthkh? vd;w gaj;jhy; kdk; js;shbaJ.

mg;NghJ fPNo ,Ue;J ~FU ehjh FU ehjh| vd;w xypneUq;fp te;jJ. ghh;j;jhy; vq;fSld; te;jpUe;j mWgJ taJfle;j = jpUthye;Jiw nry;yKj;J itj;jpah; Ntfkhfvq;fisj;jhz;b NkNyNawpg; Ngha;tpl;lhh;. ,ijf;fz;L vd; kdjpy;xU GJ njk;G jiy J}f;fpaJ. mWgNj VWk; NghJ> ehk,Ugj;jpehY jhNd ek;khy; Vd; KbahJ vd;W> epidj;j NghJvd; jiyf;Fk; Nky; jpzwpf;nfhz;bUf;Fk; gjpndl;ilg; ghh;j;jJk;>gPwpl;l jd;dk;gpf;if. cld; Ntuw;W rha;e;jJ. mg;NghJ fPNo,Ue;j me;j rpdpkh ez;gh; ~vd;d rhh;! vd;whh; vd; jd;khdk;kPiria KWf;fp jiy J}f;fpaJ! euk;Gfs; Gilj;jd! MwpYk;rhT> E}wpYk; rhT vd;W kdk; njk;G+l;baJ mt;tsTjhd; NtfkhfNkNy Vwj; Jtq;fpNdd;.

,e;j ,lj;ij gy;yp Nghy; jto;e;J ghjp ,lj;ij mile;Njhk;.mJTk; vg;gb vd;why;> me;jg; ghiwfs; jz;zPhpy; %o;fpAs;sjhy;ed;whf Cwptpl;bUe;jJ. VjhtJ fpupg;ghf (grip) xU ghiwianjhl;L fhy;gpb itj;J> mLj;j ghiwia njhl> vdJ gSjhq;fhky;> me;jg; ghiw ifNahL tu> fhy; gl;l rpd;d ghiwfPNo tpo> clNd mLj;j ghiwia nkJthf njhl! jpf; jpf;vd;W jpfpy; glk; NghyNt ,Ue;jJ. vij nrhy;y! vd;d nra;a.me;j Neuj;jpy; vdJ rpdpkh ge;jh Mztk;> mfk;ghtk;> tPuk;midj;Jk;> jtpL nghbahf;fp> FUNt jQ;rk; vd;W ,Ue;Njd;.me;j epiyia ,g;NghJ epidj;jhy; $l kdk; gijgijf;fpwJ.

NkNy kPz;Lk; vq;fs; gazk; njhlh;e;jJ. topapy; xUFl;ilapy; gr;ir gNrnyd;W ePh; epuk;gp ,Ue;jJ! mjd; mUfpy;

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nrd;W epd;w rpj;jh; ngUkhd; ~~kiy Vwp fisj;Jg;Ngha;,Uf;fpwPh;fs; ,e;j jPh;j;jj;jpy; MSf;F %d;W if vLj;Jrhg;gpLq;fs;! fisg;G jPUk;||; vd;whh;. ehq;fSk; mt;thNw nra;Njhk;.rpj;jh; ngUkhd; nrhd;dthW> fisg;G ,Ue;j ,lNk njhpahky;kiwe;jJ! ,e;j 'jPh;j;jj;jpy; Fspj;jhy; ghtq;fSf;F tpNkhrdk;fpilf;Fk;!" vd;wJk; vq;fSf;F nrhy;y Kbahj kfpo;r;rp!

~~,ij Vd; vl;nlUik ghspd;D nrhy;whq;f?|| vd;WtpdtpNdd;. ~~xUth; vl;L vUik khLfspd; Njhiy ,izj;Jfapwha; jphpj;jhy; mJ vt;tsT ePsk; tUNkh> mt;tsT Mok;,e;j jPh;j;jk;! ,J> rhjhuz Fl;il ,y;iy. kfh GdpjkhdjPh;j;jk;! Njth;fNs ,q;F ePuhl tUthh;fs;. ,q;F Gz;zpakpUe;jhy;tuKbAk;. ePq;fs; ghf;fparhypfs;|| vd;whh;.

~~tUq;fhyj;jpy; vd; kf;fs; xU Nfhb NgUf;Fk; ,jpy; jputpak;itj;jpUf;Nfd;. ,J jhd; muf;F khspif Nfhl;il ,q;F ,g;NghJvtUk; njhlKbahJ. Ie;J jiy ehfk; fhty; fhf;fpwJ>|| vd;whh;.,ijf; Nfl;lJk; vd; cly; rpyph;j;jJ. ,g;NghJ epidj;jhYk;vd; kdk; rpyph;f;Fk;.

vy;yhNk nja;tPf mwGjk;. mk;kid eif myq;fhuf; fhl;rpapy;,q;Ffz;Nld;. md;W ,uT xU Gwk; mf;dpN`hkk; vhpamidtUk; cwq;f epiwa hp\pfs; ,uT 11 kzpf;F Nky; rhiurhiuahf> mq;F nrd;W me;j gr;ir Fl;ilapy; ePuhLtijf; fz;Nld.

ebfh; rpth[pfNzrd; ngz;; Ntlk; Nghl;lJ Nghy; 30 taJkjpf;fj;jf;f nrf;fnrNtnyd> gl;Lg;Glit> eif Mguzq;fSld;jha; rf;jp tu mth; Kd;Dk; gpd;Dk; epiwa hp\pfs; tu> topapy;ghiwapy; mth;fs; nry;Yk; ghijapy; mbNad; cwq;f! me;jmk;kh ahh; mJ topapy; cwq;Ffpwhh;fs;> vd;W Nfl;f> ,th;rpj;jhpd; gps;is uh[Fkhh; vd;W $w> mth;fs; rw;W js;spFsj;jUNf nrd;W vd;d nra;jhh;fs; vd;W gae;J fz;fis%l 1/2 kzp Neuj;jpw;Fs; mq;fpUe;J midtUk; Gwg;gl;L nrd;Wtpl;ldh;. ,e;j khah[hy fhl;rpia fz;Lk; fhzhky; jpifj;Njd;.nja;t ufrpaj;ij $WtJ kpfj;jtW. nrhy;y Ntz;bath;fSf;Fnrhy;ypj; jhNd Mf Ntz;Lk;.

ePz;l gazj;jpw;Fg; gpwF ,uT te;jJ! xU ,lj;ijNjh;e;njLj;J mq;F jq;fpNdhk;. rw;W js;sp jdpahf mkh;e;jpUe;jrpj;jh; ngUkhid vq;fpUe;Njh jpBh; vd;W te;j xU tz;L mtiuxU Rw;W> Rw;wp tpl;L nrd;W tpl;lJ.

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rpj;jh; rydkpd;wp mkh;e;J ,Ue;jhh;! mt;tsT nghpa mjpratz;il ehd; vd; tho; ehspy; fz;ljpy;iy! Mdhy; mijj;njhlh;e;J mLj;J ele;j fhl;rp NkYk; mw;Gjkhf ,Ue;jJ.vq;fpUe;Njh jpBh; vd;W te;J rpj;jh; ngUkhd; Kd;G mkh;e;jJxU ,dk; Ghpahj nghpa gwit! mg;NghJk; rydkpd;wp mijNehf;fpa rpj;jh; ngUkhd; mth;fs;> ',Njh ghk;ghl;b rpj;jh; te;J,Uf;fpwhh;fs;. jhprdk; nra;J nfhs;Sq;fs;" vd;W $wpaTld;vy;NyhUk; me;j gwitia gf;jpAld; tzq;fpNdhk;. me;jg;gwitia ghh;j;j NghJ vd; fz;fSf;F xU nghpa jtrp[lhKbAld; Nahf jz;lk;> fkz;lyj;Jld; fhl;rpaspg;gJ Nghy;Njhd;wpaJ. rw;W Neuj;jpy; gwit cUtpy; te;j ghk;ghl;b rpj;jh;ngUkhd; gwe;J kiwe;jhh;.

gr;ir kiy NkNy nrd;W tpl;lhy; mJ xU jdp cyfkhfNtnjhpAk ; . Mq;fhq ;Nf rpd ;dQ;r pW kiyf; fpuhkq ;fs ; >njhiytpypUe;J ghh;j;jhy; rpj;jpuk; jPl;baJ Nghy; Njhd;Wk;.mt;tg;NghJ kiythrpfs; elkhl;lk;! vq;F jpUk;gpDk; gRik!gr;ir kiy vDk; ngaUf;F nghUj;jkhf fhl;rpaspj;jJ! ,e;jkiyf;fhLfspy; ,utpy; jq;FtJ> vd;gJ kpfTk; Mgj;jhdJ.MapDk; rpj;jh; ngUkhd; mUshy; ehq;fs; vt;tpj Mgj;Jf;Fk;Mshfhky; jq;fp ,Ue;Njhk;.

md;W ,uT vdf;F rhpahfj; J}f;fk; tutpy;iy. vd; kdk;rpj;jiug; gw;wp rpe;jpf;f Jtq;fpUe;jJ. ,g;gb Vwhj kiyNawp%ypiffisj; Njb> nfhba kpUfq;fSk;> nfhba ghk;GfSk;>nrq;Fj;jhd ghiwfSk; nfhz;l jpf;F jpir njhpahj mlh;e;jfhl;by; Njba %ypiffis gwpj;Jr; nrd;W> kUe;jhf;fp fhRrk;ghjpf;fhky; mth;fshf jUtij md;djhdk; nra;J kfpo;;fpwhNu>vy;yhk; mwpe;j rpj;jh;. epr;rak; ,ij Gz;zpak; Njb nra;akhl;lhh;!Mifahy; md;djhdk; vt;tsT kfj;jhdjhf ,Uf;f Ntz;Lk;vd;W epidj;J md;djhdk; nra;Ak; flikia mth; vdf;fspj;Js;sijAk; vz;zpNdd;! mth; ngUik me;j kiyia tpl caukhfvd;Ds; tp];t&gk; vLj;J epd;wJ.

fhiyapy; rpj;jh; ngUkhd; %ypiffis Njbr; nrd;WNrfhpj;jhh;. kjpa czT Kbe;jJ. vy;NyhUk; Xa;T vLj;Jf;nfhz;bUe;Njhk;. mg;NghJ mq;F te;j rpj;jh; ngUkhd; 'gr;irkiygazk; ,NjhL Kbe;jJ. mjdhy; jpUk;gp Nghfj; jahuhFq;fs;vd;W $wptpl;L> jhk; mkh;e;jpUe;j ,lj;jpw;F nrd;W %ypiffisigapy; mLf;fp itf;fj; Jtq;fpdhh;.

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ehq;fs; te;j ghijapy; jpUk;gyhNdhk;! ghij ePz;lghijay;yth> Mq;fhq;Nf Xa;T czT> ,uT cwf;fk;. vd;Wgazk; Jtq;fpa ,lj;jpid Nehf;fp efh;e;J nrd;W nfhz;bUe;jJ.rkak; fpilf;Fk; Nghnjy;yhk; mbNad; Mrhdplk; jdpikapy;vd;Ds; vOk; tpdhf;fSf;F tpil fhz;gij tof;fkhf;fpf;nfhz;Nld;. mg;NghJ ahd; fw;wtw;iw thrfh;fshfpa cq;fsplk;RUf;fkhf $Wtjw;F Mirg;gLfpNwd;. vd;d ePq;fs; jahh; jhdh?mij tpdhtpil vd;w tifapy; ,g;NghJ ePq;fs; gbf;fg;NghfpwPh;fs;.

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mbNad;:- rhkp! jhq;fs; khjh> khjk; ,g;gb kiyfspy;%ypiffis Njbr; nry;Yk; NghJ> ,g;gb xU $l;lj;ij mioj;Jr;nry;fpwPh;fNs mJ Vd;?

rpj;jh;:- jw;fhyk; mRuh; fhyk;! ,jdhy; rpj;jh;fs; jq;fs;trkpUe;j fhafy;gk;> nre;J}uk;> Fspiffs; Nghd;w nja;tPfg;ngUl;fis gr;ir kiy Nghd;w Fwpg;gpl;l rpy kiyfspy;>Fiffs; Nghd;w ,lq;fspy; kiwj;J itj;J tpl;L ,d;Wk;kiwe;J tho;fpwhh;fs;. mth;fs; kf;fs; trpf;Fk; ,lj;jpw;FtUtNj ,y;iy! ehd; Kw;gpwg;Gfspy; ,J Nghd;w gy ,lq;fspy;vd;Dila nghUl;fis kiwj;J itj;Js;Nsd;! ,g;gbg;gl;lnghUl;fs; mRuh; if trkhdhy; mth;fs; NkYk; typik ngw;Wehl;il Jaug;gLj;Jthh;fs;. ,jdhy; ey;yth;fs; ehrkhthh;fs;.mjdhy; jhd; ,g;gb kiwf;f Neh;e;jJ. ,e;j gr;irkiyiaj;jtpu kw;w kiyf;Fk; eP> vd;Dld; tug; Nghfpwha;! ~uh[h~ ePvd;Dld; ,g;gb fhyk;> fhykha; te;J nfhz;Ljhd; ,Uf;fpwha;!,ij rkak; tUk; NghJ ePNa czh;tha;! nja;tPf fhyk;cjakhFk; rkak; rkPgpj;J tpl;lJ! mg;NghJ flik Mw;w xUgj;J Ngiu epakpf;fg; NghfpNwd; vd;W $wpNdd; my;yth?

mjw;fhfj; jhd; ,g;gb $l;lj;ij mioj;J tUfpNwd;. ehd;NghFk; ,lq;fs; vy;yhk; cq;fSf;F ed;F njhpe;J tpl;lhy;jhd; rkak; tUk; NghJ ehd; itj;j nghUs;fis vLj;J tu>ehd; fl;lisapLk; NghJ> Njb miyahky; ,e;j ,lq;fSf;Fte;J nghUl;fis vLj;Jr; nrd;W kf;fSf;F cjtpnra;a KbAk;.mjdhy; jhd; mjw;fhd Ml;fisj; jahh; nra;fpNwd;. nja;tmUs; cs;sth;fSf;F kl;LNk me;j ghf;fpak; fpilf;Fk;! ,ijf;Nfl;lJk; vdf;F> jpUts;Sth; ghly; xd;W Qhgfj;Jf;F te;jJ.mJ ~nghUs; ,y;yhUf;F ,t;Tyfk; ,y;iy~ vd;gJ ,jpy;>nghUs; vd;W Fwpg;gplg;gLtJ nry;tk; vd;Nw ,Jtiuvz;zpapUe;Njd;. fhrpy;yhky; tho;T ,y;iy> vd;w cyftof;fpid Xl;bNa ,g;gbj; jhd; nghUs; nfhs;s Ntz;bapUe;jJ.Mdhy; $wg;gl;l nghUs; vd;w nrhy;Yf;F NtW nghUs; ,Ug;gjhfvd; cs;;Szh;T czh;j;jpaJ. mjdhy; kPz;Lk; mtiuNaruzile;J Nfs;tpfisj; njhlh;e;Njd;. mbNad;:- rhkp! jhq;fs;vij nghUs; vd;fpwPh;fs;? rpj;jh;:- vJ epue;jukhdNjh! vJ caph;fhf;FNkh mJ jhd; nghUs;! kdpjd; flTsha; kjpf;Fk; fhR>gzk; mopaf;$baJ! mtd; vt;tsT nghpa NfhB];tudhf

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,Ue;jhYk;> mtd; capiume;j fhrhy; fhf;f KbahJ! mtd;Nrh;j;j nry;tk; mtd; thhpRfsplk; nrd;W tpLk;.

mtd; vijAk; vLj;Jr; nry;yKbahJ! ,jdhy; jhd;,iwtd;> gl;bdj;jbfSf;F" fhjw;w CrpAk; thuhJ fhz;filtopf;Nf" vd;W $wp> mth; Qhdf; fz;iz jpwe;J itj;jhd;.Mz;ltdhy; gilf;fg;gl;ltd; Mz;ltidNa kwe;J tho;e;J>,Wjpapy; khz;ltdhfpwhd;. mg;gb khz;ltd; jd;Dld; nfhz;LNghtJ mtDila ght Gz;zpaq;fSk;> fy;tp> Qhdk;.MfpaitfNs. xsitf;F rpW tajpNyNa Mz;ltd; mUs;fpilj;J tpl;lJ (INah! ehk; xsitiag; gw;wp epidj;jij,th; vg;gb mwpe;jhh;) ,iwtd; mUs; fpl;bajhy;. mtSf;FnghUSk; fpilj;J> me;j nghUis itj;J ,sikia mopj;JKJikf; Nfhyk; nfhz;L. jk; yl;rpa ghijapy; jilapy;yhky;ele;jhh;. ,Wjpapy; fapyhaj;jpw;F nrd;W fapyhjpgjpiaf; fz;LmtUld; xspapy; xd;wpdhh;! mthplk; vd;d nry;tk; ,Ue;jJ!mth; $l kf;fSf;fhf ghbatuhapw;Nw! nghUSf;F mth;kjpg;gspg;gNj ,y;iyNa> MapDk; mtUf;F fpilj;j nghUisitj;Jj; jhd;> mg;gb ghbdhh;!

mUspUe;jhy; nghUs; fpilf;Fk;! nghUspUe;jhy; vy;yhk;fpilf;Fk;> mJ epue;jukhdJ! moptpy;yhjJ.

mbNad;: me;j nghUs; vg;gb fpilf;Fk;?

rpj;jh;: ,J rhjhuz kdpjh;fSf;F fpilf;fhJ! jq;fj;ijvLg;gjw;F kdpjd; vt;tsT Mokhf Njhz;Lfpwhd;. Mgj;Jf;fismyl;rpak; nra;J> ghLgLfpwhd;. ntl;b vLj;j> xU ld; vilAs;skz;zpypUe;J> rpy mTd;];fs; jq;fk; jhNd fpilf;fpwJ> ,ijxd;W Nrh;j;J jhNd> jq;f fl;bfis cUthf;Ffpwhd;. xUthplKk;epue;jukhfj; jq;fhJ ,e;j mopaf; $ba cNyhfj;jpw;fhf kdpjd;,g;gb ghL gLk; NghJ> moptpy;yhj ,e;j nja;tPf nghUismila Ntz;Lk; vd;why;! mjw;F mtd; mauhJ ghL gl Ntz;Lk;my;yth? mUs; Ntz;b Mz;ltdplk; kz;bapLk; kdpjDf;FmopAk; cly; jhNd cs;sJ. mJ moptjw;Fs; mtd; mkuj;Jtk;va;a Ntz;;Lnkdpy; me;j cly; Njitg; gLfpwNj. [Ptidf;nfhz;L jhNd gukidj; Njl KbAk;.

me;j [Ptd; thOk; cly; Kf;fpakhdjy;yth? Mdhy;kdpjh;fNs jk; jtwhd nra;iffshy;> mw;g Mde;jq;fSf;FMirg;gl;L> MNuhf;fpaj;ij mopj;Jf; nfhz;L> miu Fiwaha;Kbe;J Nghfpwhh;fs;! ,ijj; jhd;> ee;jtdj;jpy; xU Mz;b>ehyhW khjkha;f; Fatid Ntz;b ngw;w Flj;ijg; Nghl;L

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cilj;j fijia nrhy;Yk; ghl;lhFk;. Gj;jh; Qhdk; Ntz;b>cyfpy; nrhy;yg;gl;l mj;jid tifapYk; Kad;W nfhz;L,Ue;j NghJ xU Kiw cgthrKiwiaf; filg;gpbj;jhh;! jpahdk;fiye;J vOe;J jhkpUe;j Fifapy; elf;f Kide;jth;grpkaf;fj;jhy;> jLf;fpf; fPNo tpOe;jhh;! mg;NghJ Qhdj;ijmila clYf;F typik Njit vd;w Qhdj;ij czh;e;JclNd cz;zh Nehd;ig epWj;jp cz;zyhapdhh;! ,ijf;fz;lJk; mtiur; #o;e;jpUe;j rPlh;fs; ek;gpf;ifia ,oe;Jmtiu tpl;L ePq;fpdh;. mjd; gpwF jhd; Gj;jhpd; fhy;fs; fahitNehf;fpg; gazpf;fj; njhlq;fpd. mjdhy; nghUisj; Njl cly;typik Kf;fpak; vd;W ep&gpf;fg;gLfpwjy;yth> mjdhy; Mz;ltd;nfhLj;j cyf tho;tpy; khiaapy; kaq;fp Mz;ltid kwg;gjhy;jhd; nghUs; vy;NyhUf;Fk; fpl;Ltjpy;iy!

mbNad;: MZf;Fg; ngz; vd Mz;ltd; jhNd gilj;jhd;.mg;gbapUf;f mij Vd;> rpj;jh;fs;> Kdpth;fs; ntWf;fpwhh;fs;?Fwpg;ghf gl;bdj;jhh; ghly;fspy; ,J mjpfkhf fhzg;gLfpwJ.mJ Vd;?

rpj;jh;: uh[h! ,J mUikahd Nfs;tp! vd;dplkpUe;Jtp\aq;fisj; njhpe;J mwpe;J nfhs;Sk; cd; Qhd jhfj;ijehd; ghuhl;LfpNwd;! cidad;wp ahUk; vd;dplk; ,g;gbneUq;fpaJkpy;iy> vd;id Nfs;tpfs; Nfl;lJkpy;iy! ahUf;Fk;me;j msTf;F Jzpr;ry; fpilahJ> Mdhy; eP> ,g;gb vy;yhk;Nfl;fpwha; vd;why; mJ gy gpwtpfspy; eP vd;dplk; ngw;w chpik.eP gl;bdj;jhh; tuyhW gbj;jpUf;fpwha; my;yth?

mbNad;: (mr;rj;Jld;) gbj;jpUf;fpNwd; rhkp!

rpj;jh;: rpj;jh; gl;bdj;jhh; Jwtp Mtjw;F Kd; ,y;ywj;ijey;ywkhff; nfhz;L tho;e ;jhh ;! kfdhy; Qhdf; fjTjpwf;fg;gl;lth;! mth; kidtp kfhgjptpuij! mg;gbg;gl;ltu;>ngz;fis ntWj;Jg; ghbdhu;> vd;why;> mjd; Nehf;fk; cyfed;ik xd;NwahFk;! ,J rhjhuz kdpjh;fis ey;top fhl;lmth; gaKWj;Jfpwhh;! ngz;zha; te;jnjhU khag; gprhRvd;nwy;yhk; rhLfpwhh;! mth; jhAk; ngz;jhNd! jhapd; kuzNeuk; mwpe;J kahdk; nrd;W jha;f;F <kr; rlq;Ffs; nra;jth;mth;! JwtpfSf;F vy;yhtw;iwAk; Jwf;f KbAk;. Mdhy; jha;kl;Lk; tpjp tpyf;F! njhg;Gs; nfhb ge;jky;yth? mjdhy; jhNd,iwtpiaf; $l> jhNa! md;idNa> Nyhf khjh vd;nwy;yhk;

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miof;fpwhh;fs;. Kw;fhyj;jpy; tho;e;j rg;j hp\pfs;> mf];jpah;>Nghd;w Kdpth;fs; vy;yhk; ,y;ywk; Nkw;nfhz;l kfhd;fs; jhNd!jh;kj;ij jh;kj;jpw;fhfNt nra;a Ntz;Lk;.

gyid vjph;ghh;j;Jr; nra;jhy; gydpUf;fhJ. mNj Nghy;jhd; mth;fs; tho;e;j ,y;yw tho;f;ifAk;> ,y;yw jh;kj;jpw;fhfNtelj;jg;gl;ljhFk;! mth;fs; gj;jpdpia ntWf;fr; nrhy;ytpy;iy!guj;ijaiuj; jhd; xJf;fr; nrhy;fpwhh;! mjdhy; gprhrhk;> fz;zhy;ntl;b> fLKiyahy; kaf;fp> vd; Nghjg; nghUs; gwpj;njd;idnfhy;yhky; nfhy;YtJ Vd;> vd;W Gyk;gp ,Uf;fpwhh;! mjdhy;jhd; kdpjdpd; kdij glk; gpbj;J fhl;Ltijg; Nghy rjhgpwe;j ,lj;ij ehLNj fz; vd;W Ntjidg;gLfpwhh;! ,njy;yhk;Kw;Wk; Jwe;j mth;fSila Ntjidah? ,y;iy! kdpjd; ,ijrpe;jpj;Jg; ghh;j;J mg;nghpNahh;fs; thh;j;ij kPwp elg;gjw;F mQ;rNtz;Lk; vd;Nw mg;gbNa vOjpapUf;fpwhh;. ,iwtNd jd;,lg;ghfj;ij ,iwtpf;F mspj;J mh;j;jehhp];tudhfj; jhNdNjhw;wkspf;fpwhh;! mjdhy; ngz;fis <];thpahfTk;> Mz;fis<];tudhfTk; ghh;f;f kdpj ,dk; fw;Wf; nfhs;s Ntz;Lk;vd;W jhd; ,g;gbg; ghlq;fis elj;jp ,Uf;fpwhh;fs;! mJ JwTtop! Jwtpfs; ngz;zplk; cwT nfhz;lhy; jt typikia,oe;J Nghthh;fs;! xU cjhuzk; nrhy;y Ntz;Lnkd;why;tp];thkpj;jpuh;> jtj;ij fiyf;f ,e;jpud; Nkdifia mDg;gpitj;jhd;! \j;jphpa Fy kd;dh; topapy; gpwe;j tp;];thkpj;jpuh; -vspjpy; ,e;jpud; tphpj;j tiyapy; tPo;e;jhh;! mjdhy; jt typikia,oe;jhh;! ,e;jpud; nfl;lJk; ngz;zhNy vd;W fpuhkq;fspy;ghLthh;fs;. mjdhy; jhd; rpj;jh;fs; ngz;fis jha; Nghy;epidj;jhh;fs;. ngz;zhiria ntWj;jhh;fs;!

mbNad;:- Mz;> ngz; cwT ,aw;ifahdJ jhNd?

rpj;jh;: ,y;iynad;W ahh; nrhd;dJ? vy;yh caph;fSf;Fk;,J nghJ tpjp! Mdhy; kw;w caphpdq;fSf;F xU Fwpg;gpl;lfhyq;fspy; jhd; ,e;j cwT epfo;fpd;wJ! Mdhy; gFj;jwpTs;skdpjNdh ve;jf; fhyj;jpYk; cwT nfhs;sj; Jbf;fpwhd;.xUtDf;F xUj;jp vDk; Njt> r%f tpjpfisf; fhk Ntl;ifapy;kPwp elf;fpwhd;! ,jw;fhf ve;j mjh;kj;ijAk; nra;aj; Jzpe;JtpLfpwhd;! tpe;J tpl;ltd; nehe;J nfl;lhd; vd;W mopfpwhd;gytpjkhd Nkf Neha;fSf;F Mshfp mLj;jth;fSf;Fk;ts;syha; thhp toq;fp tpLfpwhd;. kw;wth;fs; moptpw;Fk; toptFf;fpwhd;! jhk;gj;jpa cwT Foe;ijfSf;fhfTk;> kdpj ,dtsh;r;rpf;fhfTk; jhd; Vw;gl Ntz;Lk;. ,ijAk; khjk; ,UKiw jhd; vd;W nghpath;fs; fl;Lg;ghl;by; itj;J ,Ue;jdh;!

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,d;W mg;gbah? Kg;gJ Nfhb KfKilahs; vd;W ghuj jhiath;zpj;J ghba ghujp ,d;wpUe;jhy; E}W Nfhb KfKilahs;vd;W ghb ,Ug;ghh;! Rje;jpu ehl;by; ehk; kdpj Fy cw;gj;jpiaXa;tpd;wp elj;jpajhy>; ,d;W ,e;j ehL vy;yhkpUe;Jk; Vioehlhf ,Uf;fpwJ! ,aw;if> ,aw;ifahf ,Uf;Fk; tiujhd;mJk; ,aw;if. ,y;iy vd;why; mJTk; nraw;if jhNd!

mbNad;: mg;NghJ ,iwtid mila ,y;ywj;ijNkw;nfhz;NlhUf;F ,ayhjh? JwT jhd; mjw;F topah?

rpj;jh;: mg;gb ahh; nrhd;dJ? nrd;id efUf;F FkhpKidapypUe;J Nghfyhk;! Nfushtpy; ,Ue;Jk; ghij ,Uf;fpwJ.fh;ehlfj;jpypUe;Jk; ghij ,Uf;fpwJ. Me;jpuh-nly;yp vd;Wtlf;fpypUe;Jk; nrd;idf;F NuhLfs; ,Uf;Nf! mijg; Nghy,iwtid milaTk; gy topfs; cz;L. mjpy; ,y;ywKk;xd;whFk;. ,y;ywj;ij ,y;ywj;Jf;fhfNt Nkw;nfhs;gtd;> jhkiu,iyj; jz;zPuhf gw;ww;W flikahw;wp> ,iwtd; jpUtbfisruzile;jtDf;F <rid miltJ vspJ! Mdhy; Jwtwk; vd;gJfilgpbf;f fbdkhdJ! ,aw;ifAld; vjph;;J Nghhpl;L nty;tJ>fLk; jtk; nra;J flTis miltJ ,g;gb gy topfs; cz;L!,irahy; ,iwtid mile;NjhUk;> ghly;fshy; gfthidgw;wpath;fSk;> cz;ikahd G+irfs;> gf;jpapdhy; gukidmile;NjhUk; ghhpNy ,Ue;jpUf;fpwhh;fs;! ,g;NghJ xU rhjhuzkdpjd; kdg;ghq;fpy; Nfs;tp Nfl;Fk; cdf;F ,njy;yhk; jhdhfczUk; fhyk; kpf tpiutpy; tUk;! 2010f;Fg; gpd; tUk; mopTfhyj;jpy; tlY}h;> flY}uhFk;. mRuh; $l;lk; mopAk;> mg;NghJifyha rl;lKdpAk;> ,uhkypq;f mbfSk; ,e;j nguk;gY}hpy;cd; %ykhf kpfg;nghpa jh;k rhiyia epWtp> jh;kj;ij epiyehl;Lthh;fs;! vd; khaj;jPT> %rhNfhl;il uh[hq;fj;jpw;F> ePjhd; vdf;F mikr;ruhf ,Uf;fg;NghNw! vd;id neUq;fNtz;Lkhdhy;> mJ cd; %ykhfj;jhd; epiwNtWk;! cyNf,q;F cd;idj; Njb Xb tUk;!

mbNad;: rhkp! ,e;j ifyha rl;l Kdpiag; gw;wpr;nrhy;Yq;fs;. Nfl;f Mtyhf ,Uf;fpNwd;!

rpj;jh;: mfj;jpa kfhKdpth; Kw;fhyq;fspy; ,g;NghJ ehd;cq;fis cld; mioj;J tUtJ Nghy> Nghfh;> fhyq;fpehjh;>gpuk;khp\p> Gypg;ghzp> Nfhuf;fh;> ts;Sth;> rl;l Kdp> nfhq;fzth;MfpNahiuj; jk;Kld; kiyfSf;F mioj;Jg;; Nghthh;! mg;NghJehq;fs; vy;NyhUk;> vq;fs; nghUs;fis xU ,lj;jpy; itj;Jtpl;L vq;fs; Muha;r;rpf;fhf jdpj;jdpNa nrd;W tpLNthk;>vy;NyhUNk fhafy;gj;ij ntw;wpfukhf Kbj;jth;fs;! fhafy;gk;

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fw;g Nfhb Mz;Lfs; kdpjid ty;yikAld; thor;nra;Ak;kUe;jhFk;> ehq;fs; xd;gJ NgUk; Kjw;fhz;lj;jpy; tho;e;J>,uz;lhk; fhz;lj;jpy; gjpnzd; rpj;jh ;fshfp jw;NghJJtq;fg;NghFk; %d;whk; fhz;lj;jpy; ,Ug;gj;NjO rpj;jh;fshfg;ngUfp> %rh Nfhl;ilapy; M];ukk; mikg;Nghk;! vq;fs; Ml;rpmg;NghJ vd; jiyikapy; eilngWk;! MfNt ehd; ,g;NghJnrhy;Yk; tuyhW Kjw;fhz;lj;jpy; epfo;e;jjhFk;! rpj;jh;fs;nghUs;fis itj;J tpl;L> Muha;r;rpf;fhf nry;Yk; NghJ> =mf];jpa ngUkhd; kl;Lk; mq;NfNa mkh;e;J tpLthh;! fiufz;lth;vd;gjhy; mth; vq;Fk; tUtjpy;iy. vy;NyhhpYk; tajhdth;vd;gjhy; rl;lKdp kl;Lk; mf];;jpaUld; jq;fp tpLthh;! mth;jhd; vg;NghJk; rikay; nghWg;ghsh;!

xU ehs; rikay; ele;J nfhz;L ,Ue;jJ! NrhW nte;Jnfhz;bUe;jJ> mijf;fpswptpl> mfg;ig ,y;yhjjhy; mUfpy;fple;j xU Fr;rpia vLj;J Jilj;J tpl;L mij itj;Jrhjj;ijf; fpsw rhjk; clNd fUepwkhf khwpaJ! ,ijf;fz;L mjph;r;rp mile;j me;jg; nghpath; grpAld; tUk;rpj;jh;fSf;F ,g;gb rhjj;ij fUg;ghf;fp Nghl;lhy; Vw;ghh;fsh?vd;W mQ;rp me;j rhjj;ij vLj;J jk;khy; Kbe;j tiu rhg;gpl;Ltpl;L> kPjpia Mw;wpy; nfhl;b tp;l;L> GJrhf md;dk; tbj;Jitj;jhh;! ,ijnay;yhk; ghh;j;J rphpj;Jf; nfhz;bUe;j mf];jpag;ngUkhd; fz;Lk;> fhzhjJ Nghy; mikjpahf mkh;e;jpUe;jhh;!mg;NghJ rpj;jh;fs; jpUk;gp te;jhh;fs;. rl;l Kdpiaj; Njbdhh;fs;.Mdhy; mtiuf; fhztpy;iy. mq;F mf];jpaUk;> Kd;dwpKfkpy;yhjxU rpWtDk; ,Ug;gijf; fz;L> jpifj;J> mf];jpahplk;rl;lehjidg; gw;wp tpdt> mjw;F mfj;jpah; mikjpahf>nksdkhf ,Uf;f xd;Wk; Ghpahky; jpifj;Jg; Nghd rpj;jh;fSf;Fme;j rpWtd; gjpy; mspj;jhd;. ehd; ,q;Nf jhd; ,Uf;fpd;Nwd;vd;W $w rpj;jh;fs; rpj;jg; gpuikf;F Mshdhh;fs;. nja;tPff;fisnahOFk; me;j mofpa rpWtdh> tNahjpfuhd rl;l Kdp! ,Jvd;d tpe;ij vd;W tpaf;f> ,tu; jhd; rl;l Kdp> vd;W mf];jpah;cjtpf;F te;jhh;! ehq;fs; Mrhdhfpa mf];;jpah; nrhd;dijf;Nfl;L jpifj;Njhk;. vd;d elf;fpwJ vd;Nw Ghpahky; epd;wth;fspy;fhyq;fpehjh; me;j rpWtidg; ghh;j;J "rpWtNd eP ahh;?" ,q;Nf,Ue;j Kjpath; vq;Nf? vd;W tpdtpdhh;! ,ijf; Nfl;lJk;xd;Wk; Ghpahky; jd; clk;ig xU Kiw ghh;j;Jf; nfhz;l rl;lKdpth;> jhk; rpWtdhf khwp ,Ug;gijf; fz;L Mr;rupaKw;whu;!ehd; nrhy;tij ek;Gq;fs;! ehd; jhd; rl;lKdp! rhjk; fpsWk;NghJ> ,Njh ,e;j Fr;rpahy; rhjj;ijf; fpswpNdd; vd;W nrhy;ypKbg;gjw;Fs; mNj Neuk; rl;l ehjh; Mfpa me;j rpWtd; kiwe;JNghf> vy;NyhUk; rhjk; fpswpa me;j Fr;rpia mfj;jpahplk;

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mJ vd;d Fr;rp? vd;W tpdtpNdhk;? mjw;F mth; ,Jfpilj;jw;fhpa nja;tPf rQ;rPtp %ypifahd fU nehr;rp vd;whh;!,th; Vd; vg;gb kiwe;jhh; vd;W ehq;fs; Nfl;f> mth; te;jNtiy Kbe;J tpl;lJ> kiwe;J tpl;lhh;> vd;W Mrhd; mwptpf;f>me;j czitj; jq;fSf;F mspf;fhky; Vkhw;wp tpl;lhNu vd;wNfhgj;jhy; xw;Wikapy;yhj ,e;j rig ,dp Ntz;lhk; vd;Wrpj;jh;fs; rig fiye;J tpl;lJ. ,e;j rl;l Kdpthpd; rkhjp>rPh;fhop vd;w rpt];jyj;jpy; cs;sJ. ,q;Fs;s <rid topgl;lth;jhd; rl;l Kdp mjdhy; ,e;j rptngUkhDf;F rl;l ehjh; vd;Wngah;! ,jw;Fj; NjhzpGuk; vd;Wk; xU ngah; cz;L! Kw;fhyj;jpy;gpusak; Vw;gLk; NghJ kd;dd; kJ nra;j Njhzp> nts;sk;tw;wpa gpd; ,q;F jhd; jiu jl;bajhk;. (,Nj fij iggpspy;~Nehth~ vd;w kd;ddpd; fijAk; xd;W Nghy; cs;sJ ,y;iyah?),th; gy gpwtpfspy; gy mtjhuq;fis vLj;jth;. fhe;jpahfgpwe;jhh;! ,th; jhd; cq;fis fdtpy; te;J vd;dplk; mioj;Jte;jth;! vd;whh;.

mbNad;: mtiuj; jhd; xUtd; Rl;L tpl;lhNd!

rpj;jh;: mRuh; fhyk;! mg;gbj; jhd; elf;Fk;! mth; ,Uf;Fk;NghNj fhq;fpui] fiyj;J tpLq;fs; vd;whh;> nra;jhh;fsh?NkYk; ,Ue;jpUe;jhy;> mtiu kfhj;kh vd;wth;fNs kjpj;J,Uf;fkhl;lhh;fs;. Vd; vd;why; mRuf; $l;lk; jpahfpfis Gwe;js;spgjtpfis gpbj;Jf; nfhz;ld! kdpjdhf gpwe;jhy; kdpjdhftho;e;J mDgtpj;J> kuzk; mila Ntz;Lk; vd;gJ ,aw;if!uhkh;> fpU\;zd; MfpNahh; kuzkilatpy;iyah? mJ Nghy;jhd; ,JTk;. kfhj;khfhe;jp vd;w cliyj; jhd; mopj;jhh;fs;>mth; Gfio mopf;f KbAkh? Mj;khTf;F moptpy;iy. mJnja;tj;jpd; gFjp! gioa rl;il fpope;J tpl;lJ! ,dp GJrl;il jhNd! tug;NghFk; nfhq;fzh;> Ml;rp fhyj;jpy; mth;cd;id Ml;nfhs;thh;! uhk gpuhdpd; Ml;rpia fpuhk Ml;rp %yk;nfhz;L tuyhk; vd;whh;> fhe;jp. uhkh; Ml;rpapy;> ehk; gpiof;fKbahNj vd;W epidj;j me;j mRuf; $l;lk; mtiuNa mopj;Jtpl;L Ml;lk;> Nghl;lJ! Neh;ikahd jh;k Ml;rpia nfhLf;fNtz;bath;fNs> rj;a Nkt n[aNj! tha;ikNa nty;Yk; vd;W>mtuth; nkhopapy; mr;rbj;Jf; nfhz;L mr;rbj;j fhfpjj;ijfud;rp vd;w ngahpy; nfhs;is mbj;J Ftpj;jhh;fs;! ehL gyNghh;fis re;jpj;jJ! mjdhy; mopTfis rk;ghjpj;jJ! MSk;th;f;fk; thOk; th;f;fkhf> mth;fis Ms> mDg;gpa kf;fs;tho topapy;yhky; khSk;th;f;fkhf vd;W tUk; vdTk; kuzj;ij

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vjph; Nehf;fp fhj;jpUf;fyhapdh;! xNu ehL vd;W $wp xd;W$l;bAk;> nkhop top khepyq;fs; mikj;J> top> topahf ngw;wpUe;jePh; topiaf; $l> jk; Ra eyj;Jf;fhf fh;ehlfKk;> NfusKk;milj;J tpl;ld! ghyhw;iwg; ghiytdkhf;fpath;fs;> njd;ngz;izia Njk;g itj;jhh;fs;. itifia it-if vd;Dk;epiyapy; Xilahf khw;wpf; fhl;bath;fs;> nghd; tpistpf;Fk;nghd;dp ejpia nkd;dpia gpbj;J jpUfp> jk; vy;iyf;Fs;NsNaklf;fpg; Nghl;Ltpl;ldh;. ,jdhy; jkpofk; nky;y> nky;y ghiyahfptsu top nra;j ngUikia mth;fs; mile;J tpl;ldh;.

ejpfs;> caph;fis thoitg;gjw;fhf ,iwtd; nfhLj;j tuk;!,aw;ifaha; tUk; ejpfis kdpjd; nraw;if Kiwahy;mizapl;Lj; Njf;fp mij jd; Mirg;gb Mz;L nfhz;bUf;fpwhd;. mg;gbr; nra;a ve;j kdpjDf;Fk; chpik ,y;iy. ejpfs;vy;NyhUf;Fk; nghJthdit! mjpy; chpik nfhz;lhl ve;jehl;bw;Fk; jh;k topapy; ,lkpy;iy! mDkjpapy;iy! Mdhy;nkhopahy;> ,dj;jhy;> epwj;jhy;> [hjpahy;> gphpe;J fplf;Fk; kdpj,dk;> ,aw;ifapYk; gphptpidia nra;J nfhz;bUf;fpwJ! ,e;jfhNthp gpwe;j fij fd;dlh;fSf;F kwe;J Ngha; tpl;lJ NghYk;!Nrhokd;ddpd; Ntz;L NfhSf;fpzq;f> mf];;jpa khKdpapd;fkz;lyj;jpypUe;J gpwe;J te;j fhtphpahy; Nrhots ehlhfkhwpaJ! nghd;dpw new;fjph;fis tpisj;j fhuzj;jhy; fhtphp-nghd;dp vd;w fhuzg; ngaiug; ngw;wJ! ,e;j ejp gpwf;fNtKaw;rp vLj;jtd; Nrhokd;dd;! jkpod; mg;gb ,Uf;f> nkhopthhp khfhzq;fs; vd;w GJg;gphptpidahy; Njhd;wpa ,e;j fd;dlh;ehL-fh;ehlfh vd;w GJg; ngah; ngw;wJ! ,jdhy; mth;fs; G+kpapy;gpwf;Fk; fhtphp mth;fSf;Nf nrhe;jk; vd;w vz;zk; gpwe;jJ!,d;W thd; ngha;j;jhYk;> jhd; ngha;ahfhj fhNthp> vd;WnganuLj;jts; ,d;W ngha;ahfpg; Ngha;tpl;lhs;! ngUkio nghope;Jjq;fs; mizfs; epuk;gpdhy; tbfhyhf ePiu jpwe;J tpl;L jz;zPh;je;jjhf ehlfkhLfpwhh;fs;. jkpo;ehL fh;ehlfhtpd; tbfhy;G+kpapy;iy. ,dp xU nrhl;L ePh; $l ,q;F tuf;$lhJ vd;Wjkpofk; rpde;jhy; ,th;fs; vd;d nra;a KbAk;? cghp ePiu,th;fs; vq;F Njf;Fthh;fs;! gpwF fh;ehlfh KOtJk; fhtphpapd;ePh; gug;ghfj; jhNd khWk;. ,ij fh;ehlf murpay; Nkijfs;Ghpe;J nfhs;Sk; fhyk; neUq;fp tpl;lJ! ,d;W fhtphp ePiuitj;J fh;ehlfhtpy; kdpjj;jd;ikia-kdrhl;rpia kwe;J tpl;Lmurpay;thjpfs; murpay; gpiog;G elj;Jfpwhh;fs; ! jkpo; ehl;bYk;cz;ikahf Nghuhl vtUkp;y;iy. murpay; jiyth;fs; Nghd;Nwhh;Rje;jpuk; ngw;w Jtf;f fhyj;jpNyNa Kad;wpUe;jhy; ,d;W,e;epiyik te;jpUf;fhJ! mLj;J Ml;rpf;F te;jth;fs;> kj;jpa

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rh;f;fhUf;F vjph; fl;rpfs; vd;gjhy; mth;fs; FuYk; vLgltpy;iy.NrhoehL NrhWilj;J vd;W Ngh; ngw;w ehL-Nrhw;iwf; fz;zhy;ghh;j;Nj gyfhyk; Md kf;fisf; nfhz;l Nrhf G+kpahfj;Jbf;fpwJ! ,dp murpay; thjpfis ek;gpg; gadpy;iy! jkpo;ehl;bd;new;fsQ;rpakhk; jQ;ir khepyk; kPz;Lk; epuk;g Ntz;Lnkdpy;fhtphp gha;e;J tuNtz;Lk;! mjw;F kf;fs; vy;NyhUk; kdnkhj;Jtuk; Ntz;l Ntz;Lk;! vy;yh Myaq;fspYk; Nfh G+i[ nra;aNtz;Lk;! Nfhkhjh kdk; Fsph;e;jhy; kioahy; ,e;ehL FspUk;!fhNthp ngUfp fdptd;Gld; jkpo; kz; Njb tUths;! ehl;by;jh;kq;fs; Fiwaf; Fiwa kioAk; kiwAk;> kiokiwe;jhy;ejpfSk; kiwa Ntz;baJ jhNd! Guhzq;fspy; fq;if> aKid>ru];tjp> vd Nghw;wg;gLk;-ru];tjp mg;gbj; jhNd kiwe;jJ.vd;d jLj;jhYk; vd;d? 2010f;Fg; gpd; fq;ifNa fhNthpiaNjb te;J fhg;ghNs! md;W tpjpj;jij ,d;W khw;wth KbAk;>?tpjpapd; topNa kjp nry;Yk; vd;gJ ngha;ahnkhop my;yth.,jd; vjpnuhyp! <];tu;> my;yh> [Pr]; vd;w Ngjkpd;wp kjq;fs;vy;yhk; xUtiu xUth; kjpj;J xw;WikAld;> ,e;jpah;fshftho Ntz;Lk; vd;W Nghuhba kfhj;khtpd; tuyhw;iw kwe;J>,d;W kjntwp> jPtputhjk;> vd;W kjk; gpbj;J miyfpd;w $l;lk;ehSf;F ehs; mjpfkhFk;. njUTf;F njU> [hjp ntwpahy;gifnfhz;L ehl;bd; mikjpf;Nf mopitj; NjLth;! jkpofj;jpYk;mt;tg;NghJ Ml;rpfs; khwp> khwpr; RoYk;! ,jdhy; Ml;rpapy;cs;Nshh; khl;rpik ngw;W FNgu tho;T tho;tJk;> kf;fs; kl;Lk;kf;fshfNt (thapy;yh G+r;rpahfNt) Njh;jypy; thf;fspf;f kl;LNkgpwe;jth;fshfNt tho;e;J murpay; thjpfis tho itj;J>tho;itf; fopg;ghh;fs;! ,th;fs; tskilahky; tWikapy; ,Ug;gJjhd; murpay; thjpfspd; tho;Tf;F mtrpak; vd;gjhy;> mth;fisKd;Ndw tplhky; [hf;fpuijaha;> ghh;j;Jf; nfhs;tJ murpay;thjpfs; nfhs;ifahfp tpl;lJ.

jg;gpj; jtwp> jk; Ml;rpapy; ahuhtJ ey;yJ nra;jhNyhNeh;ikiaf; filgpbj;jhNyh mij me;jf; fl;rpfhuh;fNstpUk;gkhl;lhh;fs;. jhk; rk;ghjpf;f topapy;iyNa vd;W> mLj;JtUk; Njh ;jy ; fhyq;fspy ; Ie ;jhk ; gil Ntiyfs; >xJq;fpf;nfhs;Sjy;> gzpahw;Wtijg; Nghy ghtid nra;J>Njh;jy; nryTf;F fpilf;Fk; gzj;jpy; jq;fs; nryTf;F vt;tsTNjWk; vd;W miythh;fs;! kf;fSk; uhkd; Mz;lhy; vd;d?,uhtzd; Mz;;lhy; vd;d? vd;W Njh;jiyNa myl;rpag;gLj;Jth;!,jdhy; Xl;Ltpiy NghFk;! fl;rpfs; khWk;> fhl;rpfs; khWk;>gopthq;Fk; epfo;r;rpfs; muq;NfWk;> murpay; nfhiyfs; njhlUk;.ngUe;jiyth;fNs nfhy;yg;gLthh;fs;. ,jw;nfy;yhk; fhuzk;

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kfhj;kh fhe;jpia ehNl kwe;jJ jhdhFk;. mNjhL kpf tpiutpy;mRuh; Ml;rp mopag; Nghfpd;w fhuzj;jhy;; tbAk; nts;sk;-Ntfkhf tbtijg; Nghy> mizag; NghFk;; jPgk;> ,Wjpapy;nfhOe;J tpl;L vhptijg; Nghy> tu tu mf;fpukk;> mjh;kk;>muh[fk;> mePjp> Nghd;witfs; tsh;e;J tskhfp> jh;kk; mope;J>tUlj;Jf;F tUlk; #dpah; cf;fpukk; mjpfhpj;J> gUt kioFiwe;J> Fiwe;J jz;zPUf;fhf kf;fs; Nghuhl ePhpd;;ikahy;tay;fspy; nre;ney; mWtilahfp epy eLf;fk; fz;L> ,Wjpapy;,aw;if md;idapd; rPw;wj;jhy; mRuh; $l;lk; mopAk;! tug;NghFk;,uz;lhapuj;J ,uz;lhk; tUlk; jkpopy; rpj;ughD tUlk;vdg;ghh;fs;.' ,e;j Mz;Ljhd; mopTfspd; njhlf;fk; njhlq;Fk;!cyfpy; fly; #o;e;j ty;yuR ehLfs; INuhg;gh fz;lk;> mnkhpf;fh>rpq;fg;G+h;> kNyrpah> M];jpNuypah> Mrpa fz;lk; Nghd;w ehLfs;flYf;Fs; jhd; ,Uf;fpwJ. fz;%b fz; jpwg;gjw;Fs; ,e;jehl;by; efuk; flypy; kpjf;Fk; ,g;NghJ ,J vy;yhk; nrhy;tJjtW ekf;F Njit njd;dpe;jpa kf;fs; jkpo;ehL> Nfush> Me;jpuh>fh;ehlfh jhd; njd;dpe;jpah. ,ijNa ,uz;L jPtha; khw;WNtd;.ngUk; nts;sj;jhy; ghjpf;fg;gLk;. Aj;j mghaq;fs; Vw;gLk;.cyf murpaypy; Mq;fhq;Nf gyj;j khWjy; Vw;gLk;! cyfpy;fp.gp.,uz;lhapuj;jpypUe;Nj ,aw;ifapd; vr;rhpf;if Jtq;fp tpl;lJ!mjdhy;> ehl;by; kf;fspilNa jh;k czh;it cz;lhf;f ePcd;id mh;g;gzpj;Jf; nfhs;s Ntz;Lk;.

mbNad; : cyfpy; ed;ikf;F ahfq;fs; elj;JtJ jhNdtof;fk;. ahfq;fis tpl md;djhdk; nra;gth; vg;gb cah;e;jth;rhkp?

rpj;jh; : cyfpNyNa nfhba Neha; vJ njhpAkh?mbNad; : xd;Wk; Ghpahky;; tpopj;Njd;!rpj;jh;; : cyfpNy rpwe;j jhdk; vJ njhpAkh?mbNad; : (kPz;Lk; kTdk;)

rpj;jh;: kdpjDf;F nghd;> nghUis vt;tsT thhpf;nfhLj;jhYk; mtDf;F-kdk; epiwtjpy;iy! NkYk; Ntz;Lk;vd;W jhd; cs;sj;jpy; Mir tUk;! Mdhy; mWRit tpUe;jpdhYk;>tapW epiwe;J tpl;lhy;> ve;j kdpjDk; NghJk; vd;W jhd;nrhy;thd;!

tha; tho;j;jh tpl;lhYk;> tapW tho;j;Jk; vd;ghh;fs;! gpwtpJd;gk; kuzj; Jd;gk; Mfpaitfis tpl grpj;Jd;gk; jhd;nfhbaJ! mjdhy; jhd; grp te;jplg; gj;Jk; gwe;JLk; vd;whh;mt;itg; gpuhl;b! ,e;jg; grpgpzp gpbj;jhy; Mh;t mwpT kq;Fk;!

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Fzk; FiyAk;> rpe;jid rpijAk;> mfe;ij mope;Nj tpLk;>clypd; gQ;rG+jq;fSk; typik ,of;Fk;> fz;gQ;rilj;J NghFk;>fhJ milj;Jf; nfhs;Sk;> ehf;Ftuz;L iffhy;fs; Nrhh;e;JtpLk;> Fuy; vOk;ghJ! khdk;> Nuh\k;> nfsutk;> Fyg; ngUik>fy;tpapd; cah;T> ahTk; ,Ue;j ,lk; njhpahky; gwe;J Ngha;;tpLk;! grpf;F czTf;fhf gpr;irf;fhuidg; Nghy; ifNae;Jk;epiyf;Fk; kdk; jsh;e;J tpLk;> Mdhy; ,t;tsT Jd;gq;fSk;czT cl;nfhz;l clNd nrhy;yhky; XbtpLk;! mfj;jpYk;>Kfj;jpYk; [Pt fisNjhd;Wk;! xg;gpl;Lf; $w Kbahj tpjj;jpy;kd epiwTk;> ed;wp czh;Tk; Vw;gLk;! mtd; Md;kh Mde;jg;gLk;.mopahj ,e;j Md;kh Mz;ltdpd; nrhj;jy;yth? ,jdhy; jhd;cyfpd; rpwe;j jhdk; md;djhdkhFk;. ,J khjphp kw;wcaph;fsplk; ehk; fhl;Lk; fUizjhd; mUl; ngUk; N[hjp vd;Wts;syhh; $wpapUf;fpwhh;! mNjhL ,e;j jhdj;ij ahh;Ntz;LkhdhYk; vspjpy; nra;a KbAk;! ,e;j jhdj;jhy; ehk;Mz;ltid Neubahf jpUg;jpg; gLj;JfpNwhk;. mjdhy; jhd;tug;NghFk; moptpypUe;J jk;ikg; fhj;Jf; nfhs;s kdpjh;fSf;F,e;j md;djhdk; jhd; ftrkhf ,Uf;Fk;! mjdhy; jhd; ,e;jnghWg;ig> ,g;NghNj epiwT nra;a Maj;jkhf Ntz;Lk; vd;W$WfpNwd;. uh[h! Ma fiyfs; vj;jid njhpAkh cdf;F?

mbNad; : mWgj;J ehY vd;W gbj;jpUf;fpNwd;?rpj;jh; : ,y;iy! mWgj;jp Ie;J fiyfs;!

mbNad;: kd;dpf;fDk;! Ghpatpy;iy me;j mWgj;jp Ie;jhtJfiy vd;d fiy?

rpj;ju; : vr;rpy; fiy?mbNad; : (jpLf;fpl;L) rhkp!

rpj;jh;: (rphpj;jthNw) ahiuahtJ ,opTgLj;jp VRtjw;Fnrhy;thh;fNs! me;j nghUspy; ehd; nrhy;ytpy;iy. ,J vr;rpy;fiy! mjhtJ rhg;gpl;lth;fspd; vr;rpy; ,iyia vL;j;jy; nghpaGz;zpakhd fhhpak;! Iag;g gf;jh;fs; ge;jp Kbe;jJk; vr;rpy;,iyfis vLg;gjw;F Nghl;b NghLthh;fNs Vd; njhpAkh? me;j,iyfspy; rhg;gpl;l Iag;g gf;jh;fspy; xUtuha; Iag;g RthkpfNsrhg;gpLtjhf IjPfk;! ,jdhy; jhd; me;j gf;jh;fs; mijGz;zpakhf fUJfpwhh;fs;. ehk; vLf;Fk; ,iyfspd; vz;zpf;ifvt;tsNth! mt;tsT Gz;zpak; fpilf;Fk;. md;djhdkpl;Lrhg;gpl;lth;fs; ,iyiaAk; vLj;jNy> vr;rpy; fiy MFk;. ,Jjh;kthd;fSf;Nf fpilf;Fk; ghf;fpakhFk;.

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mbNad;: rhkp ehd; ,isQd; mNjhL kf;fsplk; .mwpKfkpy;yhjtd;> ehd; nrhy;tij kf;fs; Nfl;Fk;! mstpw;Fve;j nry;thf;Nfh> GfNoh ehd; rk;ghjpf;f tpy;iy! jFjp ,y;yhjvd;dplk; ,t;tsT nghpa nghWg;ig nfhLg;gJ Vd; vd;W vdf;Fg;Ghpatpy;iyNa?

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vd; iftpuy;fspd; ,Lf;fpd; topahf tope;J te;jJ. rpWtidnjhlh;;e;J mLj;J ,wq;fpathpd; fhy;gl;L> jhd;; me;j rpW ghiwrhpe;J tpOe;jpUf;fpwJ. mjdhy; me;j ez;gh; mjph;r;rpf;Fs;shdhh;.,uj;jk; gPwpLtijf; fz;lJk;> mtUf;F mr;rk; gPwpl;lJ! igaDf;FVjhtJ Vlh$lkhfp tpl;lhy; gop jd; kPJ> rhUNk vd;w gPjpapy;mth; me;jg; igaid clNd kUj;Jt kidf;F nfhz;L nry;yNtz;Lk; vd;W mtrug;gl;lhh;;;. ehq;fs; $b epw;gijf; fz;l rpj;jh;te;J>'vd;d vd;W Nfl;lthW rpWtid ghh;f;f> Fw;w czh;thy;Fiy eLq;fpg; NghapUe;j me;j ez;gh; vd; fhy; gl;L ghiwg;gFjpapy; xU rpW gFjp igad; jiyapy; tpOe;J tpl;lJ. clNdM];gj;jphpf;F nfhz;L Ngha; ijay; Nghl;lhy; jhd; ,uj;jk;toptJ epw;Fk; vd;whh; glglg;ghf ,ij Nfl;lJk; rpj;jh;rphpj;jthNw ',uj;jk; epf;fZk; mt;tsT jhNd" vd;wJk;> me;jez;gh; Mkhk; vd;gJ Nghy jiyahl;l> rpj;jh; jd; NjhspypUe;jigia vLj;J cs;Ns xU rpwpa lg;gpapypUe;J kUe;JcUz;ilia mUfpypUe;j itj;jpah; ifapy; nfhLj;J ,ijfhaj;Jy ntr;rp mKf;Fq;f vd;wJk; itj;jpaUk; ga gf;jpAld;mij epiwNtw;w> mLj;j fzNk ,uj;jk; jd; gazj;ij epWj;jpf;nfhz;lJ. ,J fz;l ehq;fs; midtUk; Mr;rhpaj;jhy Mzpmbj;jhw; Nghy; epd;Nwhk;! thq;f Nghfyhk; igaDf;F xz;Zk;MfhJ. %d;W jlit Fspr;rh vy;yhk; rhpahapLk;! vd;W $wptpl;Lelf;fj; Jtq;fpdhh;. ehq;fs; gpd; njhlh;e;Njhk;. gr;ir kiyiatpl;L ,wq;fpNdhk;. M];ukj;ij mile;Njhk;. rppj;jh; nrhd;dJNghy rpWtd; %d;W Kiw jiy Fspj;jJk; mtd; jiyapy;mt;tsT nghpa fhak; Vw;gl;ljw;fhd mwpFwpNa ,y;iy. ,ijf;fz;lJk; vd;kdf; fz;zpy; nrd;id efhpy; Ie;J el;rj;jputrjpfNshL $ba jdpahh; kUj;Jtkidfspy; thDah;e;jfl;blq;fs; njhpe;jd. jpUk;gpg; ghh;j;Njd; rpj;jh; M];ukj;ij.me;j rpW Xiy Fby; thdsT cah;e;J nfhz;Nl NghdJ! me;jMlk;gu kUj;Jt kidfs; ,jw;F vjpNu flw;fiuapy; rpWth;fs;fl;b tpisahLk;> kzy; tPLfshfj; Njhd;wpd. vd; kdk; rpj;jhpd;ngUikia vz;zpr; rpyph;j;jJ!

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epd;Nwd;! ,Wjpapy; jUkj;ij nra;> gyid vjph; ghh;f;fhNj!"vd;W gftj;fPijapy; gfthdpd; thrfk; vd;id cah;e;j epiyf;Fkhw;wpaJ! ,jpypUe;J ,dp MAs; cs;stiu khwNt khl;Nld;!ntspA+h;fspy; eilngw;W te;j glg;gpbg;G Ntiyfs; Kbe;J>fpilj;j ,ilNtisapy; rpj;jiuf; fhz nguk;gY}h; nry;Yk;ghijapy; ehd;> nrd;w g]; cSe;J}h;g; Ngl;ilapy; czTf;fhfepd;wJ. ehDk; kjpa czit cz;lgpd; N`hl;liy xl;b ,Ue;jntw;wpiyg;ghf;F filKd; rpwpJ Neuk; epd;Nwd;. me;jf; filapy;jpdg; gj;jphpiffspd; Ngh];lh;fs; njhq;fpf; nfhz;L ,Ue;jd.mjpy; Gfo; ngw;w Nahfp u[pdp\; mth;fs; mnkhpf;fhtpd; mZFz;L Mjpf;fj;ij fz;bj;jpUf;Fk; nra;jp jiyg;ghf ntspaplg;gl;bUe;jJ. ,ijg; gbj;jJk; ,ijg; gw;wp rpj;jhplk; Nfl;L njspTngw Ntz;Lk; vd;W KbT nra;Njd;. md;W ,uT Rkhh; VOkzpf;F mjw;fhd re;jh;g;gk; mike;jJ. mZ Fz;Lfs; gw;wpu[pdp\pd; vjph;g;igg; gw;wp mthplk; $wpNdd;. mij mth;mikjpahf Nfl;L nfhz;bUe;jhh;! cyf mikjpf;Nf mnkhpf;fhNtl;L itf;fg; ghf;FNj! ,th;fSf;F ehq;fs; risj;jth;fshvd;W u\;ahTk;> irdhTk; mij njhlh;e;J gy ehLfs;mZFz;Lfis mLf;fpf; nfhz;L ,Uf;fpd;wdNt!

“jhq;fs; ,aw;if rPw;wk; 2010f;Fs; vd;fpwPh;fs;! mjw;Fs;,e;j ehLfSf;fpilNa Nghh; %z;lhy;> mZFz;Nl mfpyj;ijAk;mopj;jpLNk!” vd;W vd; Iag;ghl;il mthplk; jPh;j;J nfhs;sKad;Nwd;. ,ijf; Nfl;l mth; “ftiyg;glhNj! vtDk;mZFz;il vLf;f khl;lhd;! xUtDf;F xUtd; gae;Jf; nfhz;L>mr;RWj;JtNjhL epWj;jpf; nfhs;thh;fs;. ,th;fs; itj;Jf;nfhz;L ,Ug;gJ ntWk; mZFz;L ntb! mjdhy; xU Fwpg;gpl;lgug;gsitj;jhd; mopf;f ,aYk;. vd;fpl;Nl Ik;gjhapuk; G+jq;fs;,Uf;F! mJNt xU Fl;b G+jj;ij Vtp tpl;lhy; mnkhpf;fhitNaNghpf;fhia fbr;rp KOq;fpw khjphp Koq;fpLk;” vd;whh;! ,ijNfl;lJk; vdf;F vd;dNth Nghy; ,Ue;jJ. vd;d ,Jtpl;lhyhr;rhhpah glf;fijnay;yhk; ek;kfpl;l tpLwhNu> vd;Wcs;sk; fpsh;r;rp nra;jJ! NgrKbahky; jiyiaf; Fdpe;Jnfhz;L nksdkhNdd;!

kPz;Lk; gykhf rphpj;j rpj;jh; ngUkhd; uh[h! vd;d Ngrhkcl;fhhe;Jl;Bq;f! ek;g Kbaiy ,y;Ny? ehisf;F fhiyapNynghpa> nghpa ehw;gJ khb- Ik;gJ-khbfl;blq;fs; tPo;e;J jiukl;lkhapd vd;W NubNahtpNy epA+]; tUk;! mijf;Nfl;l mg;Gwk;jhd; vd;id eP> GhpQ;Rf;f KbAk;!” vd;wth;> “rhp> rhp eP> clNdCUf;Fs;s Ngha; ,uz;L Ngl;lhp nry; thq;fpf;fpl;L th! cs;Ns%iyapNy fplf;fpw me;j rpd;d NubNah ngl;bapNy mijg;Nghl;L jahh; gz;Z> fhiyapNy MW kzpf;F epA+]; tUk;

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vd;W $wp> tpl;L M];ukj;ij tpl;L ntspNawp ,Uspy; xd;wpg;Nghdhh;! vdf;F ,unty;yhk; rhpahf cwf;fk; tutpy;iy. nghOJvg;NghJ tpbAk; vd;w Mtypy; Guz;L nfhz;bUe;Njd;! vg;gbNahvd;idawpahky; cwq;fpg;Nghdtd; ahNuh jl;b vOg;gpdhh; Nghy;vOe;Njd;! iff; fbfhuj;ijg; ghh;j;Njd;> kzp fhiy Ie;J gy;Jyf;fp tpl;L> mLg;G gw;w itj;J B Nghl;L vLj;J nfhz;Lrpj;jh; gLj;jpUe;j ,lj;jpw;F nrd;Nwd;.

ehd; mth; mUNf nrd;w clNd mth; vOe;J mkh;e;jhh;.Bia thq;fp mUe;jj; Jtq;fpdhh;. mbNadpd; fz;fs; vd;fbfhuj;ijg; ghh;j;jJ. Neuk; neUq;fpf; nfhz;bUe;jJ. BmUe;jpaTld; jk;siu fPNo itj;j rpj;jh; ngUkhd; vd;idg;ghh;j;J “epA+]; Nfl;fiyah?” vd;whh;. ,J Nfl;L mrl;LGd;difAld; mUfpypUe;j me;;j rpd;d NubNahit vLj;J];Nl\id NjbNdd;. mg;NghJ jhd; nra;jpAk; Jtq;fpaJ!murpay; tptfhuq;fs;-vd; nghWik vy;iy kPwj;Jtq;Fk; Neuj;jpy;may; ehl;L nra;jpfs; nkf;]pf;Nfh ehl;by; ,J tiu Vw;gl;lG+fk;gq;fspy; kpfg; nghpa G+fk;gk; ,J jhd;. kpfg; nghpa 40khb> 50 khb fl;blq;fs; jiukl;lkhapd. gj;jhapuk; Ngh;fs;,bghLfSld; ,we;Jtpl;ldh;. vd;W NubNah nra;jp New;W khiy6 kzpf;F $wpa rp;j;jhpd; nra;jp ,d;W fhiy 6 kzpf;Fthndhyp nra;jpaha; tUfpwJ. clNd rpj;jiu cw;Wg; ghh;j;Njd;.jd; jiyia Ml;b GUtkj;jpapy; cs;Sf;Fs; ghh;j;jthNwjpahdj;jpy; ,Ue;jhh;. clNd ntspNa te;Njd;.

fuz;l; trjp fpilahJ! Nghd; trjp ,y;iy. Vd;>Nghf;Ftuj;Jk; ,y;iy> gpwF vg;gb ,th; nrhy;ypaJ Nghy;NubNahtpy; nra;jp tUfpd;wJ.

vd; kdk; kpf kpf njspthd Muha;r;rpapy; XbaJ.

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rhjhuz thfd trjp $l ,y;yhj gj;Jf;Fg; gj;J XiyFbirapy; ,Uf;Fk;. mfj;jpaiug; Nghd;w rpd;d cUtj;jpw;Fs;cyfNk ,aq;fpf;nfhz;bUg;gij mbNad; fz;L vj;jid Kiw$wpdhYk; GupahjtUf;F vg;gbj;jhd; nrhd;dhYk;> mtu; Mirahy;kjpkaq;fp ,Ug;gtu;fSf;F kuzk; vg;gb te;jhYk; Vw;f jahuhfptpl;l rpy khdpl gpwg;Gfis fz;L tUj;jg;gl;L> rpj;juplNkNtz;Ljy; nra;Njd;.

nrg;gb tpj;ij fhl;Lk; rhkpahupd; glj;jpy; ,Ue;J tpg+jpnfhl;LtijNa> jz;zPupy; tpsf;F vupAk; vd;W $wpaw;Nf ngupafl;rp Nghy; $l;lk; $b Nfh\k; NghLfpwhu;fs;.

,t;tsT ngupa kfhufrpaq;fis jdf;Fs;> gwg;gd>kpUfq;fSf;F njupe;jJ $l> MW mwpT gilj;j kdpj&gq;fSf;F rpj;jiu Gupe;J nfhs;s Kbatpy;iyNa vd;w tUj;jk;.

rup ,jid tplf;$lhJ> ahu; ,e;j rpj;ju;> ,dp cyatpraq;fis clNd kwe;J> rpdpkh rpy;yiw njhopiy xJf;fp,tuplNk jQ;rk; GFe;J ehk; te;j Ntiyia ghu;f;f Ntz;Lk;vd;w kdituhf;fpaj;NjhL rpj;juplk; nrd;Nwd;> Rthkp mbNad;mnkupf;fhfhud; mZFz;il mopf;ff; Nfl;Nld; ePq;fs; tpl;lg+jk; mq;Nf ,j;jid Ml;fis mopj;J

gj;J Mapuk; Ngh; vd;dhy; kbe;j ghtj;ij [Puzpf;fKbatpy;iy vd;id kd;dpAq;fs; vd;W fjwp kz;bapl;Nld;!

“vOe;jpU uh[h! elf;f Ntz;ba Neuj;jpy; eP te;jha; ele;jJePAk; elf;f Ntz;ba ghijia Nehf;fp elf;ff; $ba fhyk;te;jJ!

“,J xd;Wk; nghpjy;y ty;yuR ehLfs; vd;W vij vij$Wfpwhh ;fNsh mnjy;yhk; fly; KOq;fptpLk; . ekf;Fftiynay;yhk; njd;dpe;jpahitg; gw;wpjhd;”.

“njd;dpe;jpah vd;why; vJ rhkp”? Me;jpuh> Nfush> fh;ehlfh>jkpo;ehL vy;yhk; xd;Wjhd; ,ij murpay; thjpfs;> Msj;njhpahky;jd; Rayhgj;jpw;F Ms;fpwhh;fs;. nts;isf;fhuDf;F Kd;dhy;cs;s rl;lk; jhd; nja;tPf rl;lk;.mjid fz;L nfhs;shky;>Vd; kjpf;fhky; nts;isf;fhuh; te;j gpwF cs;s rl;lj;ij>nts;isaid ntspNaw;wptpl;L> mtd; nra;j tptuq;fisgs;spf;$l gps;isfs; fhg;gp mbg;gJ Nghy; mjidNa gpd;gw;wpkf;fis gpd;dg;gLj;jptpl;lhh;fs;.

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Ra Qhdk; ,y;yhjth;fs; flTisg; gw;wp mwpAk; khh;f;fNknjhpahj %h;f;f Fzk; gilj;jth;fspd; rpe;jidia fhJ nfhLj;JNfl;Fk; kdpjDk; xU tpj $l;lNk!

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M];ukj;jpw;F xt;nthU ehSk; fhiy 10 kzpf;F xUFstp xU GOit nfhz;L tUk;. “,tW rpw;gp khjphp-me;jGOit nrJf;fp> mJf;F GJ cUtk; nfhLf;fwJ> vd;d! rhjhuztpj;ijah? mJTk; jd; cUtj;ijNa cz;lhf;Fwhd;dh-mth;xU gilg;G fh;j;jh ,y;iyah?" vd;W $wp rphpj;jhh;.

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nghJthf kfhd;fs;> Qhdpfs; fUiz tbthdth;fs; vd;Wgbj;jpUf;fpNwd;. mij Nehpy; fhZk; ghf;fpaj;ij ,e;j rpj;jh;khkdpjhplk; mile;Njd;.

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,tuJ rpe;jid fhyk; fle;jJ. MapDk; te;jth;fis jpUg;gpmDg;g Kbahj fhuzj;jhy; Mjutw;wth;fSf;F gfthNd Jizvd;gJ Nghy; ma;ahpd; cly; epiyia czh;e;J NkNyhl;lkhfkUe;J nfhLj;jhh;. Jd;gg;gLj;jpa kdpj caph; ,Uf;Fk; fhyk;tiujhd; ,Uf;Fk; vd;gJ Nghy; rpj;jh; mth;fSf;F milf;fyk;nfhLj;jhh; G+h;tPfj;jpy; ma;ah; Gz;zpak; nra;j fhuzj;jhy;jhd; rpj;jh; M];ukj;jpd; cwT fpilj;jJ ghf;fpak; vd;Ngd;.

xUehs; G+i[ Neuk;. G+i[ ele;J nfhz;bUe;jJ. ma;auJkidtpapd; mywy; Nfl;L tpiue;J ghl;biy vLj;Jf;; nfhz;Lrpj;ju; ngUkhd; mq;F te;jhh;fs;.

me;j kdpjd; me;jpk fhyj;jpy; ,Ue;jhh;. mth; kidtprhkpapd; fhypy; tpOe;J ~fhg;ghw;Wq;fs; vd;W fjwpdhh;. ma;ah;nky;y fz;fis jpwe;jhh;. rpj;jh; ngUkhid jPh;f;fkhf Nehf;fpdhh;

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,Wjpahf mth; tha; tpl;L rhkp vd;W jiy rha;e;jJ. mJfz;L mthpd; Jiztp Jbj;J fjwpdhh;. ghh;g;gth; fz;fs;Fskhfpd. ehd; rpj;jiu ghh;j;Njd;. ,we;jthpd; Kfj;ij cw;WNehf;fpathNw epd;w mth; nky;y vd; gf;fk; jpUk;gpdhh;.

~uh[h caph; cliy tpl;L ntspNawp ,Njh ntspNa epw;fpwJ.,e;j ijyj;ij nfhLj;jhy; ,th; caph; jpUk;gptpLk;. Mdhy;ePz;l Neuk; $l;by; jq;fhJ. mjdhy; me;j mk;kh GU\dplk;filrpahf VjhtJ Nfl;f Ntz;Lk; vd;W epidj;jhy; Nfl;fr;nrhy; vd;wthNu nrj;jth; ehtpy; me;j ijyj;ij rpwpJ jltpdhu;.rw;W Neuj;jpy; me;j mw;Gjk; epfo;e;jJ. Nghd capu; jpUk;gpte;jJ. Iau; nky;y fz; tpopj;jhh;. rhkpfis gf;jpAld; ghh;j;Jczh;r;rp trg;gl;L 'Rthkp>Rthkp" vd;whh;. me;j mk;kh fztiughh;j;J mOjhh;fNs jtpu-NtnwJTk; Nfl;f tpy;iy..

uh[h Neuk; Kbe;J tpl;lJ. ,dp caph; clypy; jq;fhJ>vd;whh;fs;. mij njhpe;jth; Nghy; me;j me;jzh; gf;jpAld;rpj;jiu ghh;j;J 'Rthkp! Rthkp!" vd;W tzq;fpdhh;. fhy Njtdpd;miog;Gf;F ,zq;fpdhh;. mthpd; JiztpNah Jiz ,oe;jkhlg;Gwh khjphp Jauj;jpy; Jbj;jhh;fs;.

,J fz;L ngU%r;R tpl;l rpj;jh; ngUkhd; ',J jhd; tho;f;if.fhw;wilj;j igapy; Xl;il tpOe;J tpl;lJ. ig fhypahff;fplf;fpwJ. ,e;j mw;g fhy tho;tpy; kdpjd; MLfpw Ml;lk;vd;d? Mztj;jhy; NghLk; Mh;g;ghl;lq;fs; jhd; vd;d? ,Wjpapy;mtd; jd; FLk;gj;Jf;Fk; jd; Rw;wj;Jf;Fk; el;Gf;Fk; mspj;Jtpl;L nry;tJ ntWk; Jauk; jhd;. me;jj; Jauk; ePz;Lepiyg;gjpy;iy. fhyj;jpd; Ntfj;jpy; mtd; epidNt Ntfkha;kiwe;J tpLfpwJ”. vd;W $wpathW M];ukj;jpd; mUfpYs;smurkuj;ij Nehf;fp ele;jhh;.

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gpugy rpdpkh xspg;gjpthsh; jpU.epth]; mth;fs; ~Nfhop$TJ’ glj;jpy; ehd; gzpahw;wpa NghJ vdf;F mwpKfkhdth;.ahhplKk; mjpfk; Ngrhky; jhd; cz;L> jd; Ntiy cz;Lvd;W xJq;fp ,Uf;Fk; mth;> vd;dplk; kl;Lk; fyfyg;ghf NgRthh;.xU Kiw mtiu nguk;gY}h; rpj;jh; M];ukj;jpw;F mioj;Jr;nrd;Nwd;. rhkpaplk; mwpKfg;gLj;jp itj;Njd;. jpU.epth];mth;fspd; cliy Nrhjpj;j rpj;jh; mth;fs;> kUe;J nfhLg;gjhfTk;>Neha; tpiutpy; FzkhFk; vd;Wk; $wp tpl;L CUf;F jpUk;gmtrug;gl;l epth]; mth;fsplk; kjpak; cz;L Xa;ntLj;J khiyfpsk;gyhk; vdTk;> jpU.epth]; mth;fSk; mjw;fpzq;fpdhh;.

kjpa czT mUe;jpa gpd; Xa;ntLf;Fk; NghJ> jpU.epth];mth;fs; vd;id rpj;jhplk;. 'mLj;j gpujkh; ahh; vdf; NfSq;fs;"vd;whh.; mg;NghJ by;yp murpay; #o;epiy kpfTk; gugug;ghf,Ue;jJ. ehDk; jaq;fpathW rpj;jh; ngUkhdplk; ,ijf;Nfl;Nld;.mth; rw;Wk; jaq;fhky; ,e;jpud; Ngud; ~uh[Pt; fhe;jp’ vd;whh;.

,ijf;Nfl;lJk; jpU.epth]; mth;fs; vhpr;rYld;> 'vd;da;ah,J! xU tpkhd igyl; Ngha; ,e;j ehl;bd; tUq;fhy gpujkh;vd;fpwhNu! Vd; ,th; rk;ge;jh> rk;ge;jkpy;yhky; NgRfpwhh;. rhp>rhp kUe;ij thq;fpf; nfhLq;fs; Gwg;glyhk; vd;whh;.

ehDk; mth; ,\;lg;gb nray;gl;Nld;. mth; nrd;idf;FGwg;gl;Lr; nrd;whh;. ehd; M];ukj;jpy; jq;fp tpl;Nld;. rhkp Vd;mg;gbf; $wpdhh;. mtiu csWfpwhh;. vd;W nrhy;yp nrd;W tpl;lhNuepth];! vd;W kdk; Ntjidg;gl;lJ.

kWehs; vd; kdj;jtpg;G jhshky; rpj;jiu mZfpNdd;. vd;drhkp! xU igyl;il Ngha; gpujkh; vd;fpwPh;fs;. mtUf;F murpaNygpbf;fhJ mNjhL> mth; kze;jpUg;gJ xU ,j;jhypa ehl;Lg;ngz;> rQ;ra; fhe;jpahtJ! murpaypy; jPtpukhf ,Ue;jtu.; ,tiug;Ngha; nrhy;YfpwPu;fNs! ,J vg;gb rhj;jpakhFk;? vd;Nwd;.

uh[h! nghWj;jpUe;J ghh;! nly;yp ehw;fhypapy; NeU FLk;gj;ijjtpu ahh; cl;fhh;e;jhYk; me;j ehw;fhyp MLk;. rkaj;jpy; ftpo;e;JtpLk;. vy;yh ehl;L jiyth;fSNk rpj;jh;fs; top te;jth;fs;jhd;. ,q;fpyhe;J mh;r;Rdd; ehL> ghk;ghl;b rpj;jhpd; mtjhuk;jhd; Ie;jhk; [hh;[; kd;dd;. uh[Pt; igyl;lhf ,Ue;jhy; vd;d?

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Mfhaj;jpy; gpNsd; Xl;LgtUf;F ehlhs Kbahjh? nghWj;jpUe;Jghh;! mtiu gpujkh; Mf;fpf; fhl;LfpNwd;>" vd;wth; VNjh epidTf;Fte;jth; Nghy 'vd;d nrhd;dPh;fs; Nrhdpah! ,j;jhypa ngz;zh?"mth; rhjhuz ngz;zy;y. ,e;j ehl;bd; tUq;fhy murpaypy;,th; gjtpf;F tuyhk;. mth; kfs; gphpaq;fhTk; ,e;ehl;il Msyhk;.

me;j FLk;gNk vdf;F flikg;gl;lth;fs;. 2000f;F Nky;mth;fSf;F Ntz;ba nja;tPfkhd cjtpfs; fpilf;Fk;. mJ$lvd; %ykhf fpilf;Fk;.

,J fhyj;jpd; fl;lhak;!. vd;wth; kTdkhdhh;;.

me;j kTdj;jpw;F nghUs; gj;J ehl;fspy; vdf;Fg; Ghpe;jJ.me;j kfhd; nrhd;d Ntjthf;F epfo;e;jJ. ,e;jpuhfhe;jpiakjntwpah;fs; Rl;Lf; nfhd;whh;fs;. uh[Pt; fhe;jp ghujg; gpujkuhdhh;!.

“vd;d rhkp! md;W kfhj;khfhe;jp ,d;W ,e;jpuhfhe;jp" vd;Nwd;.gjg;gjg;NghL 'Mkhk;! ,J ,uz;lhtJ fhe;jp" vd;W $wpdhh;.

Kd;G xU Kiw jpdj;je;jp gj;jphpf;ifapy; jpU.vk;.[p.Mh;mth;fs; nry;tp n[ayypjhtplk; xU jphp#yj;ij ghprspf;Fk;fhl;rp Gifg;glkhf ntspaplg;gl;L ,Ue;jJ. ,ij fz;l rpj;jh;ngUkhd; 'uh[h! ,ij ghj;jpah? ,e;j mk;khtplk; rf;jpianfhLj;J tpl;lhh; vk;.[p.Mh; ehd; Ghpahky; Nehf;f> rf;jpd;dhMq;fpyj;jpNy gth;d;;D jhNd nrhy;Ythq;f. mijj; jhd;nrhd;Ndd;" vd;W rphpj;jhh;.

vjph; fhyj;jpy; kPz;Lk; fUzhepjp Ml;rp tUk;. me;j mk;khTk;ehl;il MSk;. fUzhepjp rhjhuz kdpjh; my;y. mth; nghpakfhdpd; gpwtp. Mdhy; VNdh ehj;jpfk; NgRfpwhh;. ,y;iyNay;,th; jkpo; ehl;Lf;F jiyikaha; ,Uf;f Ntz;bath;. mth;Nky; Fw;wkpy;;iy. mth; gpwtp vLj;j fhuzj;jpd; topapy; mth;nry;Yfpwhh;. mt;tsT jhd;. kWgbAk; xU fhy fl;lj;jpy;fhq;fpu]; kPz;Lk; Ml;rpf;F tUk;.

Mdhy; ,g;NghJ ,Uf;Fk; jiyth;fs; ahUk; ,Uf;fkhl;lhh;fs;. ,isQh; Ml;rp jhd; elf;Fk; vd;whh;.

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mth; nrhd;dthW eil ngw;w NghJ cly; rpyph;j;J ,Uf;fpNwd;.,tiug; Ngha; ek;ghky; ghkudha; ,Ue;J tpl;NlhNk vd;WtUe;jpNdd;. ehDk; mg;NghJ ruhrhp kdpjd; jhNd> Fotp> GOitnfhl;bf; nfhl;b jd; cUtk; Mf;FtJ Nghy> mth; %yk; ehd;ngw;w njspT vd;id mth; mbik Mf;fpaJ.

mth; nrhy;ypathW ,ejpuhfhe;jp KbTk;> uh[pt; fhe;jpapd;Ml;rp Jtf;fKk; ele;Njwpd! Mdhy; ghjfh;fs;; rjptiyapy;tPo;e;J rpjwpNghapw;Nw me;j moF cUtk;> me;j Nrhfk; rw;WFiwe;j Neuj;jpy; xU ehs; vd; epidtpy; ,e;jpuh fhe;jp ,we;jNghJ rpj;jh; ngUkhd; $wpa thh;j;ijfs; vjpnuhypj;jd.

Mkhk;! ,uz;lhtJ fhe;jp vd;W $wptpl;L nrd;whNu. mjd;nghUs; nrhy;yhky; tpsq;fpaJ. ,jpypUe;J mth; thf;fpypUe;JtUk; vijAk; ehd; cd;dpg;ghf ftdpj;J mJ gw;wp nghUs;fhz NghuhLtij tof;fkhf nfhz;Nld;.

rpj;jh; ngUkhdplk; Nrh;e;jJ Kjy; vdf;fhf vijAk; ehd;mthplk; Nfl;ljpy;iy. Mdhy; mjw;fhd #o;epiy vd;idr;#o;e;jJ. NtW topapd;wp jaf;fj;Jld; vd; je;ijahiu gw;wp$wp> 'mtUf;F fpilf;f Ntz;ba gjtp khw;wk; Ntz;Lnkd;Nwjhkjg;gLj;jg;gLfpwJ. mjw;F ePq;fs; jhd; cjt Ntz;Lk;"vd;Nwd;!

mth; rw;W Neuk; fz;fis %bath;-gpwF Gd;difAld;>'vd;da;ah! ,J vd;d gpukhjkhd tp\akh! xU nrhl;L ik-mt;tsT jhNd?" vd;whh;.

vdf;Fg; Ghpatpy;iy! 'xU ifnaOj;J Nghl vt;tsT iknrythFk;. xU nrhl;L ik jhNd!" vd;W rphpj;jhh;. Nkw;nfhz;Lmthplk; tpsf;fk; Nfl;f vdf;F Jzptpy;iy. mth; fUizekf;F cz;L, mth; mUs; epr;rak; fpilf;Fk; vd;w ek;gpf;ifAld;,Ue;jNghJ vd; je;ijahhplkpUe;J fbjk; te;jJ. jdf;F gjtpcah;Tld; jpUr;rp efUf;F ,lkhw;wKk; fpilj;jpUg;gjhy;> ehd;jw;NghJ jpUr;rpapy; jhd; ,Uf;fpNwd;. cld; te;J re;jpf;fTk;vd;W fbjr; nra;jp $wpaJ. rhkpaplk; tpguj;ijf; $wp> mth;Mrp ngw;W jpUr;rp tpiue;Njd;.

md;;W jpUr;rp efuNk gugug;ghf ,Ue;jJ. vd; je;ij efhpd;Kf;fpa gFjpapy; buhgpf;if fl;Lg;gLj;j nrd;W ,Ug;gjhf mwpe;J>

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je;ij ,Ue;j gFjpf;F tpiue;Njd;! mth; mq;F kpfTk; gugug;ghfgzpahw;wpf; nfhz;bUe;jhh;. gugug;Gf;F fhuzk; vk;.[p.Mhpd; cly;epiy Nkhrkile;j nra;jpahFk;. me;j epiyapYk; vd; kdk;nguk;gY}iu Nehf;fp gazpj;jJ. me;j jphpfhy Qhdpapd;ghjq;fis tzq;fpf; nfhz;bUe;jJ.

xU gpugy Md;kPfthjp xUth; nfhb fl;b gwe;j fhyk;!md;iwa jpdg;gj;jphpf;if xd;wpy; mth; Ngrg; Nghtjhf ehs;>,lk; Fwpg;gpl;L xU tpsk;guj;ij fz;Nld;. ,th; gw;wp rpj;jh;mth;fsplk; mgpg;gpuhak; Nfl;f KbntLj;J mtiu mZfpNdd;.vd; Nfs;tpf;F tpilahf 'Md;kPf thjpah? ,jpy; thjkpl vd;d,Uf;fpwJ. ,th;fs; jq;fs; Md;kPf nfhs;iff;F vjpuhf ,Uf;Fk;khw;W fUj;jpdhplk; thjkpLgth;fsh? me;j fhyj;jpy; rq;fuh;>khj;th;> ,uhkD[h;> Nghd;w jj;Jt thjpfs;> khw;W fUj;Js;sjj;Jt thjpfsplk; nfhb Ve;jp nrd;W thjkpl;L ntd;W jk;jj;Jtj;ij epiy ehl;LtJ tuyhW! mNj Nghy; ,th;fs; nray;gLfpwhh;fs;. kf;fspilNa Mj;k Qhdj;ij tpsf;Ffpwhh;fs;"vd;Nwd;!.

“uh[h! Mj;kh vd;gJ ,iwtdpd;! rf;jp mJ vy;yhcaphpdj;jpYk; epiwe;Js;sJ. ,ijj; jhd; caph; vd;Wk;nrhy;fpwhh;fs;. rptk; mirtw;wJ. rf;jp rptj;jpw;F miritf;nfhLg;gjhFk;.

mjdhy ; xt ;nthU caph ; ,dKk; r ptrf ;j pfspd ;Myaq;fshFk;. ,jdhy; jhd; nfhy;yhikia vy;yh QhdpfSk;tw;GWj;Jfpd;wdh;. clypy; rf;jp Nghdhy; rptk; nfhk;nghbe;jrtkhFk;. Mjyhy; Mj;k Qhdk; vd;gJ me;j Mj;khtpd;mDgtkhFk;. ,e;j Mj;k Qhdj;ij czh;e;jtd; mijkw;wth;f;F tpsf;fpf; $wKbahJ! nghpa fhak; mjdhy; typjhs Kbatpy;iy vd;W xUtd; nrhd;dhy; mJ vt;tsTjPh;f;fkhd typ! mij mtd; vg;gb czh;e;jhd; vd;gij kw;wth;czu KbahJ. Vndd;why; xt;nthU kdpjDk; jdp kdpjd;jhd;!

,jdhy; jhd; cyfk;> tho;f;if> cly;> cwT> el;G> Gfo;>nry;tk;> kfpo;r;rp> Jd;gk; vJTNk epiyaw;wJ. mitfs; kdpjidQhdj;ij mila tplhky; jLf;Fk; kha rf;jpfs; mitfspy;gw;Witf;fhNj vd;whh;fs; Qhdpfs;.

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Md;kPfk; vd;gJ Md;khit gw;wpaJ! ,J Md;khTf;F Md;;khkhWgLk;. xUthpd; mDgtk; khjphpNa kw;wtUf;Fk; mJmiktjpy;iy.

Mjyhy; xU QhdpNah> rpj;jNuh vOjp itj;jitfs; me;jQhdpfs;> rpj;jh;fs; mDgtk; jhNd xopa mNj mDgtk; kw;wMj;khf;fSf;F NtWgLk;.

,e;E}y;fs; ngUk;ghYk; ghly;fshfNt cs;sd. ,J goFjkpopy; ,Uf;fhJ. mjdhy; ,jpy; cs;s gy nrhw;fSf;FNtz;Lkhdhy; nghUs; nrhy;yyhk; Mdhy; me;j nrhy; me;jQhdpahy;> rpj;juhy; vd;d nghUspy; vOjg;gl;L cs;sJ. vd;gJxU nghpa Qhdpf;Fj;; jhd; GhpAk;. mg;gb Ghpe;jij itj;Jmth;fSk; vOjg;gl;l KO Qhdj;ij ngw;wpl KbahJ.

mitfs; rpwpa lhh;r; tpsf;Ffs; Nghy ,Uspy; rpW topkl;Lk; jhd; fhl;Lk;. ,Uspy; %o;fpapUf;Fk; vy;yhg; gFjpfisAk;mjdhy; fhl;l ,ayhJ.

Nfhopf;F> jhd; Kl;il ,Lk; NghJ Vw;gLk; typ vd;ghhh;fNsmJ Nghy; xU kdpjdpd; Mj;k Qhdk; mtDf;F kl;Lk; jhd;czu KbAk;> Mdhy; ,ij tpsf;f KbahJ vd;gjhy; fz;lth;tpz;byh; vd;whh;fs;. mNj Neuk; tpz;lth; fz;byh;; vd;whh;fNs.mth;fs; jhd; eP Fwpg;gpLk; Mrhkpfs;. Md;kPfthjpfs; vd;Wjkf;F jhNk ehkNjak; #l;b nfhz;lth;fs;.

,th;fs; jhq;fs; gbj;jij> kw;wthplk; Nfl;lij-$l;lj;ijf;$l;b ikf;fpy; csUk; csUthah;fs;.

gj;jphpf;ifapy; jhk; fhzhjij> czuhjij fpWf;fp itf;Fk;fpWf;fh;fs;. nte;jijj;jpd;W Ntjhe;jk; vd Ntz;lhjitfisvy;yhk; tpguk; Ghpahky; Ngrp kf;fis Fog;gp gpiof;Fk; Vkhw;Wf;fhuh;fs;. nja;tPfj;ij tpahghukhf;Fk; tpj;ij njhpe;j ty;yth;fs;.,th;fs; Nehf;fk; Gfo;> gzk;. ,ij mth;fs; vspjpy; mile;JtpLfpwhh;fs;.

Md;kh Mz;ltdpd; Myak;. mJ Rje;jpukhdJ. Md;khTf;FVw;gLk; Jd;gq;fs; mjd; cly; topahfj;jhd; Vw;gLfpd;wd.mjdhy; jhd; xU Qhdp jd; cly; Neha; fz;L thba NghJme;j Nehapd; Ntjidia jhq;fpf; nfhz;L> “gL clNy! gLgho; clNy gL" vd;whuhk;.

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mNjNghy; Mj;khTf;F ,e;j cly; rpiway;y. ,e;j cliyme;j Mj;kh ,af;Fk; xt;nthU kdpjDk; jdpkdpjNd Mthd;.

eLf;flypy;> es;sputpy;> eLq;Fk; Fsphpy;> xU rpW kuj;Jz;il>gw;wpf; nfhz;L fiuNawp caph; tho Mirg;gl;L jpir njhpahky;ePe;Jk; kdpjid Nghy; ,e;j Md;khTk; ,e;j cyf tho;f;ifvDk; Mo;flypy; ,e;j gpwtp vDk; kuj;Jz;il gw;wpf; nfhz;Lfiu Nru topnjhpahky; ePe;jpf; nfhz;bUf;fpwJ.

fiu vd;gJ ,iwtd; vd;W itj;Jf; nfhz;lhy; ,iwtidmiltij tho;f;if yl;rpak; vd;W ek;gpf;ifAld; ePe;Jfpwtd;fiu VWk; ,iwtid Nehf;fp ePe;Jfpd;whd;. mNj rkak; mtd;,iwtid Nehf;fp xU mb vLj;J itj;jhy; - ,iwtd; mtidNehf;fp ehd;fb vLj;J itf;fpwhh;> vd;whh;fs; nghpath;fs;.

Mdhy; ePe;JtJ jhd; tho;f;if vd;W fiuia kwe;jth;fs;fiuia ehk; mila KbahJ vd ek;gpf;if ,oe;jth;fs; ePe;jp>ePe;jp cs;sk; Nrhh;e;J cly; Nrhh;e;J nky;y> nky;y mf;flypNy%o;fp kiwfpwhh;fs;.

fiuAz;L Kad;why; mij milayhk; vd;w ek;gpf;ifnfhz;lth;fs; epr;rak; fiuia milfpwhh;fs;. ehk; ,Uf;Fk;,lj;jpw;F kiy tuhJ. Vd; vd;why; mJ mirtw;wJ. rpt];t&gk;!ehk; jhd;; mij Nehf;fp elf;f Ntz;Lk;.

xU nghpa Qhd cgNjrk; Mrhdhy; cgNjrpf;fg;gl;lJ.md;W jpahdj;jpy; mkh;e;Njd;. mLj;j tpdhb vd;id kwe;Njd;.vq;Nfh ,Ue;Njd;. mDgtq;fs; Nghpd;gk;> kfpo;r;rp> vd; fz;fspy;Mde;j fz;zPh; tbe;J nfhz;Nl ,Ue;jJ.

nguk;gY}h; kiyfs; #o;e;j ,lkhjypy; rpj;jpiu gpwf;Fk;Kd;dNu gq;FdpapNyNa Mjtd; cf;fpukhfp tpLthd;. Fwpg;ghfme;j Mz;L tof;fj;ijtpl rw;W mjpfkhfNt ntg;gk; tWj;JvLf;fj; Jtq;fpaJ. ,ij vd;dhy; jhq;f Kbatpy;iy!

Mjyhy; nrd;id nrd;W tplyhk; vd;W KbntLj;J rpj;jh;ngUkhdplk; tpil Nfl;Nld;. Vd; jpBh; vd;W vd tpdh vOe;jJ!ntg;gk; jhstpy;iy nrd;idapy; ,t;tsT mdy; ,Uf;fhJmNjhL kjpaj;jpw;Fg; gpwF flw;fhw;W tPrj; njhlq;fp tpLk;.mdy; mfd;W Mj;kh Mde;jg;gLk;. mNjhL jz;zPh; f\;lk;NtW thl;LfpwJ. vd;W cz;ikia kiwf;fhky; kdk; jpwe;Njd;.

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,J Nfl;L Nfypahf eifj;j rpj;jh; mth;fs; 'vd;d uh[h"vd;id fpzly; nra;fpwhah? flNy vd; fkz;lyj;jpy; ,Uf;fpwJ!ehd; itj;j fq;if> fhNthp thb vd;why; vd;idNjb XbtUthh;fs;. cdf;F jz;zPh; gpur;rpid jPuZk;> FS>FSd;D,Uf;fZk; mt;tsT jhNd. ,Jf;fhf eP nrd;id nry;yNtz;Lkh?" vd;W $wpf;nfhz;Nl M];uk FbYf;Fs; nrd;WgLj;J tpl;lhh;.

,ij fz;l ehd; ~Ngh’ vd;Wk; nrhy;yhky; ~,U’ vd;Wk;nrhy;yhky; Ngha; gLj;J tpl;lhNu! ehk; VjhtJ jtwha; nrhy;yptpl;NlhNkh? vd;W Fok;gpg; Ngha; mUfpypUe;j murkuj;jbiamilf;fyk; GFe;Njd;. ntspapYk; fhw;wpy;iy. mdy;; kl;Lk;tPrpf;nfhz;bUe;jJ.

,itfspypUe;J kdij jg;g itf;f jpahdj;ijr;ruzile;Njd;. vd;id kwe;J. jpahdj;jpy; jpisj;Jg; NghNdd;.fhJ nrtplhFk; gyj;j ,br; rj;jk;. vd; rpW jtj;ijf; fiyj;jJ.fz;fisj; jpwe;Njd;. vd;dhy; ek;gNt Kbatpy;iy. thdk;,Usj;Jtq;fpaJ. mUfpypUe;j gpuk;k hp\p kiyapypUe;JfUNkfq;fs; thdpy; vOk;gpd. jpBh; vd;W #whtspf; fhw;WRod;W mbj;jJ. GOjpfpsk;gp kz;- fz;izj; jhf;fpaJ.ngUe;Jspahf thd; ePiuj;J}tpaJ. Nghpiur;rYld; rw;W Neuj;jpy;fhw;W> ,b> kio> vd;W ,aw;if rluhbaJ> if fbfhuj;ijg;ghh;j;Njd;. ehd; ep\;ilapy; mkh;e;J gj;J epkplq;fspy; ,e;jmw;Gjk; epfo;e;J nfhz;bUe;jJ. kioapy; eide;J nfhz;NlXb M];ukj;jpw;Fs; GFe;Njd;.

mNj Neuk; M];ukj;jpd; rhg;ghL $l nfhl;lif fhw;wpd;Ntfk; jhshky; jiuapy; rha;e;jJ. nfhQ;r Neuj;jpy; Koq;fhy;msTf;F nts;sk; ngUf;nfLj;J XbaJ. ,J fdth? edth?rpdpkhitg; Nghy ,t;tsT Ntfkhf fhl;rp khw;wkh? M];ukj;jpd;cs;Ns vl;bg; ghh;j;Njd;. rpj;jh; ngUkhd; fz;fis %bgLj;jpUe;jhh;. mth; Kfj;jpy; xU rpW Gd;dif kl;Lk;epiyj;jpUe;jJ.

kio nraw;ifahf tutiof;f tpkhdk; %yk; nrd;W>urhadnghb J}tp me;j urhad khWjyhy; Nkfj;ij Fspu itj;J>kio nga;a itf;f KbAk; vd;W Vuhskhd nghUs; nryitmurhq;fNk nra;J rhjpf;f Kbahjij> ,Njh fz;fis %b>xd;Wk; mwpahjth; Nghy;> Kfj;jpy; Gd;dif jto fz; %b

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gLj;jpUf;fpwhNu> vd; Mrhd;, mth; gj;J epkplq;fspy; rhjpj;J,Uf;fpwhNu.

,t;tsT rf;jp gilj;j kfhid kf;fs; mwpahky;,Uf;fpwhh;fNs> ,tUk; tpsk;guk; Ntz;lhk; vd;fpwhNu vd;dnra;tJ> kf;fs; nfhLj;J itj;jJ mt;tsT jhd; vd;WkdJf;Fs; Mjq;fg;gl;lthNw kioia urpj;Jg; ghh;j;Jf;nfhz;bUe;Njd;.

miu kzpNeuk; rf;if NghL Nghl;l ngUkio Xaj;Jtq;fpaJFsph; fhw;W tPrpaJ. mg;NghJ vd; gpd;;Gwk; te;J epd;w rpj;jh;ngUkhd; 'vd;d uh[h" FS> FSd;D ,Uf;fpwjh> jz;zPh; NtZkpy;y,Njh nts;skha; NghTNj. Flj;jpy; gpbj;J itj;Jf; nfhs;. me;jgpur;ridAk; NghapLk;!" vd;whh; rphpj;Jf; nfhz;Nl. ehd; gjpy; $wj;njhpahky; kuk; Nghy epd;Nwd;. 'nrd;id NghfZkh?" vd;whh; NfypAld;.

ehyiu mb cauk; fUj;j Nkdp> vYk;Gfs;> euk;Gfshy; gpd;dg;gl;lijg; Nghd;w cly; mikg;G! ,e;j rpwpa cUtj;jpw;Fs; ,t;tsTmkhD\;a rf;jp! mij ntspf;fhl;lhj Mlk;gukpy;yhj vspa Njhw;wk;.

mlf;fk;> nghWik> fbd ciog;G> rj;jpaj;jpd; mtjhuk;>,thplk; gQ;r G+jq;fSk; mbikahf gzpGhpfpd;wd. MapDk;,th; Vd; xJq;fp tho;fpwhh;? kf;fis> Vioj; njhz;lh;fisehl;il tsg;gLj;Jk; murpay; thjpfSk;> $ypf;fhf nfhiynra;Ak; ghjfh;fSk;> fs;s Nehl;L> fs;sf;flj;jy;> fsT vdthOk; rl;lj;jpd; gifth;fSk;> fhRf;fhfj; jha; ehl;ilNafhl;bf;nfhLj;J fhR ghh;f;Fk; Njr tpNuhjpfSk;> fs;sf;fzf;nfOjp fUg;Gg; gzk; Nrh;j;J ehl;bd; vjph;; fhyj;ijNags;sj;jpy; Gijf;Fk; ehrfhuh;fSk;> ciog;gth; cjpuj;jpy;cy;yhrkhf ePr;rybf;Fk; gz KjiyfSk;> Nkhrbf;fhuh;fSk;>fhkntwp nfhz;L miyAk; ngz;zpd; tpNuhjpfSk;> jh;kk;kwe;jth;fSk;> ngw;Nwhiu kwe;jth;fSk;> cwTfis jhk;; cah;e;jNghJ cjwp js;spath;fSk;> NghypfSk;> kjntwpah;fSk;>Nghypr;rhkpahh;fSk;> ,g;gb ,e;j G+kpiaNa ehrkhf;fpf;nfhz;bUf;Fk; ehrfhuh;fs; thOk; ,g;G+kpapy; J\;l;liu fz;lhy;J}u xU mb vd;gJ Nghy> kw;w kfhp\pfSk;> QhdpfSk;>rpj;jh;fSk;> fhyj;jpd; Nfhyj;jhy; kiwe;J thOk; epiyapYk;>jhKk; kiwahky;-xJq;fp ,Ue;J cyFf;F jhk; gpwtp vLj;jflikiar; nra;fpwhh;- vd;w tpiljhd;- vdf;Ff; fpilj;j rhpahdtpilahf ,Uf;Fk; vd;W ek;GfpNwd;! ,g;gbg;gl;l kfhd; vd;idj;

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jd;Dld; itj;J md;G fhl;LtJ mth; nrhy;tJ Nghy G+h;tGz;zpa G+h;tn[d;k cwthfj;jhd; ,Uf;Fk; vd;w KbTf;Fte;Njd;.

xU ehs; khiy ,Us; #Ok; Neuk; rhkpfs; Vfhe;jj;ij ehbM];ukk; mUfpypUe;j murkuj;jbapy; mkh;e;jpUe;jhh;fs;. md;W mjprakhfM];ukj;jpy; rhkp> ehd;> Mfpa ,Uth; kl;LNk ,Ue;Njhk;.

nghJthf khiy MWkzpKjy; vl;L tiu rpj;jh; RthkpfSk;mbNaDk; jdpjdpaha; jdpj;J ,Uf;Fk; ghf;fpak; gytUlq;fspy; ,d;W vdf;F fpilj;j re;jh;g;gj;ij vz;zp kdk;Gyq;fhfpjkhdJ.. ,J Nghd;w Ntisfspy; jhd; vd; kdjpy;vOk; Iag; ghLfSf;F Iadplk; tpilngWNtd;.

fz;fis %b nksdj;jpy; ,Ue;jtu; 'vd;d uh[h" ,g;gcdf;F vd;d njhpQ;rhfZk;? vd;whh; fz;fisj; jpwthkNy!ehd; jaq;fpa thNw" goq;fhy Xiyr;Rtbfspy; rpj;jh;fs; gw;wpvOjpapUg;gjhf Nfs;tpg;gl;Nld;. ,njy;yhk; cz;ik jhdh?"vd;Nwd;.

mjw;F mth; 'cz;ik jhd;"! vd;whh;.

gid Xiy kf;fpj; J}shf Ngha;tpLk;. mJ vg;gb ,t;tsTfhyk; ,Uf;f Kbe;jJ? vd;Nwd; ehd;.

eP nrhy;tJk; cz;ik jhd;. Mdhy; Kw;fhyj;jpy; Xiyfs;FWfpa fhy fl;lj;jpy; mope;J tplhjthW mt;Nthiyfs;rpj;jh;fs; Kiwg;gb gjg;gLj;jg;gl;L ghJfhf;fg;gl;lit. mNjhLrPlh;fs; mitfis vLj;Jg; ghJfhj;J te;jhh;fs;.

mNjhL gpw;fhyq;fspy; ,e;j Xiyr;Rtbfis kUj;Jth;fSk;>Qhd Ntl;if cs;sth;fSk;> Muha;e;J te;jdh;. thioabthioahf ,e;epfo;r;rp njhlh;e;J ,e;j etPd tpQ;Qhdkakhdcyfpy; ,itfs; ,d;W mr;Nrwp Gj;jf tbtkhf gf;jh;fsplk;nghf;fp\q;fshf Nghw;wpg; ghJfhf;fg;gLfpd;wd.

E}y; epiyaq;fSk;> ,itfis nghJkf;fs; gbf;f tifnra;J tUfpd;wd, vd;wth; jk; gf;fj;jpy; itj;J ,Ue;j xUGj;jfj;ij vd;dplk; nfhLj;J XiyapypUe;J Gj;jf tbtkhd,e;E}ypy; cd;id gw;wpf; $l vOjpapUf;fpwJ. ftdkhf gbj;jhy;GHpAk;> vd;wthW nfhLj;jhh;.

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xd;Wk; Ghpahjtdhf mg;;Gj;jfj;ij thq;fpf; nfhz;l ehd;mijg;gbf;f Mh;tkhf tpsf;F ntspr;rj;ij Njb M];ukj;jpw;Ftpiue;Njd;. ,UtJ rpj;jh;fs; Qhdf; Nfhit vd;w me;jGj;jfj;ij ftdkhf gbf;fj; Jtq;fpNdd;.

gbj;Njd;> Kbj;Njd;. Mdhy; Ghpahky; tpopj;Njd;> uh[Fkhud;vd;w vd; ngah; ,y;iy! gpwF Vd; rhkpfs; mg;gbf; $wpdhh; xUNtis ek;ikf; Nfyp nra;fpwhuh? vd;W xd;Wk; Ghpahky; mg;gbNaJ}q;fpg; NghNdd;.

VNjh! xU kiyg; gFjp ,Us; #Ok; Neuk;. ehd; topnaq;Fk;mlh;e;jpUf;Fk; Kl;Gjh;fis tpyf;fpathNw tUfpNwd;. mg;gbxU ,lj;jpy; Gjiu tpyf;Fk; NghJ mq;F kiwe;jpUe;j mofpaxU gPlk; ntspg;gl;lJ. NkYk; Gjh;fis Kw;wpYk; mfw;wpg;ghh;f;fpNwd;. me;j gPlj;jpd; NkNy gbf;fl;Lfs; Nghd;W Njhd;WfpwJ.

me;j gbf;fl;Lfspd; NkNy epiwa Kdpth;fspd; jpUcUtq;fs; njhpe;jd. xt;nthU cUtj;jpd; NkYk; ahNuh xUth;xU kQ;rs; xspia gha;r;RtJ Nghy (mjhtJ lhh;r; iyl;Nghl;L fhl;LtJ Nghy) njhpe;jJ> mg;gb efh;e;j xsp xUcUtj;jpd; kPJ kl;Lk; ,Wjpapy; epiyj;J epd;wJ! mJ xUKdpthpd; cUtk; mjd; fPNo 'Gypg;ghzp" vd;W vOjpapUe;jJ.

jpLf;fpl;L vOe;J cl;fhh;e;Njd;! M];ukk; mikjpahf,Ue;jJ. fz;lJ fdth? vjw;F Gypg;ghzp Kdpth; rpiyiakl;Lk; me;j kQ;rs; xsp Fwpg;gpl;Lf; fhl;baJ xd;Wk; Ghpatpy;iygpwF vd;dplk; epj;jpuh Njtp neUq;fNt kWj;J tpl;lhs;.

fjputDf;F Kd;ndOe;J fhiyf; fld;fisf; Fiwtpy;yhky;>Kbj;jgpd; rkaj;Jf;F fhj;jpUe;j ehd; jf;f Neuk; fpilj;jNghJ rpj;jhplk; fz;l fdT gw;wpAk;> Gj;jfj;jpNy vd; ngahpy;iyvd;gijAk; Fiwahf $wpNdd;.

mjw;F Nyrhf rphpj;jthNw 'fhyk; tUk; fhj;jpU! GhpaNtz;baJ mg;NghJ jhdhf GhpAk;" vd;W $wptpl;L murkuj;jbNehf;fp elf;fyhdhh;.

vdf;Nfh fz;izf; fl;b fhl;by; tpl;lhw; Nghy; Mapw;W>rpe;jpj;Njd;. rpe;ij Fok;gpaJ. Fok;gpa Fl;ilapy; kPd; gpbf;f Kad;Nwd;kPDk; rpf;fpaJ. mJNth jq;f kPd; ,ij ntspapy; nrhy;y KbAkh?

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Qhdj;ij mila ehd; vDk; Mq;fhuj;ij mlf;f Ntz;Lk;.Xq;fhuj;ij vOg;g Ntz;Lk;. Qhdpfs; vf;fhuzj;ijf; nfhz;Lk;Ra tpsk;guk; nra;jy; $lhJ mJ mth;fis mjyghjhsj;jpy;Mo;j;jpLk;. rpy Qhdpfs; rpy re;jh;g;g #o;epiyfshy; jk;ikntspg;gLj;jpf; nfhs;s NehpLk; mg;gb #o;epiyf; ifjpfshdth;fs;jk; if tpyq;if xbj;njwpa xNu xU topjhd; cz;L. mJjhd; md;djhdk;. jk;ik Njb tUNthh; tapW Fspu md;djhdk;nra;jhy; mth;fs; jPtpid jPr;[{thiy FiwAk;. nrhj;Jf;fisthq;fpr; nry;tk; Nrh;j;J Rf tho;T thOk; vtUk; Jwtpahfkhl;lhh;fs;. Qhdpfs; tifapy; Nrukhl;lhh;fs; vd;W Mrhd;mth;fs; jpUk;g> jpUk;gr; nrhy;yf; Nfl;l Nghnjy;yhk; nghUs;Ghpahjtd;> rpj;jh; thf;fpid rpe;jpj;J ghh;j;j NghJ jhd;njspe;Njd;> kTdkhNdd;. mikjp vd;idj; Njb te;jJ. Mk;fz;lth; tpz;byh;! tpz;lth; fz;byh;! ,J vt;tsT nghpacz;ikf; $w;W.

Ia;ah Nghl;l murhq;f cj;juT!

rpj;jh; ngUkhid gw;wpf; Nfs;tpg;gl;Nlh> my;yJ mthpd;gf;jh;fs; %ykhfNth gy jug;gpdh; Rthkpfisj; Njb tUtJtof;fk;. tpsk;guk; tpUk;ghj xUtiu ,g;gb Vio Kjy;>nry;te;jh; tiu> gbf;fhjth;fspypUe;J nghpa gbg;ghspfs; tiuNjb tUfpwhh;fs;! vd;W mjprakhapUf;Fk;.

G+f;fis Njb tUk; tz;LfSf;F ahh; Ngha; nrhd;dhh;fs;kyiug; gw;wp> mJ ,Uf;Fkplj;ijg; gw;wp. ,J vg;gb ,aw;ifNah!mijg; Nghy ma;aidf; fhz tUtJk; ,aw;if jhNd! vd;Wvd; kdk; vdf;F ghlk; elj;jpaJ. mg;gb tUgth;fspy;jpU.tp.uhkjh]; I.A.S mth;fs; rhkpfsplk; mstpyh gf;jp nfhz;lth;mbf;fb Rthkpfis fhz tUthh;. ,jdhy; mth; vdf;Fgof;fkhdhh;. md;djhdj;jpw;F Ngh\fh; Njb miyAk; ehd; xUehs; mthplk; vd; flikia nra;Njd;. “jhq;fNsh I.A.S Mgp]h;.murhq;fj;jpy; ngUk; gjtp tfpg;gth;. jhq;fs; nrhd;dhy; gyh;,irthh;fNs! md;djhdj;jpw;;F mJ cjtpahf ,Uf;FNk”vd;Nwd;.

,ij Nfl ; l mth ; 'mjw ; nfd ;d nrQ ; r p lyhk ; .jh;kfhhpakhapw;Nw!” vd;wth; rw;W jaq;fp.',g;NghJ tfpf;Fk;gjtp vd; bg;ghh;l; nkz;l;> %ykhf cq;fSf;F ehd; ve;jtifapYk; cjtpl KbahJ. ,e;j md;djhdk; Nghd;w

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tp\aq;fSf;F gf;jpahd gzf;fhuh;fs; jhd; cgNahfg;gLthh;fs;! mjw;F ,e;J rka mw epiyj;Jiwapd; fkp\dh;gjtp vdf;;;F fpilj;jhy; ehL KOtJk; cs;s jh;kfh;j;jhf;fs;>gzf;fhuh;fs; vd; nrhy;Yf;F fl;Lg;gLthh;fs;. ,ij nrd;idapy;,Ue;J nfhz;L nrayhw;w rhj;jpa kpy;iy! ehd; me;j gjtpf;fhfKad;W nfhz;bUf;fpNwd;> Vd; vd;why; vdf;F nja;tPf gzpahw;wxU ey;y tha;g;ghapw;Nw”> vd;whh; mth;.

,J Nfl;L Nahrpj;Njd;. ,J vg;gb ,Ue;jnjd;why; fy;ahzk;gz;zp itj;jhy; jhd; igj;jpak; jPUk; vd;gJ Nghy; ,Ue;jJ.,J ele;j rpy thuq;fSf;F gpd; jh;kGhp> rpq;fhu Ngl;il mUNfxU md;ghpd; khe;Njhg;gpy; ehDk;> RthkpAk; jq;fpapUe;Njhk;.jdpikapy; xU re;jh;g;gk; fpilj;jJ. rhkpaplk; nrd;W vd;ghzpapy; Gyk;gj; Jtq;fpNdd;.

Rthkp jq;fs; fl;lisia rpuNkw;nfhz;L md;dj;jhdj;jpw;fhfmd;gh;fis Njb miye;J mYj;J tpl;Nld;. vdf;F njhpe;jth;fs;vd;W vLj;Jf; nfhz;lhy; nfhQ;rk; trjpNahL ,Ug;gth;fs;rpdpkhj;Jiw ez;gh;fs; jhd;. mth;fSk; jq;fshy; ,ad;wcjtpfis nra;fpwhh;fs; mbf;fb mZFtJ vdf;F jaf;fkhf,Uf;fpwJ. Mjyhy; ,jw;F xU GJ top fz;L gpbj;jpUf;fpNwd;!mjw;F jhq;fs; kdJ itj;jhy; jhd; mJ nray;gLk;” vd;Nwd;.

vd;d vd;gJ Nghy rhkp vd;id Nehf;fTk; jaq;fpathNwnrhy;yj; Jtq;fpNdd;! 'rhkp! V.uhk;jh];> mth;fs; xU I.A.S Mgp]h;!mth; ekf;fhf vijAk; nra;af;$bath;. ey;y kdpjh;. mth;,g;NghJ ,Uf;Fk; gjtp %yk; ekf;F vijAk; nra;a ,ayhjtuhf,Uf;fpd;whh;. mth; kl;Lk; ek;k murhq;f ,e;J rka mwepiyMl;rp Jiwapd; fkp\duhfp tpl;lhy; mtUf;F jkpofj;jpd; vy;yhNfhapy;fspd; mjpfhuq;fSk; trkhFk;! mg;NghJ mth; %yk;fpuhkg;Gu> rpW efuq;fspYs;s nry;te;jh;fs; mth; nrhy;Yf;Ffl;LgLthh;fs;.

ekf;F md;djhdj;jpw;F epiwa Ngh\fh;fs; fpilg;ghh;fs;>vd;Nwd;. mjd; %yk; jUk; rpe;jidia Cl;l kf;fSf;FJ}z;LNfhsha; mikAk;” vd;Nwd;>

“mjw;F ehd; vd;d nra;aZk;?" vd;W tpdtpdhh; rhkpfs;.

“jpU.uhkjh]; mth;fis ,e;J rka mwepiya Jiw

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fkp\duhf clNd Nghl Ntz;Lk;” vd;Nwd;. “mt;tsT jhNd.clNd Mh;lh; NghlNwd;. vd;whh;. “Mh;lh; ePq;fs; Nghl KbahJ.murhq;fk; Nghl Ntz;Lk;” vd;Nwd;.

'vd;id kPwp xU rpW JUk;G$l mirahJ uh[h. vd;dplk;uhkjh]; tul;Lk; kWehNs cj;juT tUk; xU nrhl;L ,q;FNkl;liu nuhk;k nghprh NgrhNj uh[h vd;whh;. “mjw;F cq;fs;Mrp Ntz;Lk; mt;tsT jhd;” vd;Nwd;.

,ijf;Nfl;L rphpj;j> ftiyglhNj! ,J xU nrhl;L iktptfhuk;. buhd;];gh;d;D if vOj;J jhNd Nghl;Llyhk;. mth;fkp\duhapLthh;." vd;W $wpa kfhd; nksdj;jpy;> Mo;e;jhh;.,e;j tptfhuj;jpd; gpd; uhkjh]; mth;fs; rhkpfis Njb te;jhh;.jdf;F fkp\dh; gjtp fpilj;jid $wp rhkpfsplk; Mrp ngw;whh;.,ijf;fz;l ehd; rpiy Nghy; epd;Nwd;. Mdhy; rpj;jh; Kfk;rydkw;W mikjpahf ,Ue;jJ.

,g;gbAk; rpy kdpjh;fs;tUlh> tUlk; Gul;lhjp khjk;> KOtJk; M];ukj;jpy; Nfh

G+i[ eilngWk;. G+i[ Kbe;jJk; md;djhdk; %d;W fhyKk;elf;Fk;> Fiwe;jJ Ie;E}W Ngh;fshtJ czT mUe;Jthh;fs;.kjpg;gpw;Fhpa> kPdhl;rp ehb N[hjplh; jpU. A.N.K rhkp mth;fs;,e;j G+i[f;F Njitahd cjtpfis ngUkstpy; nra;jjh;kthd;.

G+i[apy; fye;J nfhz;L md;djhdk; tpohit nfhz;lhljkpofj;jpd; gy gFjpfspypUe;Jk; md;gh;fs; tUthh;fs;.mwepiyaj;Jiw Mizah; I.A.S jpU.uhkjh]; mth;fSk; tof;fk;Nghy; te;J fye;J nfhz;lhh;. jk;Kld; kw;nwhU I.A.SmjpfhhpiaAk; ,k;Kiw mth; mioj;J te;jpUe;jhh;.

kjpa czTf;F gpd; vy;NyhUk; Xa;ntLj;jdh;. mg;NghJjpU. uhkjh]; mtu;fsplk; mtu; ez;guhd mjpfhup ~~vd; tp\akhrpj;ju; fpl;l vg;g nrhy;yg; NghwPq;f|| vd;W Nfl;lhu;. mjw;FjpU.uhkjh]; mth;fs; 'Njitapy;iy mtUf;Nf vy;yhk; GhpAk;>vy;yhk; jhdhfNt elf;Fk; vd;whh;.

,J Nfl ;L xd ;Wk ; Gh pahky ; mUfpy pUe ;j ehd ;jpU.,uhkjh]plk; tpguk; Nfl;f> 'ez;gh; vd;id Nghy I.A.Smjpfhhpjhd;. rhkpiag; gw;wp nrhd;Ndd;> ,th;; ,g;NghJ ,Uf;Fk;,yhfhtpy; gzpGhpa ,tUf;F gpbf;ftpy;iy. NtW ,yhfhtpw;FNghfDk; vd;W Mirg;gLfpwhh;" vd;whh;.

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'Iah~ ePq;f ,q;f te;Jl;Bq;f ,y;Ny. ftiyia tpLq;f”vd;Nwd;. “,t;tsT rpwpa Fbirapy; trpf;fpw ,th; vg;gb ,t;tsTNgUf;F tpUe;J rhg;ghL NghLfpwhh;> mjprakh ,Uf;F. ,q;NfxU jdp murhq;fNk elf;Fw khjphp ,Uf;F vd;whh;> me;j GJmjpfhhp. ,ij Nfl;L kfpo;e;j ehd;> 'Iah! ,t;tsT Ngh;rhg;gplwhq;f! Mdh Fb jz;zpUf;F jhd; f\;lkhapUf;F>" vd;Nwd;.

,ij Nfl;l me;j mjpfhhp rphpj;jthNw 'rpj;jh; fpl;l nrhy;ypFbePh; tbfhy; thhpaj;jpy; M.D Ngh];l;Lf;F Mh;lh; Nghlr;nrhy;Yq;f mg;Gwk; vd;d ,q;F FbePh; lhq;Nf fl;b jh;Nwd;"vd;whh;.

“Iah ftiyia tpLq;f! ePq;f epidr;rJ elf;Fk;. rw;WXa;ntLq;fs;" vd;W mq;fpUe;J mfd;Nwd;.

mg;NghJ n[h;kdp ehl;bypUe;J te;jpUe;j jpU.jhk]; vd;gth;rhkpaplk; tpilngw;W Gwg;gl;lhh;. mtiu jpUr;rp efUf;F nfhz;LtpLk; nghWg;G vdf;fpl;lg;gl;lJ. mtiu mioj;Jf;nfhz;L jpUr;rpGwg;gl;Nld;.

jpUr;rpapypUe;J Gwg;gl;L M];ukj;Jf;Fs; ehd; EioAk; NghJkhiy kzp MW Mfptpl;lJ. murhq;f mjpfhhpfs; te;j fhiuAk;fhztpy;iy. M];ukj;jpw;Fs; mth;fSk; ,y;iy.

,ijf; fz;l rpj;jh; ngUkhd; “vd;d uh[h! me;j mjpfhhpfisNjLwpah? mth;fs; Ngha; xU kzp NeukhapLr;R!" vd;whh;.

vd;d ,J nrhy;yhkNy Ngha; tpl;lhh;fNs. jpU.uhkjh]plk;rpy tp\ak; Ngr ,Ue;NjhNk vd;W kdk; rydg;gl;lJ.

mij Ghpe;J nfhz;lth; Nghy 'uh[h! mth;fSk; cd;idvjph;ghh;j;J mQ;R kzp tiuf;Fk; fhj;J ,Ue;jhq;f. ehd; jhd;ePq;f Gwg;gLq;f cq;fSf;F NeukhapLr;R vd;W mDg;gptr;Nrd;.CUf;F NghdJk; me;j GJ mjpfhhpf;F Mh;lh; fhj;jpUf;Fk;>"vd;W $wp rpW Foe;ij Nghy FYq;fp rphpj;j me;j nghpaFoe;ijia ,d;Dk; gpwf;fhj ,e;j Foe;ij ghh;j;J jpifj;jJ.

rpy khjq;fs; cUz;Nlhbd. nrd;idf;F nrd;wpUe;j ehd;jpU.uhkjhi] re;jpj;Njd;. mth; %yk; mth; ez;gUf;FFbePh;tbfhy; thhpa M.D. gjtp fpilj;jij mwpe;J kfpo;e;Njd;..,UtUk; rpj;jh; ngUkhdpd; mw;Gjq;fis gw;wp Ngrp kfpo;e;Njhk;.

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gpd;dh; GJ mjpfhhpia re;jpj;J tho;j;jyhk; vd;W mth;mYtyfk; nrd;Nwd;. re;jpj;J kfpo;r;rp njhptpj;Njd;.

fhhpaNk fz;zhf M];uk FbePh; gpur;rid gw;wp epidTWj;jp>vg;NghJ lhq; fl;LtPh;fs; vd;W cupikNahL Nfl;Nld;.

mjw;F mth; Kfj;jpy; mbj;jhw; Nghy;>'ehd; nrd;idf;Fkl;Lk; jhd; mjpfhhp jkpo; ehl;Lf;Nf my;y. mJ vd; mjpfhuj;jpy;,y;iy vd;whh;.

vd; Mh;tj;jpy; ,b tpOe;jJk; mij ntspfhl;b nfhs;shky;"Iah ePq;f M.D. ePq;f nrhd;dhy; jpUr;rp gFjp mjpfhhpq;f Nfl;ghq;f>'vd;Nwd;. jaf;fj;NjhL.

,ij Nfl;l me;j kdpjh;> ,Njh ghUq;f ehd; murpay;thjpapy;iy. muR mjpfhhp. ,J vd;dhy; Kbahj fhhpak; gpsP];!vd;W fOj;ij gpbj;J js;shj Fiwahf vd;id mDg;gpdhh;.

mg;NghJ jhd; ,g;gbAk; rpy kdpjh;fs;; vd;W kdk; Gyk;gpaJ!'vd;ed;wp nfhd;whh;f;Fk; ca;Tz;lhk;> ca;tpy;iy nra;ed;wpnfhd;w kfl;F|| vd;w ts;Sth; thf;F vd; Kd; te;J vd;idNjw;wpaJ!

xU ehs; jUk Ghpkhtl;lk;> Cj;jq;fiu jhYfhitNrh;e;j>'nts;sf;Fl;il" vDk; ChpypUe;J jpU.uhkd; vDk; fhq;fpu];jiyth; rpj;jh; ngUkhidf; fhz te;jpUe;jhh;. mth;; murpay;thjpfSf;Nf chpa gilg;gl;lhsq;fs; #o ge;jhTld; te;jhh;.mtiu ghh;j;jTld; mth; Rj;jgLj;j Ntz;ba kdpjh; vd;WNjhd;wpw;W.

xU kfhid fhz tUgth;fsplk; fhzg;gLk; gf;jp> gzpTvJTk; mthplkpy;iy. VNjh nghpa jiyth;-njhz;lh; tPl;LtpN\\j;jpw;F> flNd vd;W tUtJ Nghy; mth; fhl;rp mspj;jhh;.,g;gb gl;lth;fsplk; fyq;fpa ePiu Rj;;jg;gLj;Jk; ,ae;jpuk;Nghy; nray;gLtJ vd; tof;fk;. mg;gb Rj;jkhdth;fis jhd;rpj;jh; mth;fis fhz mDkjpg;Ngd;.

mNjhL trjpahd kdpjh;fis> ghh;j;jhy; mth;fspd; kdjpy;jh;k rpe;jidfis J}z;b. md;djhdj;jpw;F mtiu jahh; nra;JtpLNtd;. Vd; vd;why; mJ vd; flik. rpj;jh; mth;fs; vd;dplk;mspj;j nghWg;Gk; md;G fl;lisAk; $l. mij epiw Ntw;WtJjhd; vd; jiyahaf; flikahFk;.

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me;j kdpjhplk; mtiug;gw;wp tprhhpj;Njd.; Ch; ngUik mth;nry;thf;F nry;tr;nropg;G> murpay; jiyth; vd;w Gfo;>Mfpaitfis mth; ntspg;gLj;jpdhh;. ,ijf; Nfl;l ehd;> mtiugy`Pdg;gLj;jp-mth; murpay; jd;ik gw;wp nrhd;dJk;myl;rpakhf 'mg;gbah"? ehd; Nfs;tp gl;ljpy;iy.

ehd; nghpa> nghpa jiyth;fsplk; neUq;fp gofpatd;. vd;je;ij nghpa NghyP]; Mgp]h;> vd;nwy;yhk; vLj;J tpl;Nld;.mNjhL cq;fis gw;wp ehd; Nfs;tpg;gl;ljpy;iy. xU Ntiscq;fs; fpuhkj;ij xl;ba Ch;fspy; cq;fs; ngah; njhpe;jpUf;Fkh?

“fhq;fpuN] jkpo; ehl;by; nry;thf;F ,oe;j fl;rp. mjd;nghpa jiyth;fs; gw;wpa nra;jpNa Njh;jy; Neuj;jpy; kl;LNkntsptUk;. mNjhL jiyik mbf;fb khwp nfhz;Nl ,Uf;Fk;.Nfh\;bfs; Nkhjiy jtpu fhq;fpu]; nra;jpfNs gj;jphpiffspy;tUtjpy;iy" vd;W klf;fpNdd;.

te;jth; Kfk; fWj;J tpl;lJ. mtuhy; xd;Wk; NgrKbatpy;iy. nksdkha; ,Ue;jhh;. mtiu #o;e;jpUe;j Kfq;fSk;mjph;r;rpaha; ,Wfpf;fhzg;gl;ld.

,ijf; fz;lJk; NkYk; cw;rhfKld; epkph;e;J cl;fhh;e;Njd;.

'Mkhk;> cq;fSf;F kfhj;kh fhe;jpia gw;wp vd;d njhpAk;?"

vd;WNwd; 'ehd; fhq;fpu]; fhud; vd;idNgha; kfhj;khitnjhpAkh vd;W Nfl;fpwPh;fNs tpisahLfpwPh;fsh?" vd;whh;.

cq;fSf;nfy;yhk; ,e;j ehl;Lf;F Rje;jpuk; thq;fpj;je;j Njrgpjhthfj;jhd; njhpAk;. murpay; thjpahfj; jhd; GhpAk;. Mdhy;mth; rhjhuz kdpj gpwtp my;y vd;gJ cq;fSf;Fk; njhpahJ.fhq;fpu]; fl;rpf;Nf njhpahJ!" vd;Nwd;.

,J Nfl;L jpifj;j me;j kdpjh; 'ePq;fs; vd;d nrhy;fpwPh;fs;>"vd;whh; Fog;gkhf "Iah! mth; kfhrpj;j GU\h;;! mth; jhd;ifyha rl;l Kdp ehjh; mtNu-,uhkypq;f ts;syhuhf gpwtpvLj;jth;. mtNu-kfhj;khfhe;jpahf mtjupj;jth;. te;j NtiyKbe;jJk; Ngha; tpl;lhh;.

mtUf;F gjpy; NtW kdpjh; ,Ue;jpUg;ghuhapd; ,e;jpahtpd;ngUk; gjtpf;fy;yth te;jpUg;ghh;. mth; Mir gl;lhuh! gzpKbe;jJk; gzpapd; epkpj;jkhf mzpAk; Milia fise;J vwptJNghy> murpaiy tpl;Nl tpyfpdhNu. Vioapd; cilapy; Jwtpahf

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tho;e;J kiwe;jhNu. ,J rhjhuz kdpjDf;F ,aYkh! kdpjd;'Iah! mk;kh!" vd;W jhNd fj;Jthh;. Mdhy; kfhj;kh khh;gpy;kuz Njtij Jg;ghf;fp Njhl;lhthf Eioe;j NghJ mikjpahfmij 'N`uhk;" vd;W jhNd Vw;Wf; nfhz;lhh;! mg;NghNjGhpatpy;iyah! mth; mtjhu GU\d; vd;W.

Iah! Njh;jy; kl;Lk; mtiu epidj;Jk; ghh;f;Fk; RaeyFk;gy;-md;;W Rje;jpuk; fpilj;j clNd fhq;fpui] fiyj;JtpLq;fs;. mjd; gzp Kbe;J tpl;lJ. ,ij murpay; fl;rp Mf;fpmtkhdg;gLj;jhjPh;fs;- vd;whNu Nfl;Bh;fsh? ,d;W vjph; fl;rpfhuh;fsplk; fl;rpf;F Vr;Rk; Ngr;Rk; thq;fp jUfpwPh;fs;.

uh[h[p> fhkuh[h; Nghd;Nwhh; Mz;l jkpo; ehl;by; Ml;rp,oe;J mWgj;NjO Kjy; Nja;e;J nfhz;Nl tUfpwPh;fs;. jiyth;vd;whNy mJ kfhj;khitj;jhd; Fwpf;Fk;. mjdhy; jhd; ,d;WePjpkd;wq;fspYk;> &gha;Nehl;LfspYk; mth; cUtk; ,Uf;fpwJ.Mdhy; mth; topgw;wp ele;j xU fhq;fpu]; fhuiu fhl;Lq;fs;ghh;g;Nghk;. mth; ,e;J K];yPk; xw;Wikf;fhf ghLgl;lhh;.mjw;fhfNt ghfp];jhd; gphptjw;Fk; rk;kjpj;jhh;.

Mdhy; gpd;dhy; te;jth;fs; ghfp];jhdpYk; rhp> ,e;jpahtpYk;rhp> fhe;jp topia Fop Njhz;b Gijj;jhh;fs;. murpay;yhgq;fSf;fhf ,U ehLfSk; Nghh;fis re;jpj;jd. ,jdhy;kjntwpah;fs; Njhd;wpdhh;fs;. ,J ,d;W xUtiu xUth; mopf;Fk;epiyapy; tsh;e;J tUfpwJ.

me;j fhyj;jpy; kPuh> fpU\;zid fhjypj;jJ Nghy; Mz;lhs;>MuhtKjid midf;fJbj;jJ Nghy;> = uq;fehjd; kPJ gf;jpnfhz;L mtid jd; fztdhfNt Nghw;wp tzq;fpa by;yp,];yhkpa khkd;ddpd; Gjy;tp xUj;jpia me;juq;fehjNd Ngha;>cskhw Vw;Wf; nfhz;L-mtiu gw;wp nfhz;lth;> Kw;Wk;kidtpahf JYf;f ehr;rpahh; vd;W ehkNjakpl;L-Nfhapypy;mtUf;F xU rd;djp je;J ,d;wsTk; tzq;fp tUgth;fs;,e;Jf;fs; kl;LNk. mNj khjphp fz;zid ghba fgPh;jh];>rpj;j GU\dhf tho;e;J kiwe;j-rPub rhapghgh Nghd;Nwhh;fSk;>KUfid rpe ;J ghba Fzq;Fbk];jhd; Nghd;wth ;fs;,];yhkpah;fshf gpwe;J ,e;J kjj;ij Nghw;wpdhh;fs;.

,e;J kjj;ij Nrh;e;j kfhd;fspd; rkhjpfSk;> ,];yhkpakfhd;fspd; rkhjpfSk;> kiyfspd; mUNf ,Uf;fpd;wd.,Ukjj;jpdUk; Ngjkpy;yhky; me;j rkhjpfis topgLfpd;wdh;.

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rghp kiyapy;; Iag;gd; rd;djpf;F mUfpy; mtUld; tho;e;jthgh; rd;djpAk; cs;sJ! ,d;Wk; gf;jh;fs; me;j rd;djpf;Fnrd;W Muhjpf;fpd;wdh;. fhyk; fhykhf Ngjkpy;yhky; ghrj;NjhLNerkhf ,Ue;j ,U kjj;jpdUk;-,d;W JNtrk; xd;iwNaiff;nfhz;L-vjph; vjpNu epw;fpd;wdh;.

,dp ,th;fis nja;tk; jhd; ey;top gLj;j KbAk;. ,njy;yhk;Vd;? fhe;jpia ehk; kwe;jJ jhd; fhuzk;.

,e;j M];ukj;jpw;F 1981Mk; Mz;L vd;id nrd;idapypUe;Jmioj;J te;J rpj;jhplk; xg;gilj;J 'eP ,q;NfNa ,U" vd;W$wpath; ek; Njrg;gpjh kfhj;kh fhe;jp! mjdhy; jhd; vd;cwT>el;G>ghrk; vy;yhk; Jwe;J rpj;jh; fhybfspy; vd;idrkh;gpj;Jf; nfhz;bUf;fpNwd; vd;W xU ePz;l nrhw;nghopitKbj;Njd;! ,ijf;Nfl;L mirahky; ,Ue;j me;j kdpjh; jaq;fpathNw 'vd;d kfhj;kh fhe;jp cq;fis ,q;Nf xg;gilj;jhuh?cq;fisg; ghh;j;jhy; mth; ,we;jjw;F gpd;dhy; jhd; gpwe;jpUf;fNtz;Lk; Mdhy; ,g;gb nrhy;;YfphPfNs? vd;W vd;id klf;fg;ghh;j;jhh;. 'Iah!" fhe;jp vd;w nrhy;Yf;F N[hjp vd;W nghUs;>N[hjp vd;why; xsp vd;W nghUs;. xspia mizf;fj;jhd;KbAk;. mJTk; jw;fhypfkhfj; jhd;. #hpad; m];jkpj;jhy;-#hpad; fij Kbe;J tpl;ljh? mJ G+kpapd; NtW gFjpapy;gpufhrpj;Jf; nfhz;bUf;Fk;.

#hpad; epiyahd N[hjp! G+kp jd;id jhNd Rw;wpf;nfhs;tjhYk; G+kp cUz;ilahf ,Ug;gjhYk; #hpaid Nehf;fp,Uf;Fk; gFjpfs; kl;Lk; #hpa xspia ngWfpd;wJ. mg;gb#hpa xspia ngw;w gFjp #hpaid tpl;L tpyf> tpyf mJtiu ,Ushd gFjpf;F #hpa xsp fpilf;f Jtq;FfpwJ! mjdhy;jhd; #hpaDf;F epue;jukhd m];jkdk; fpilahJ.

,ijNghy; jhd; N[hjpAk;! mij mizg;gjhf epidg;gJ#hpad; m];jkpj;jjhf epidg;gjw;F rkkhFk; N[hjp vq;fpUe;JtUfpwJ. gpwF midj;jhy; vq;Nf NghfpwJ? ,ijj; njupe;Jnfhz;lhy; gpwg;gpd; ,ufrpaj;ij njupe;J nfhs;syhk;. cly;mopfpwJ. Mdhy; Mj;kh moptjpy;iy! ,Uis Nghf;f tpsf;ifVw;WfpNwhk;> mJ jw;NghJ Njitapy;iy vd;Dk; NghJ mizj;JtpLfpNwhk;.

Mdhy; mij khiyapy; kPz;Lk; Vw;wp jhNd jPu Ntz;Lk;.tpsf;fpypUe;J N[hjpia midg;gJ Nghy;-fhe;jp vd;w ngaUf;F

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,g;gb jhd; KbT tUk;. Vndd;why; ,J mRu fhyk;!" vd;Nwd;.fhe;jp topapy; ele;jpUe;jhy;-ehL ,g;gb ehrf;fhuh;fs; ifapy;rpf;fp mopit Nehf;fp Ngha; nfhz;bUf;fhJ. Ra eyj;Jf;fhfnghJ eyj;ij gypapLk; vtUk; fhyj;jhy; jz;bf;fg;gl;NlMthh;fs;. ,J cz;ik. ePq;fs; njhpe;Njh> njhpahkNyh rpj;jh;ngUkhid fhz te;Js;sPh;fs; ,J cq;fSf;F ey;y fhyk;.mjdhy; jhd; kfhid Njb te;Js;sPh;fs;.

ey;yhiu fhz;gJk; ed;W-ey;yhh; nrhy; Nfl;gJk; ed;W> ey;yhh;xUth; csNuy; -vy;yhUf;Fk; nga;Akhk; kio-vd;W xst;itg;;ghl;bnrhd;d thf;F vd;d ngha; thf;fh!

mjdhy; rpj;jiu ruz; milAq;fs;. cq;fs; ghtk; tpyFk;"vd;Nwd;. ,ijf;Nfl;L mth; gpukpj;J rpiy Nghy; mkh;e;jpUe;jhh;.mg;NghJ rpj;jh; mth;fs; mq;F te;jhh;fs;. te;jth;fs; mtiuga gf;jpAld; gzpe;jhh;fs;. “cly; eykpy;iy kdjpy; mikjp,y;iy" vd;whh; jpU.uhkd;.

rpj;jh; ngUkhDk; 'vy;yhk; ,dpJ elf;Fk;" vd;W Mrptoq;fpaJld;> mth; cliy ghpNrhjpj;J mth; Neha;f;fhdkUe;ijAk; nfhLj;J mij rhg;gpLk; KiwfisAk; $wpdhh;fs;.kUe;ij thq;fpf; nfhz;l jpU.,uhkd; mth;fs; gutrj;Jld;jk;igapypUe;J rpy Nehl;Lfis kbj;J rpj;jh; ngUkhdplk; ePl;l-rpj;jh; ngUkhd; rphpj;jhh;fs;. te;jtUf;F mthpd; rphpg;gpd; nghUs;Ghpatpy;iy. ,jpy; ,t;tsT njhif ,Uf;fpwJ. Fiwthdhy;NkYK; jUfpNwd; vd;whh;.

mijf; Nfl;l rpj;jh; ngUkhd; rphpj;jthNw! ,jpy; vdf;Fve;j FiwAk; ,y;iy. Mdhy; cq;fYf;Fj;jhd; jpUk;gp NghfFiwAk;> vd;whh;fs;. ,ij Nfl;L ,uhkd; mth;fspd; if jk;rl;il igia Nehf;fp mtiu mwpahkNy nrd;wJ.

~~Mk; Iah-ePq;fs; jpUk;gp Nghf itj;jpUe;j fhrpypUe;J E}W&gha; jtWjyhf Nrh;j;J nfhLj;J tpl;Bh;fs; NtZkhdhy; cq;fs;,Ug;ig vz;zpg; ghUq;fs;" vd;whh;!

mJ Nfl;L me;j kdpjUk; gugug;ghf vz;zpg;ghh;j;J mrLtopa> 'Mkhk;! jtWjyhf xU Nehl;L xl;bf; nfhz;L te;J tpl;lJ"vd;whh;.

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,J Nfl;L Gd;difAld; “vdf;F nfhLf;f te;j fhrpypUe;JE}W &gha; jpUg;gp vLj;Jf; nfhs;Sq;fs; ,y;yhtpby; NghFk;NghJ> rpukg;gLtPh;fs;>" vd;whh;.

mtUk; mg;gbNa vLj;Jf; nfhz;L rpj;jh; ngUkhd; fhybapy;jute;j gzj;ij itj;J 'Vw;W nfhs;Sq;fs;" vd;W $wptpl;Lrpj;jh; fhyb njhl;L fz;fspy; xw;wp tzq;fp tpil ngw;whh;.

mtiu topaDg;g mtUld; ntspNa te;j NghJ-mthpd;fz;fs; fyq;fp ,Ue;jd. ,ijf; fz;L ehd; mjw;F fhuzk;Nfl;f. mth; fz;fis Jilj;Jf; nfhz;Nl> 'rhkp ePq;f xUcjtp nra;aDk;" vd;whh;!

vd;d ntd;W tpdtpNdd;. “rpj;jiu vg;gbahtJ xU Kiwvq;fs; tPl;bw;F mioj;J tuNtz;Lk;. mJ cq;fshy; jhd;KbAk;" vd;whh;! rhkpfs; mbf;fb ngq;fSh; nry;thh;. mg;gbnry;Yk; NghJ mtrpak; mioj;J tUfpNwd;. vjw;Fk; ePq;fs;cs;Ns nrd;W rhkpaplNk Nfl;L tpLq;fs;. kw;wij ehd; ghh;j;Jf;nfhs;fpNwd;." vd;Nwd;. mJ Nfl;L czh;r;rptrg;gl;l mth;. 'vd;tho;ehspy; vj;jidNah rhkpahh;fisg; ghh;j;J ,Uf;fpNwd;. gzk;NghjhJ NkYk; Ntz;Lk; vd;ghh;fs;. Mdhy; ehd; nfhLj;jgzj;ij thq;fp vz;zhkNyNa mjpy; ehd; nfhLf;f epidj;jijtpl E}W &gha; if jtWjyhf nfhLj;J tpl;lij czh;e;JE}W &ghia jpUg;gp nfhLj;j me;j kfh Qhdpia ,d;W jhd;tho; ehspy; Kjd; Kjyhf jhprpf;fpNwd;. ,tiuf; fz;l mLj;jtpehbNa vd; fh;tk;> Mztk; vy;yhk; vd;id tpl;L mfd;Wtpl;ld. ehd; NghFk; NghJ nryTf;F f\;lg;glf; $lhJ vd;WfUiz fhl;ba ngUkhdpd; ghrk; vd; jhaplk; $l fz;ljpy;iy>"vd;whh;> kPz;Lk; fyq;fpa fz;fis Jilj;Jf; nfhz;Nl. ,JNfl;L mre;J Nghd ehd;> 'mJ jhd; jiyahl;b rpj;jh; ngUkhd;"vd;Nwd;.

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nghjpif vd;wTld; epidTf;F tUtJ njd;wyhFk;. njd;wy;gpwf;Fk; kiy my;yth! mfj;jpa khKdpthpd; ehkKk; mth;tsh;e;j Kj;jkpOk; ms;sp tUk; njd;wy; Rfj;jpd; Rfky;yth.rhuy; kioAk;> nghpa mUtp> Ie;jUtp> NjdUtp vd jd;dfj;Njnfhz;L-kf;fis jd;id ehb tUkhW <h;f;Fk; ,ah;ifapd;moF Nfhyky;yth.

jkpo; nkhopf;F Kjy; rq;fk; fz;l tUk;> ,il rq;fj;jpYk;jiytuha; tho;e;jtUk;-kdpj Fyk; tho gpzpfspf;F kUe;J fz;lNkij mfj;jpa ngUkfdhh;. tho;e;j kiyay;yth. thdkshtpNjhw;wkspf;Fk; ,k;kiyapy; kpf cauj;jpypUe;J Gwg;gLk; mUtpf;F'thdj;jPh;j;jk;|| vd;w ngaUk;> mUtpfspy; Fspj;jhy; ghgk; ehrkhFk;vd;gjhy; ,jid ~~ghgehrk;|| vd;Wk; miog;ghh;fs;> ,jdhy; mUtpghAk;mbthuj;ij xl;ba Ciu ghgehrk; vd;Wk; miog;ghh;fs;.

njd; jkpofj;jpYs;s jpUney;Ntyp khtl;lj;jpy; njd;fhrpf;FmUfpy; cs;s ghgehrk; Fw;whyk; vd;Wk; miof;fg;gLk;. ,e;jChpy; jhd; Gfo;ngw;w Fw;why mUtp nghjpif kiyapypUe;Jrk jiuia milfpwJ.

,q;F ,iwtd; Fw;why ehjh; vd;w ngahpy; Nfhapy;nfhz;bUf;fpwhh;. ,q;F rhuy; kio rPrd;te;jhy; kf;fs; nts;snkd gha;e;J tUfpd;whh;fs;.

,q;F mfj;jpa ngUkhDf;F xU Nfhapy; ,Uf;fpwJ. ,jd;mUNf mfj;jpah; mUtp gha;e;J nry;fpwJ. ,e;j mUtp ,Uf;Fk;,lj;jpy; ePh; tPo;r;rpf;F gpd;dhy; xU Fif ,Uf;fpwJ. me;jFiff;Fs; 'Rthkp ghjk;" vd;w ,lk; ,Uf;fpwJ.

,e;j ,lk; kpfTk; nja;tPfkhd jpUtplkhFk;. Kw;fhyj;jpy;rptngUkhDf;Fk; md;idf;Fk; ifapyhaj;jpy; jpUkzk; eilngw,Ue;j Neuj;jpy; Njth;fSk;> fe;jth;fSk;> Kdpth;fSk;>rpj;jh;fSk; xd;whf mq;F $bdh;.

,jdhy; ghuj ehl;bd; tlgFjp-fPo; Nehf;fp jho;e;jJ.njd; ehL NknyOe;jJ>

,J fz;l rptngUkhd; mfj;jpaiu mioj;jhh;. 'clNdnjd;dfk; nry;" vd;W fl;lisapl;lhh;.

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,ijf; Nfl;L Jbj;Jg; Nghd mfj;jpa ngUkhd;; 'IaNd!ehd; vd;d jtW nra;Njd;. jq;fs; jpUkzj;ij fhz MtYld;te;jpUf;Fk; vd;id ,g;gb njd;dfk; Ngh vd;fpwPh;fNs vdf;Fjq;fs; jpUkzj;ij fhZk; ghf;fpak; fpilahjh? mg;gbg;gl;lkfh ghtpah ehd;>" vd;W fyq;fp epd;whh;.

,iwtd; Gd;dif jto mfj;jpaiu Nehf;fpdhh;. mtiumd;Gld; mutizj;J 'mfj;jpaNu! jhq;fsh ,g;gb NgRtJ>vd; kzf;fhl;rp fhZk; mthtpdhy; jq;fisNa kwe;jPh; NghYk;>,Njh ghuj fz;lj;jpd; tlNfhL jho;e;J njd; NfhL cah;e;Js;sij ePh; czu tpy;iyah? ,e;j Vw;w ,wf;fj;ij rkd;gLj;Jk;Nehf;fj;jhy; ck;ik njd;dfj;Jf;F nry;YkhW Gfd;Nwd;!" vd;whh;.

"IaNd ,J vd;d Nrhjid <rNd! jhq;fNs tl gFjpapy;cs;s ,e;j fapyhaj;jpy; cs;sPh;fs;-cld; Kg;gj;J Kf;NfhbNjth;fSk;> jpUkhYk;> gpuk;k ehjUk;> ee;jpNf];tuUk;> jq;fiskzf;f fhj;J ,Uf;Fk; md;idAk;> hp~pfSk;> rpj;jh;fSk;>fe;jh;fSk;> mRuh;fSk; ,q;fpUf;f rpW cUtk; nfhz;l vd;idnjd;dfk; mDg;gpdhy; ,kaj;ij xU juhR jl;bYk; xU rpWGy;iy kW jl;bYk; itj;jhy; vg;gb rkkhFk;.

IaNd! ,e;j Nrhjid vd;id Ntjidg;gLj;JfpwJ! vd;WGyk;gpdhh;.

,J Nfl;L ,iwtd; gykhf eifj;jhh;. 'mfj;jpaNu ,Njh-jkpo; nkhop ,ij ck;kplk; xg;gilf;fpNwd;! ,e;j nkhopAk;>ePUk; xd;W Nrh;e;jhy; vq;fs; vy;NyhUila vilia ePq;fs;ngWtPh;fs;. cyf ed;ikf;fhfTk; vd;Wk; fd;dp gUtk; khwhjnkhopf;fhfTk; jhd; ePh; njd;dfk; nrd;why; njd;dfk; rkkhfTk;nghd;dfkhfTk; khWk;. ePq;fs; ,q;F fhz Kbahj vd; jpUkzf;Nfhyj;NjhL mq;F ckf;F fhl;rp mspg;Nghk;>" vd;W ,iwtd;$wpaij Nfl;l gpwF jhd; kdk; njspe;J jkpOld; njd;dfk;te;J jkpofkhf;fpdhh;.

,jdhy; ghuj G+kpAk ; rkd; mile;jJ! ,iwtd;mfj;jpah;f;fspj;j thf;fpid epiwNtw;wpa ,lk; ,J vd;gjhy;,q;Fs;s jPh;j;jj;jpw;F =fy;ahz jPh;j;jk; vd;W ngah;.

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ngw;w kfh Nahfp cyf ed;ikf;fhf jtkpUf;Fk; jtrp. ,tiurhJ fpU\;zNtzp mk;kh vd;W miof;fpwhh;fs;.

,q;Nf Nyhf ehafp rNkj Nfhbypq;Nf];tuh; NfhtpYk;> rptghh;tjp NfhapYk;> rpt Jh;f;if> td Re;jhp> iguth; MfpNahUf;FNfhapy;fSk; mike;Js;sd. kfh rptuhj;jphp tpohTk;> xt;nthUmk;khthir ngsh;zkp ehl;fspy; ehw;gJ tUlq;fshf md;djhdKk;>midah N[hjp xd;Wk; xsp tPrpf; nfhz;bUf;fpwJ. ,e;j tpsf;fpy;Ie;J tif vz;nza;fs; tplg;gLfpd;wd. ~N[hjpjhprdk; ght tpNkhrdk;|vd;ghh;fs;! ,q;F midah N[hjp Vw;wjw;F cjtp nra;Ak; md;gh;fs;midj;J gpwtpfspYk; mfkfpo;NthL tho;thh;fs; vd;gJ cz;ik.ehd; NkNy nrhd;d Nfhapy;fs;> tpohf;fs; jPgnky;yhk; md;id jtrpfpU\;zNtzp mth;fspd; ,iwj; njhz;L jhd; vd;gijcq;fsplk; nrhy;tjpy; vd; kdk; epiwtilfpwJ.

mNj Neuk; vdf;Nfw;gl;l khngUk;> NtjidiaAk; ,e;E}iygbf;Fk; thrfh;fsplk; $wpdhy; jhd; kd ghuk; FiwAk; vd;wek;gpf;ifAld; $WfpNwd;.

,iwtid kyh;fshy; mh;r;rpj;J ghy; Kjyhdtw;why;mgpN\fk; nra;J Muhjpf;Fk; kdpjh;fs;. me;j G+i[apd; cz;ikia>ngUikia mwpe;jth;fshf ,Ug;gpd; jhd; mq;F md;G> gagf;jp>ghrk; vy;yhk; Njhd;Wk;.

Mdhy; ,e;j nja;tPfkhd ,lj;jpy; jhd; gf;jp rpe;jidapy;yhjkdpjh;fs; vz;zpf;ifapy; mjpfhpj;jjdhy;> thj;jpahh; gps;is>kf;F> itj;jpad; gps;is Nehahsp vd;w tpjp ,jdhy; jhNdh!

,q;fpUe;J kiyNky; ,UgJ fpNyhkPl;lh; J}uk; Vwpr;nrd;why;>mq;F Gfo; tha;e;j nrhhpKj;J Iadhh; Nfhapy; ,Uf;fpwJ>,q;F NkYk; Vfg;gl;l fhty; nja;tq;fs; cs;sd> vd;Dk;NghJ mq;F vt;tsT mhpa> nghpa nghf;fp\q;fs; ,Uf;Fk;vd;gij rw;W fw;gidapy; ghUq;fs;.

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nrhhpKj;J Iadhh; Nfhapiy tpl;L NkYk; Ie;J fpNyh kPl;lh;nrd;why; 'thd jPh;j;jk;" vDk; ,lj;ij milahyhk;. ,e;j jPh;j;jk;kiy cr;rpapypUe;J tUtjhy; thdj;jpypUe;J nfhl;LtJ Nghy; Njhd;Wk;.

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,e;j fhuzj;jhy; jhd; ,jq;F thdjPh;j;jk; vd;W ngah;te;jJ. ,e;j jPh;j;jj;jpy; rpj;jh;fs; jtrpfs;> Njth;fs;> jPh;j;jkhLthh;fs; vd;gjhFk;. ,q;F jPh;j;jk; Mbdhy; rfy ghtq;fSk;jPUtJ cz;ik. ,q;fpUe;J NkYk; MW kzp Neu eil gazj;jpd;Kbtpy; ',Q;rp Fop" vd;w ,lj;ij milahyhk;. ,e;j ,lk;,aw;ifapy; vopy; nfhQ;Rk; ,lk;. nja;tPfkhd #o; epiyapy;mikjpahd ,lk;;> jtrpfs; ,q;F te;jhy; ,q;fpUe;J Gwg;glNtkdkw;Wjhd; Gwg;gLthh;fs;. ,e;j gFjp kpUfq;fs; thOk;gFjpahFk;.

,q;F trpf;Fk; kiythrpfs;> ,f;fhl;by; fpilf;Fk; Njd;>goq;fs;> fpoq;Ffs; jpid Nghd;w jhdpaq;fis cz;LMNuhf;fpakhf gyrhypfshf hp\pfisg; Nghy; thOfpwhh;fs;.

,q;fpUe;J NkYk; Ie;J kzpNeu eilapy; G+q;Fsk; vDk;,lj;ij mile;J tplyhk;. ,J jkpo; Kdpahk; mfj;jpa khKdptho;e;j gFjpahFk;. ,q;F jhd; ,yf;fpa Gfo; ngw;w 'jhkpuguzp"ejp gpwf;fpwJ. ,e;j gFjpfs; rpj;jh;fs; cyhtUk; gFjp. ,q;Fvz;zpylq;fh rpj;jh; ngUkf;fs;! #l;rk; rhhpuj;jpy;- kw;wth;fs;fz;fSf;F Njhd;whky; jtNkw;nfhz;L ,Uf;fpwhh;fs;. nkhj;jj;jpy;,e;j ,lNk nja;tj;jpUj;jykhFk;.

,t;tplk; tpl;L NkYk; ,uz;L eilapy; 'rq;F Kj;;jpiu"vd;w ,lj;ij milahyhk;. nghjpifapd; rptypq;fk; Nghd;wrpfuj;jpd; mbthuk; jhd; ,e;j rq;F Kj;jpiu. ,q;fpUe;J NkYk;,uz;L> kzp Neuk; nrd;W mile;jhy; nghjpifapd; cr;rpf;Nfnrd;W tplyhk;.

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mJ gd;dPh; njspg;gij Nghd;W ,aw;if md;id kdpjFyj;Jf;Fj; J}Tk; gdp ePuhFk;!

rpj;jh; [Ptrkhjp mile;jJk;> ,e;j rq;F Kj;jpiuf;F vdJ,dpa mfj;jpahpd; nry;y gps;is GUN\hj;jKld; nja;tPfgazkhf tUlh tUlk; nry;tJz;L. mr;rkak; NkNy cs;s= mfj;jpahpd; ghjj;jpw;;F md;gh;fs; mgpN\f Muhjid nra;J

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nfhz;L gagf;jpAld; ,Ue;jhh;fs;. mbNad; rw;Wfhy; typahy;nghjpif cr;rpapy; njd;wy; jhyhl;l jd;id kwe;j epiyapy;cwq;fpg; NghNdd;. mg;NghJ = mfj;jpa ngUkhd; gr;ir epwJzpAld; (vg;NghJk; vd; FUehjh; gr;iria tpUk;gp cLj;Jth;)

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,ij mwpahky; me;ePiu mUe;jpa kdpjd; fy;yhfp cjfj;jpd;mUfpy; fplg;gjhf-Nfhuf;fhpd; kiythflk; nrhy;fpwJ.kiyfspy; jdpahf Njq;fp fplf;Fk; rpW Ridfspy; ePh; mUe;JtJMgj;J vd;gij $wp vr;rhpf;fNt ,ij vOjpNdhk;!

nghjpif kiyapd; Nkw;Fg; gFjpapd; mbthuj;jpy; nrq;Nfhl;ilefh; ,Uf;fpwJ. nrq;Nfhl;il kiyapy; ,uh[ hp\p> tre;jkhKdpth;> Nghj Kdpth; Mfpa rpj;jh;fs; M];ukk; mikj;J tho;e;jhh;fs;.N[hjp tpUl;rk;> fUthio kuk;> fUT+kj;ijr; nrb Mfpa fhafy;g;g%ypiffs; Vuhskhf ,k;kiiyapy; fhzg;gLfpd;wd. ,e;j vy;iyAld;nghjpif kiyg;gFjp KbtilfpwJ. nghJthf ,k;kiyapd;kPJ Vwj; jFe;j fhyk;> gq;Fdp> rpj;jpiu khjq;fshFk;.

,e;j nja;tPfkiyiaf; fhl;b> mjd; ngUikfis $wp>mt;tg;NghJ Njitahd %ypiffis Nrfhpj;J nfhz;LrPlh;fSf;F FUtpd; flikfis rpj;jh; ngUkhd; ,q;F rpwg;ghfr;nra;jhh;fs;. xU Kiw kiy gazj;jpy; rpj;jh; ngUkhDf;FMrdk; NghLNthk;. mth; VjhtJ xd;iw ,bj;J rhW vLg;ghh;.mbNad; mLg;G gw;witg;Ngd;. rpyh; fha;fwp mwpthh;fs;. kw;Wk;rpyh; %ypif NjlTk;> fl;il vLf;fTk; nry;thh;fs;. mg;NghJxU fij nrhd;dhh;. xU fhyj;jpy; Nghfh;> fhyhq;fp ehjh;>gpuk;khp\p> Gypghzp> Nfhuf;fh;> ts;Sth;> rl;lKdp> MfpNahiu-mfj;jpa ngUkhd; ,g;gbj; jhd; kiyfSf;F mioj;J nrwhuhk;.%ypif Ma;Tfs; eilngWkhk;.

mijg; NghyNt vk; FUehjh; jiyahl;b rpj;jh; mth;fs;vd;Dld; gjp%d;W egh;fis cld; mioj;Jr; nrd;W kiytsk;fhz itj;j NghJ mtiu mfj;jpauhfTk; vq;fis rPlh;fshfTk;ghh;j;Njd;. ehd; ve;j n[d;kj;jpy; nra;j Gz;zpaNkh- ,g;ngUk;NgW vdf;F ,g;gpwtpapy; fpl;baJ. ,e;j nja;tPfg; ngUtho;T,iwtd; vdf;F nfhLj;j ngUtukhf epidf;fpNwd;. ,k;kiyapy;ehq;fs; %d;W ehl;fs; jq;fpapUe;J GJg;> GJ tp\aq;fs; mwpe;JMde;j kakhNdhk;!

,k;kiyapy; ,Ue;j Neuj;jpy; vd;; rpe;jidapy; rpy tpdhf;fs;kiyaha; vOe;jd. jpUk;gj; jpUk;g vd; kdjpy; me;j miyfs;gha;e;J nfhz;bUe;jd. ,e;j tpdhf;fs; vd;Ds; Njhd;wpajw;FfhuzNk mfj;jpah; tho;e;j ,lk; vd;gjhy; jhd;. vd;dNthvd;Ds; nghjpifaha; thdsht cah;e;J epd;wJ. Nehaw;w tho;NtFiwtw;w nry;tk;> vd;W MNuhf;fpaj;jpd; mUikia mofhff;$wpr; nrd;whh;. xsitg;gpuhl;b.

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Neha;fisg; gw;wp ts;Stg; ngUe;jifAk; Fwspy;Fwpg;gpl;Ls;shh;. cz;l czT cz;ikahf [Puzkhtjw;F Kd;cz;zhky;-ehtlf;fp cz;ikahd grp tUk; NghJ kl;Lk; cz;lhy;,e;j clYf;F kUe;J vd;gNj Njitg;glhJ. vd;W $wpAs;shh;.

MapDk; gpwf;Fk; NghNj cld; gpwg;gha; rpy Neha;fs;khe;jUld; gpwg;gJ Vd;? rpy Neha;fs; guk;giuaha; tUtNjd;?jPuhj NehAld; gpwe;jth;fisg; ghh;j;J Kd; n[d;k tpid vd;Wkhe;jh; $WtJ cz;ikah? F\;l Neha; Nghd;wit Kd; n[d;kghtq;fspd; rk;gsk; vd;W rpy E}y;fs; $WtNjd;. ,ij cz;ikvd;gij Nghy Guhz fijfs; $l nrhy;fpd;wdNt!

,it mLj;j gpwtpapYk; njhluhky; ,Uf;f vd;d top-itj;jpahpd; flik rpfpr;ir mspg;gNjhL Kbe;J tpLfpwJ.

me;j Neha; FzkhtJ ,iwtd; fpUig vd;W nghUs; gLkhWMq;fpy itj;jpah;fNs

(doctors treat, God cures) vd;W jk; fpspdpf;Ffspy; vOjpitj;jpUf;fpwhh;fNs!

itj;jpahplk; itj;jpak; ghh;j;jhYk; Mz;ltid Ntz;bG+i[ nra;fpwhh;fs;.

nkhl;il mbj;J nfhs;tjhf> myF Fj;jpf;nfhs;tjhf> jPg;G+kpjpg;gjhf> fhzpf;if mspg;gjhf> gythW Ntz;bf; nfhs;fpwhh;fs;.gy rkaq;fspy; mth;fs; Ntz;Ljy; gypf;f Ntz;bathWNtz;Ljiy epiw Ntw;Wfpwhh;fs;.

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Mdhy; Fok;gpa Fl;ilapy; jhNd kPd; gpbg;gJ vspJ. Mdhy;vd;Ds; Vdlh ntz;nza;ia ifapy; itj;Jf; nfhz;L nea;f;Fmiyfpwha;? Mrhid> mUfpy; itj;J nfhz;L ,g;gb cd;kdk; miy gha;fpwJ. vd;wJ VNjh xU rf;jp!

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Mbf;nfhz;bUe;j jiyahl;b rpj;jhpd; jiy jd; Ml;lj;ijrw;W epWj;jpaJ. ,J fz;L ehk; jtwhf VjhtJ Nfl;L tpl;Nlhkh?vg;NghJk; Mbf; nfhz;bUf;Fk; mth; jiy Ml;lk; epd;W tpl;lNj>vd;w mr;rk; vd;id Ml;f;nfhz;lJ. mg;NghJ Mrhdpd; jiykPz;Lk; Mlj;Jtq;fpaJ. vdf;Fk; Nghd caph; jpUk;gp te;jJ.Mrhdpd; Kfj;jpy; xU mUs; Gd;dif Njhd;wpaJ. mLj;jepkplk; vd; tpdhf;fSf;F tpilfs; fq;if nts;skha; gha;e;J te;jd.

uh[h! eP Nfl;lJ mUikahd Nfs;tp! caph; thOk;vy;NyhUf;Fk; ,e;j tpdhf;fSf;F tpil mspg;gJ vd; flik!mfj;jpah; ekJ rpj;j itj;jpaj;jpd; je;ijahFk;! G+ cyfpy;>kdpj Fyj;ij jhf;Fk; Mapuf;fzf;fhd Neha;fSf;Fk; kUe;Jfz;l kfhd; mth;;! mth; tho;e;j ,d;Wk;-El;g-clYld; tho;e;Jnfhz;bUf;Fk; mfj;jpah; kiyapy; kUe;Jfs; Neha;fs; vd;wrpe;jidfs; cdf;F Njhd;wpaJ xd;Wk; tpe;ijapy;iy! Neha;fs;kdpjUf;Fj; Njhd;WtJ Vd; vd;gjw;Fk; mjw;fhd kUe;JtiffisAk; = mfj;jpah; ngUkhd; ~fd;k fhz;lk;-300| vd;wE}ypy; mUspapUf;fpwhh;fs;! mjpy; Neha; tif vd;w jiyg;gpy;fhZk; ghliyf; $WfpNwd; ftdj;Jld; Nfs;! vd;W Mizapl;lvk;ja;ad; mg;ghliy ,uhfk; Nghl;L ghbdhh;fs;.....

~~G+uzkha; %yKj yhwh jhuk;Ghpal;le; jrtha;T ehkk; %d;Wfhuzkh apilg;gpd;dhy; RopKidAkhfpfye;J epd;wthAgpj;jh; rpNyj;(J)kkhfpkhuzkha;r; rlsj;jpDs;Ns jj;Jtq;fs;kdk; Gj;jp ahq;fhuQ; rpj;jj;jhNythuzkha; elj;J tpj;j fz;kj;jhNyte;jjlh Neha;fnsy;yh kdpjh;f;fhNk"

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nrd;whh;fs;! kdpjd; ghtq;fs; nra;tjw;F MirfNs fhuzk;!mjdhy; Mirfis mopj;J tpl;lhy; mjpypUe;J jg;gyhk;-vd;Wgfthd; Gj;jh; cyFf;F Nghjpj;jhh;! Kw;gfy; nra;apd; gpw;gfy;tpisAk;> nfLthd; NfL epidg;ghd;! jd; tpid jd;idr; RLk;>fj;;jp vLj;;jtd; fj;jpahyNa kuzkilthd;. vspNahiu typNahh;thl;bd; mt;typNahiu nja;tk; epd;W nfhy;;Yk; vd;nwy;yhk;vr;rhpf;iffis> kdpj Fyj;Jf;F rhj;jpuq;fSk; nghpNahUk;nrhy;ypAk; Nfshj nrtpNahh; kdk; Nghd Nghf;fpy; Raeyj;NjhL-gpwh; Jd;gq;fSf;Ff; fhuzkhfpwhh;fs;! kw;wtiu mopj;J nropj;Jtho epidg;gth;fSf;F Mz;ltd; jUk; jz;lid jhd; jPuhjnfhba Neha;fshFk;.

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Mrhd; je;jJ Qhdg; nghb! mjd; ngUikiaf; $wNtz;Lkhapd; xU rpW rk;gtj;ij ehd; $wp Mf Ntz;Lk;. ehd;nghpJk; kjpf;Fk; jpU.b.Nf.kzpad; mth;fs; rpdpkhj; Jiwapy;ehd; gzpahw;wpa NghJ mwpKfkhd xU ey;y kdpjh;.mg;Nghnjy;yhk; mtiu ehd; kzp vd;W jhd; miog;Ngd;. mtUk;vd;id uh[p vd;W md;;Gld; miog;ghh;. xU Kiw fq;if mkud;

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mth;fis re;jpf;f gpurhj; ];LBNahTf;Fr; nrd;wpUe;Njd;. mth;xU ghliyg; gjpT nra;J nfhz;bUe;jhh;. jpU fq;if mkud;nghpa ,irf;fiyQh;> ,af;Fdh; vd;gNjhL ey;y ,iwad;guhFk;.tUlh tUlk; nguk;gY}hpy; rpj;jh; ngUkhd; M];ukj;jpy; elf;Fk;nja;tPf tpohTf;F ,ytrkhf jpiu ,irg; ghlfh;fs;fiyQh;fis itj;J ,ir epfo;r;rpia elj;jp jUthh;fs;. mNjhLmd;djhdj;jpw;F ms;spj; jUk; mUshsh; jpU.fq;if mkud;.mth; fle;j gpwtpfspYk; vd;DlNd ,Ue;jth ; . ,e;jcz;ikiaAk; ehd; ahh;? vd;gijAk; 2003y;; mtNu czh;e;Jnfhs;Sthh;. mjdhy; mtiuf; fhzj; Njbr; nrd;w NghJ mq;Ffq;if mkuDld; ,iz ,af;Fduhf mtUld; vy;yhglq;fSf;Fk; gzpahw;wpa b.Nf.kzpaid re;jpj ;Njd;>Ngrpf;nfhz;bUe;j NghJ mth; rpj;jhpd; md;Gf;Fhpa md;gh;vd;gjhy; rhkpiag; gw;wp tprhhpj;Jf; nfhz;bUe;jhh;. xU Kiwmtiu M];ukj;jpw;Nf mioj;Jr; nrd;wpUf;fpNwd;.

mth; M];ukk; te;j Neuk; ,uT kzp xd;gJ. mjdhy;rpj;jh; mth;fs;> mtiu Xa;ntLf;FkhWk;> fhiyapy; Ngryhk;vd;Wk; $wptpl;L me;j Qhd %ypif nghbiaf; nfhLj;Jrhg;gpLq;fs;> mrjp jPUk; vd;W nrhy;y> mij mth; gagf;jpAld;rhg;gpl;L tpl;L mikjpahf cwq;fj; Jtq;fpdhh;. me;j epfo;r;rpiaepidT $h;e;j jpU.b.Nf.vk; mth;fs; me;j %ypifg; nghbapd;nja;tPfj;ij gw;wpf; $wpdhh;. mij rhg;gpl;L tpl;L cwq;ffz;fis %ba NghJ mth; fz;fspy; Kjypy; xU nghparptypq;fk; Njhd;wpajhk;! gpwF gytpjkhd mikg;Gfspy; nghpJk;rpwpaJkhd rptypq;fq;fs; mth; fz;fspy; gtdp te;jdthk;.xU ntz;ikahd xU rptypq;fk; Njhd;wp mthplk; VNjh Ngrpajhk;!gpwF fhiyapy; tpopj;j NghJ jhd; jd; epiyikf;F te;jhuhk;.,J gw;wp rhkpaplNk Ngrpdhy; VjhtJ jtwhfptpLNkh vd;WmQ;rp Ch; jpUk;gpath; md;;W vd;id re;jpj;j NghJ ,J gw;wp$wp> Vd; mg;gb? ehd; KUf gf;jd;! Mdhy; rptkakhf ,Ue;jJVd;? vd;W Nfl;lhh;. ,ij Nfl;lJk; vd; cly; rpyph;j;jJ. mth;fz;l rptypq;fk; mtuJ Mj;kypq;fk; jhd; vd;W tpsf;fpNdd;.FLk;gtho;tpy; Mo;e;j rpdpkhg; gzpNa ,iwgzp vd;W tho;e;Jte;j mtUf;Nf me;j mDgtk; Vw;gLk; NghJ> fhyk; fhykhf,iwtNd cUntLj;J te;jJ Nghy; tho;e;j me;j kfhrpj;jh;ngUkhdpd; Nritapy; thOk; vd;F ,g;gb gl;l jd;id kwe;jepiy Vw;gLtJ xd;Wk; mjprakpy;iy> jhNd?

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nfhy;ypkiy nry;fpNwhk; vd;gij Kjd; Kjyhf mwpe;jNghNj vd; epidTf;F te;jJ mk;kiyapd; ngaUld; ,ize;Jtpsq;Fk; nfhy;ypak; ghit mk;kd; jhd;! tuyhw;Wr; rpwg;Gtha;e;jts; nfhy;ypak; ghit. ,ts; rpj;jh;fshy; cUthdts;Muhjpf;f gl;lts;> kpfTk; rf;jp tha;e;j fypAf nja;tk; ke;jpurf;jpfs; kpf;fts;> tprpj;jpu tbTilats;> ,q;F nry;gth;fs;Rj;jkhf kpfTk; gagf;jpAld; jhd; nry;thh;fs;. ,tisj; jhprpf;fehk; Kw;gpwtpfspy; jtk; nra;jpUe;jhy; jhd; ,e;j n[d;kj;jpy;>ghh;f;f KbAk;. vl;L iffSld; fhl;rpaspg;gts;; ,f;nfhy;ypak;ghit! ,tis fz; Fspuf;fz;L tzq;fplNtz;Lk; vd;wNgutkiy mbthuj;jpypUe;J NkNy Nghfg; Nghf mjpfhpj;Jf;nfhz;Nl te;jJ! ,e;j Miria epiwNtw;wpf; nfhs;s ehd;te;jpUf;Fk; gazk; nja;tjhprdj;Jf;fhf te;j gazk; my;yNt!%ypif Nrfhpf;f my;yth? rpj;jUld; te;jpUf;fpNwhk;. mthplk;Jzpe;J Ngha; vdJ Miria ntspapl;lhy; mJ Kiwahf,Uf;Fkh? mtiu ek;> ,\;lj;jpw;F rk;kjpf;f itg;gJ Rygkhdfhhpakh? vd;W mQ;rp vd; Miria mlf;fpathW me;j mltpapy;miye;j kdJld; %ypif Njb miye;J nfhz;bUe;Njd;. mNjhLrpj;jh; ngUkhd; Nfhapy;fSf;F tukhl;lhh;. NfhtpYf;Fr; rw;Wnjhiytpy; mkh;e;J nfhz;L vq;fisg; Ngha; rhkpjhprdk; nra;ar;nrhy;yp MizapLthh;. Mjyhy; mj;jifa jUzk; epr;rak;fpl;Lk; vd;W vd; cs;kdk; MWjy; nrhy;ypf; nfhz;Nl ,Ue;jJ.

rpj;jh; ngUkhDk; me;j tha;g;ig vq;fSf;F toq;fpdhh;.'mNjh nfhy;ypak; ghit jpUf;Nfhapy; nrd;W thUq;fs;|| vd;WmDkjp toq;fpdhh;. cld; te;jpUe;j gjpdhW NgUk; NfhapiyNehf;fpr; nrd;Nwhk;. ehq;fs; nry;tijg; ghh;j;jthNw Mq;Nf xUkuepoypy; Mrhd; mkh;e;jpUe;jhh;.

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kiyf; NfhapYf;Fr; nrd;whYk; Kjy; Ntiyahf rhk;gpuhzp NghLtjw;fhfRs;sp> rUFfis jpul;br; Nrh;j;J mf;fpdpia cz;lhf;FNtd;.

Njtjh trpaj;jpw;F rhk;gpuhzp Gif kpf mtrpak;. me;jg;gFjpapy; Vuhskhd Fq;fpypa kuq;fs; epiwe;J ,Ue;jd.Fq;fpypak; rhk;gpuhzp jahhpg ;Gf;Fk;> kUj;Jtj;Jf;Fk;cgNahfkhdJ. gpwF Fspg;gjw;Fr; nry;Ntd;> mijg; NghyNtmd;Wk; nra;J tpl;L mUfpy; ,Ue;j xU Fl;ilapy; %o;fpvOe;J <uj;Jz;Lld; mgpN\fj;jpw;fhf ePiuAk; vLj;Jf; nfhz;LNfhtpYf;Fs; nrd;Nwd;. nfhy;ypak;ghit nja;tj;ij ve;jj;jpf;fpypUe;J ghh;j;jhYk; Neh;KfkhapUg;gJ NghyNt njhpAk;.G+i[f;fhd ve;j cjtpAk; nra;ahky; VNjh Xa;tiwapy; Xa;TvLg;gij Nghy; cld; te;jth;fs; mkh;e;J Ch;f;fijfisg;Ngrpf; nfhz;L ,Ue;jdh;. mij xU NfhtpyhfNth mq;fpUe;jmk;kid nja;tkhfNth mth;fs; kjpf;ftpy;iy! ehd; mk;kDf;FmgpN\fk; nra;Njd;. rpj;jh; nfhLj;j rQ;rPtp %ypifg; nghbiaePhpy; fye;J mgpN\fk; nra;j NghJ mk;kDf;F NehpNyNamgpN\fk; nra;jijg; Nghd;W mG+h;t czh;itg; ngw;Nwd;. me;jngUk; Ngw;iw vdf;F toq;fpa me;j jha;f;F vd; fz;zPuhy;njhlh;e;J Muhjpj;Njd;. ehk; Nkw;F Kfkhf epd;W fpof;F Kfkkhfmk;ikiaapUf;fr; nra;J me;j mk;kDf;F mgpN\fQ; nra;JNjq;fha; goKilj;J jPg J}gk; fhl;b muspg; G+tpdhy; mh;r;ridnra;J “khah&gp kfh ke;jpu &gp jhNa Rthfh” vd;W E}w;wpnal;LcU n[gpj;jhy; mk;kd; gpurd;dkhfp Ntz;ba tuq;fisf;nfhLg;ghs;> vd;W rpj;jh; $wpAs;shh;. mg;NghJ %d;W Gjpakdpjh;fs; NfhapYf;Fs; Eioe;jdh;. FspUf;F Nky; rl;il mzpe;J,Ue;jth;fs; fhypypUe;j kpjpabfNshL mk;kd; mUfpy;te;Jepd;wdh;. mth;fs; Muha;r;rpahsh;fs; vd;gJ mth;fspd;Ngr;rpypUe;J czh;j;jpaJ! mjpy; xUth; jk; Muha;r;rp KbTfiscld; te;jth;fSf;F czh;j;JtJ Nghy mk;kdpd; rpiyiaMq;fhq;Nf njhl;Lf; fhl;b gyj;jFuypy; tpsf;fpf; nfhz;bUe;jhh;.mth;fs; nfhy;ypak; ghitia nja;tkhf kjpf;fhky; mijVNjh xU Muha;r;rpg; nghUshfNt ghh;j;jdh;! G+i[ nra;Ak;vd;id xU nghUl;lhfNt kjpf;fhky; ,g;gb mk;kid njhl;Lj;>njhl;L gf;jpapy;yhky; NgRtijf; fz;L Jbj;Jg; Nghd ehd;,g;gb njhl;Lg; NgrhjPh;fs; vd;W Ml;Nrgpj;Njd;. vd; Kfj;jpy;njhpe;j cf;fpuj;ij czh;e;j mth;fs; rw;W jpifj;J epd;wdh;.me;j kdpjh;fs; te;jJ Kjy; mth;fs; NgRtij Ntbf;ifghh;j;J epd;w vd;Dld; te;j md;gh;fSf;F te;jth;fis ehd;fz;bj;jJ gpbf;ftpy;iy! mjdhy; Muha;r;rpahsh;fs; ngUk;

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mth;fisr; Rkhh; ,uz;L fpNyh kPl;lh; tiu tz;Lfs;Juj;jpabj;jd. Ra epidTf;F te;j ehd; me;j tz;Lfs;Mapuf;fzf;fpy; vd;id Rw;wp gwe;J nfhz;L ,Ug;gijAk;fz;Nld;. nky;y efh;e;J vd;Dila clypYk; tz;Lfs; gha;e;Jte;J mku> mQ;rp eLq;fpa ehd; ek; MAs;;; Kbe;J tpl;lJ> vd;wKbTf;Nf te;Jtpl;Nld;. vd;id mwpahky; jhNa> mk;kh vd;Wmk;kid kPz;Lk; jiuapy; tPo;e;J tzq;fpNdd;. vd;id Rw;wpapUe;jtz;LfSk;> cly; kPJ Cwpnfhz;bUe;j tz;LfSk; vd;idxd;Wk; nra;atpy;iy. ,dpa ez;gh;fs; eLtpy; ,Ug;gJ Nghyehd; czh;e;Njd;. ,ijj;; jhd; G+[h gyd; vd;ghh;fNsh? vd;kdk; nfhy;ypak; ghitaplk; kPz;Lk;> kPz;Lk; ruz; mile;jJ.nja;tPf gf;jpia Nehpy; fz;l vd; cs;sk; rpj;jUf;F ed;wp$wpaJ. ,t;tsT ghf;fpaKk; rpj;jiu ruzile;jjhy;te;jjy;yNth! nfhy;yp kiy nja;tj;jpd; jpUtpisahliyczh;e;j vdf;F vz;zw;w ufrpaq;fis czh;tpj;j NgRk;nja;tkhfNt mts; ,d;W jpfo;fpwhs;. rpj;jh;fs; cUthf;fpanfhy;ypkiyg; ghit vd; ,jaj;jpNy md;W Kjy; epue;jukhf

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Nfhapy; nfhz;lhs;. ,e;j fjz;Lfs; nghpa cUtKilait>$l;lkhf te;J jhf;Fk;. fjz;Lfs; NjdPiag; Nghy nfhLf;fpdhy;nfhl;Lk;. nfhl;ba ,lk; nfhYf;fl;il Nghd;W tPq;fp tpLk;.nfhl;ba ,lj;jpy; mjd; tp\Ks; xl;bapUf;Fk;. mjpfkhfjhf;fg;gl;lhy; Ms; kPz;Lk; vOtNj fbdk;. mJjhf;Fk; NghJXbdhy; tplhky; Juj;jp> Juj;jpf; nfhl;Lk; jiyia%bf; nfhz;L.jiuapy; gLj;Jf; nfhz;lhy; mit kdpjid jhf;Ftjpy;iy.

,itfs; Fiffs;> goq;fhy fl;blq;fs;> goq;fhy kiyf;Nfhapy;fspy; trpf;Fk; Gijay; ,Uf;Fkplj;jpy; ,it fhty;,Uf;Fk;. Gijaiy vLf;f Kide;jhy; fLikahfj; jhf;Fk;vd;Wk; nrhy;fpwhh;fs;. md;idapd; ghjj;ij ruzile;jJ jhd;vd;idf; fhg;ghw;wpaJ Nghy; tz;Lfisg; gw;wpa cz;ikawpahjvd;id nja;tj;jpd; jpUg;ghjq;fs; jhd; md;W fhg;ghw;wpd. ,g;gbepfo;e;jJ> me;j G+i[apd; gyd; jhNd!

fjz;Lfspd; jhf;FjYf;F ,yf;fhd vq;fSld; te;jth;fspy;,uz;L egh;fs; kaq;fp tpOe;jdh;. mth;fisj; J}f;fpf; nfhz;Lrpj;jh; ngUkhdplk; nrd;wile;J ele;jij tpthpj;jdh;. ,J fz;LjpLf;fpl;l rpj;jh; ngUkhd; nfhl;ba ,lq;fspy; gjpe;jpUe;jtp\Kl;fis gpLq;fp vLj;J tpl;L rQ;rPtp ijyj;ij Nja;j;Jtpl;lhh;. Fwpg;ghf kaq;fpa epiyapy; ,Ue;j me;j ,UtUk;RUf;fkhf nrhy;yg; Nghdhy; Gdh; n[d;ke;jhd; vLj;jhh;fs; vdyhk;.

,Nj Neuk; Nfhapypy; mk;kd; fhybapy; fple;j vd; Nky;Ch;e;J nfhz;bUe;j tz;Lfs; vd; clypypUe;J tpyfp hPq;fhukpl;Lf;Nfhtpiy tpl;L jpBnud fpsk;gpa kw;w tz;LfSld; ,ize;Jgwe;jd. rw;W Neuj;jpy; me;j Xq;fhu hPq;fhu xyp nky;y> nky;yNja;e;J kiwe;jJ. vd; cly; Nky; xU tz;L$l mkh;e;jpUf;ftpy;iy. nky;y mr;rj;Jld; jiyJ}f;fp ghh;j;J tz;Lfspdhy;te;j Mgj;J ePq;fpaij czh;e;J> mr;rk; njspe;J vOe;Njd;.rpj;jh; mkh;e;jpUe;j ,lj;ij Nehf;fp ele;Njd;. rpj;jh; mth;fs;mkh;e;jpUe;j ,lj;ij neUq;f> neUq;f Mrhidr; #o;e;jpUe;j#o;epiy vdf;Fg; Ghpe;jJ. fjz;L tz;Lfspd; fLk; jhf;Fjiy>jhf;Fg; gpbf;f Kbahky; GwKJfpl;L capiuf; fhg;ghw;w thANtfj;jpy; Xba me;j Fk;gy; rpj;jiu Rw;wp cl;fhh;e;Jk;> gLj;Jk;fple;jd. mijf; fz;lNghJ xU rpwpa Nghh;f;fsj;jpy; tPo;e;Jfplf;Fk; Nghh; tPuh;fisg; Nghy; njhpe;jJ. gjl;lj;Jld; vd;eilapd; Ntfj;ijf; $l;b rpj;jiu neUq;fpNdd;. rpj;jh; ngUkhd;Nfhgkhff; fhzg;gl;lhh;. jpifj;Jg; Ngha;> nksdkha; epd;Nwd;.

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jpBh; vd;W rpj;jh; mth;fs; rpde;J> vd;dplk; rPwpdhh;. 'vd;da;ah,J! cd;id ek;gpj;jhNd ,th;fis cd;Dld; mDg;gpNdd;!vd;id ek;gp te;jth;fis> rhkp Fk;gpl te;jth;fis me;jk;kh,g;gb nfhLik gLj;jpaDg;gp ,Uf;fpwNj!.... ,J vdf;F Vw;gl;lmtkhdk>;|| vd;wth; rw;W Neuk; nksdkha;> Nfhapy; ,Uf;Fk;jpirapy;> Nfhgkhf Nehf;fpdhh;. gpwF jdpe;j Fuypy; ~~,th;fSf;FVjhtJ Mdhy; ahh; gjpy; nrhy;yKbAk;? ,t;tsT ele;jpUf;fpwJ.mg;Gwk; me;j Nfhapypy; cdf;nfd;d Ntiy? clNd tuNtz;baJjhNd?|| vd;W $wpath; me;j ,lj;ij tpl;L jdpikia ehbr;nrd;whh;. tz;L fbf;fhshdth;fsplk;> mth;fs; cly; epiy gw;wptprhhpj;Njd;. mth;fspy; xUth; vd;idg; ghh;j;J vq;fisnay;yhk;Juj;jpa tz;L cq;fis vg;gb nfhl;lhky; tpl;lJ? vd;WMjq;fj;Jld; tprhhpj;jhh;. mJ Vd;? vd;W vdf;F njhpahJ>vd;w cz;ikiaf; $wpAk;> mth;fs; rkhjhdkilahky; ,td;kl;Lk; jg;gptpl;lhd; vd;gJ Nghy - Ms;> rpdpkh ghh;l;bahr;Nr!VjhtJ ];lz;L Ntiy fhkpr;rpUg;ghh;> vd;W Nfyp Ngrpdhh;fs;.mJ Nfl;L Ntjidia kwe;J me;j $l;lk; rphpj;jJ! ,Jfz;L Ntjidaile;j ehd; mt;tplk; tpl;L rpj;jh; nrd;w jpirapy;tpiue;Njd;.

rw;W Neuj;jpy; rpj;jh; jdpikapy; mkh;e;jpUe;j ,lj;ijmile;Njd;. vd;idf; fz;lJk; fdpTld; ~~vd;d uh[h?|| vd;Wvd;id tuNtw;f> rhkp! ele;jjpNy vd; jtW VJkpy;iy. ehd;tof;fk; Nghy G+ir jhd; nra;J nfhz;bUe;Njd;. rhkp Fk;gplePq;fs; mth;fis mDg;gp itj;jPh;fs;-Mdhy; mth;fs; ahUk;rhkp Fk;gpLtjpNyh> G+i[ nra;tjpNyh Mh;tk; fhl;l tpy;iy.khwhf me;j nja;t rd;djpia Xa;T klkhf epidj;J vy;NyhUk;mkh;e;J Ch;fijfis Ngrpf; nfhz;bUe;jdh;. mNj Neuk; rpyMuha;r;rpahsh;fs; rpiyapd; mq;fq;fis vy;yhk; njhl;Lj; njhl;LmJ gw;wpa fUj;Jf;fis Ngrpf; nfhz;bUe;jhh;fs;. ek;kth;fs;mth;fs; NgRtij ftdpj;J urpfh;fsha; ,Ue;jhh;fs;. fhypy;nrUg;G Nghl;Lf;nfhz;L> ,g;gb mk;kd; rpiyia gf;jpapy;yhky;njhLfpwPh;fNs> jaT nra;J njhlhky; NgRq;fs; vd;Nwd;. mth;fs;vd;idg; G+rhhp vd;W vz;zpf; nfhz;L vjph;g;Gj; njhptpj;jhh;fs;.Mdhy; vd;Dld; te;jth;fNsh> Muha;r;rpahsh;fSf;Fg; ghpe;JNgrp ,th; ntWk; rpdpkhf;fhud; vd;W Nftyg;gLj;jpdhh;fs;.,ijg; nghWf;fhky; mk;kd; jd; Nfhgj;ij fjz;Lfs; %yk;fhl;bdhs; vd;W jhd; vd;dhy; nrhy;y KbAk;. fhuzk; mitvd;id xd;Wk; nra;atpy;iy. ,th;fis Xl Xl tpul;baJ.vd;id tpl;L tpl;L Xbte;J tpl;lhh;fs;. tz;Lfs; mq;fpUe;JNghd gpwF jhd; ehd; fpsk;gptu Kbe;jJ||. vd;W jd;dpiyiag;

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gw;wp tpsf;fk; nfhLj;Njd;. ,J Nfl;L rpe;jid tag;gl;l me;jkfhd; gpwF jzpe;j Fuypy; rkhjhdk; mile;jth; Nghy> ~~,y;iyuh[h! rhkpNa ,y;iy vd;W nrhy;tNj jkf;Fs;s jd;dpfuw;wjFjp vd;W epidf;Fk;|| ,f;fhyj;jpy; rhkpFk;gpl te;jhh;fs;,th;fs;. ehd; nrhd;Ndd; vd;gjw;fhf te;jth;fs; NghYk;> mk;ghs;Nfhgj;Jf;Ff; fhuzkhdhh;fs; vd;gJ cz;iikjhd;. Mdhy;,ij mth;fs; epr;rak; czh;e;jpUf;f khl;lhh;fs;. vd;Nfhgnky;yhk; vd;id ek;gpte;jth;fis> ehd; mDg;gpitj;jth;fis me;j mk;kh ,g;gb gz;zpdJ jhd; vdf;FtUj;jkhf ,Uf;fpd;wJ||> vd;whh;. ,J Nfl;lJk; mtUilafilik czh;it czh;e;J kfpo;e;Njd;.

~~rhkp ,e;j mk;kh ahh; vg;gb ,q;F te;jhh;|| vd;Nwd;. mJthghz;ba kd;dd; tk;rj;jpy; Kjypy; Njhd;wpa ngz; vd;gjhy;cd; Fyj;Jf;F Mz; thhpR ,Ue;jhy; jhd; murhl;rp nra;aKbAk;. ,y;iy ehl;Lf;F Mgj;J Vw;gLk; kd;dh vd ,ilfhl;Lrpj;jh; kd;ddpd; kdj;ij khw;wp tpl;lhh;.

kd;dh; ,ilfhl;L rpj;jiu vd;d nra;a Ntz;Lk; vd;W Nfl;frpj;jh; ,e;j ngz;iz ehL fljjp tpl Ntz;Lk;. mg;NghJ jhd;cd; Fyj;jpy; Mz; thhpR mikAk; vd;whh;. kd;dd; kdk; ,y;yhky;tUj;jj;Jld; KdpthplNk xg;gilf;f ,ilf;fhl;L rpj;jh;>nfhy;ypkiyf;F me;j Foe;ijia nfhz;L te;J. rfy ke;jpurf;jp tpj;ijfis ngw;w nrf;fyr;rp (nrUg;Gijg;gth;) aplk;xg;gilf;fpwhh;. ehd; kPz;Lk; tUk; tiu ,e;j ngz;iz eyKld;ghh;j;J nfhs; vd;wJk;> Kdpthpd; thf;Ff;F mbgzpe;J me;jngz;iz mofhd tdRe;jhpahf gUt kq;ifaha; rfy khe;jphpftpj;ijfSk;> fw;gpj;j tpy;> ths; gapw;rpapy; Njh;r;rp je;Jnja;tNyhf kq;if Nghy; tsh;e;jhs;. ,ilfhl;L rpj;jh; te;Jnrf;fyr;rpf;F ed;wp nrhy;yp me;j nfhy;ypkiy ghitf;F Mrpfs;toq;fp ghz;ba tkrj;jpy; tsh;e;J cs;shs;> cq;fshy; mtisneUq;f KbahJ vd;W nrg;gp tpl Fjpiu> ahid> jiug;gilAld;NghUf;;F te;j kd;dh;fis ,e;j ghitahs; kharf;;jpahy;midj;J gilfisAk; tPo;j;jp> ahid Fjpiufis kha rf;jpahy;nghk;ikahf;fp tpl;lhs;.

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xUKiw rpj;jh; rkhjp mile;jJk; mbNaDk; ez;gh; fq;ifmkuDk; ,e;j mk;khitf; fhzg;NghNdhk;. mg;NghJ G+i[ nra;jG+rhhpf;F mUs; te;jJ. rq;F Cjp tzf;fk; nrYj;jpNdd;>mUs; te;j g+rhup rq;F Cjpa ghyfNd ,q;Nf th. ,d;W Kjy;md;idr; rpj;ju; vd;W miof;fg;gLthahf md;id rpj;jh;fs;mUshrpAld; cdf;F xU Mrpukk; mikAk;. ntspehl;bdh; epiwaNgh;fs; tUthh;fs; vd;whh;. rpj;jUk; rkhjp milAk; Kd;nfhy;ypkiy te;J> ~~uh[h ,q;F ,Uf;Fk; nghUs; kPJMirglhNj 210 rpj;jh;fSk; cd;id $g;gpl;L mth; nghUisjhNd cdf;F te;J nfhLj;Nj jPUthh;fs;|| vd;whh;. 'rhpGwg;gLNthk;||> vd;W $wp vOe;j Mrhid ehd; gpd; njhlh;e;Njd;.vy;NyhiuAk;> Gwg;glr; nrhy;yp mioj;Jf; nfhz;bUe;jhh;.

mUfpYs;s Nrhukilahd; NfhapYf;Fk;> Mrhdpd; Mizg;gbnrd;Nwhk;. tof;fk; Nghy NfhapYf;Fs; rw;Wj;js;sp rpj;jh;ngUkhd; mkh;e;J nfhz;lhh;.

mug;gsP];tuh; Nfhapypy; rpj;jh;fs; gpujp\;il nra;j xUmw;Gjkhd rptypq;fj;ij jhprpj;Njhk;. ,J khjphp rptypq;fq;fs;kiyf;Nfhapy;fspy; fhzg;gl;lhy; mq;F ahNuh xU rpj;jh; rkhjpnfhz;bUf;fpwhh;> vd;gJ cWjpahFk;. me;j Nfhapy; gy rpj;jh;fs;jtk; nra;j Gdpjkhd ,lkhFk;. ,e;j Nfhapypy; mUfpy; xUngUk; ejp Xbf;nfhz;bUf;fpwJ. mjd;; moF fhz;Nghiunfhs;is nfhs;Sk;! ,J Nghd;w mikjpahd ,aw;if moFnfhQ;Rkplj;jpw;F tUgth;fSf;F tho;tpd; Jauq;fs; kdr;Rikfs;>f\;lq;fs; kiwe;J> Mde;jk;> gukhde;jk;> gpukhde;jk;> rjhde;jk;>rpthde;j rptNghjhde;jk; Mfpatw;wpy; Mde;jk; nfhs;th;. kdpjkdj;ijg; gf;Ftg;gLj;Jk; rhjdq;fs; vy;yhk; mug;gsP];tuh;Nfhapiy Rw;wp Mz;ltd; nfhl;bitj;jpUf;fpwhh;.

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rhkp> ,J vd;d nrb" vd;W Nfl;Nld;? 'guthapy;iyNa ,J%ypif jhd; vd;w msT tpguk; te;J tpl;lNj"> vd;W ghuhl;bath;>',ijf; nfhz;L gy; Jyf;fpdhy;> Mbf;nfhz;bUf;Fk;> ghl;bapd;gw;fs; $l ghiw Nghy; ,WfptpLk;! ,J xU mw;Gjkhd %ypifvd;whh;! clNd mijg; ghpNrhjpf;Fk; Mtyhy; J}z;lg;gl;ltdhfmtru> mtrukhf me;j nrbfspy; rpytw;iw gwpj;J vLj;Jitj;Jf; nfhz;Nld;. fPNo mUtpf;F nrd;wTld;> me;j ,iyiacld; te;j rpyUf;Fk; nfhLj;J tpl;L> ehDk; gy; Jyf;fpNdd;.Jyf;fpa gpd; thapy; xU Gj;Jzh;r;rp Vw;gl;lJ. gw;fspy; xUtpjkhd tpW tpWg;G Vw;gl;lJ. ,e;j tpe;ij nray;fs; vd;idtpag;gpy; Mo;j;jpd! kdj;jpw;Fs; rpj;jh; ngUkhDf;F vd; ed;wpianjhptpj;Jf; nfhz;Nld;.

Mfhr mUtp! rw;Nwwf; Fiwa Rkhh; IE}W mbfs;cauj;jpypUe;J tPo;fpwJ. fhw;wpy; mjd; rhuy; Crpr; rhuy;fshffPo;Nehf;;fp gutyhf gutp ,wq;Ffpd;wd. mit ek;kPJ tpOk;NghJ rpW Crp Kidahy; Fj;jg;gLtJ Nghd;w czhT! Fsph;e;jgd;dPiu thhp ,iwj;Jf; nfhz;bUe;jJ> vq;fis tuNtw;gJNghy;! ,jpy; Fspj;jhNy gy ghtq;fs; jPUk; vd;W Mrhd;nrhd;dJk; midtUk; ghtk; Nghf;fpNa MfNtz;Lk; vd;WKbntLj;jhw; Nghy; mUtpapy; Fspf;fj; Jtq;fpdh;. jz;zPhpy;fhy; itj;jJNk clypy; kpd;rhuk; gha;tJ Nghd;W ,Ue;jJ.Fsph;e;j ePhpy; Fspj;Jk; Fsphpy; cly; eLq;ftpy;iy! ,J khjphpczh;r;rpfs; vy;yh mUtpfspYk; Vw;glhJ. ,J %ypiffs;rf;jpNahL fye;J tUtjhy;-cly; jsh;r;rp clNd ePq;fpcw;rhfj;ijj;; je;J cs;sj;ij ctifapy; js;SfpwJ.

mNjhL ,J gygpzpfis jPh;f;Fk; mhpa rf;jp gilj;jJ.,e;j mUtpapd; mUfpy; Fif xd;W cs;sJ. ,J Nghd;wFiffspy; ,d;Wk; gy rpj;jh;fs; thrk; nra;fpd;whh;fs;. ,itfspy;mjpraq;fs; xspe;Jf;fplf;fpd;wd. ,JNghd;w Fiffspy; jhd;rQ;rPtp %ypiffSk;> Neha; jPh;f;Fk; mG+h;t %ypiffSk;>KiwNahL nra;ag;gl;l nre;J}uq;fs;> Fspiffs; Nghd;w kdpjFyk;caw;tjw;fhf rpj ;jh ;fshy; nra;ag;gl ;l mUkUe;Jfs;rpj;jh;fshNyNa kiwj;J itf;fg;gl;bUf;fpwJ. mRuh; fhyk;gpwf;fg; NghfpwJ vd;w Nrjpia mwpe;jTld; mth;fspd; trk;,k;kUe;Jfs; fpilj;jhy; mth;fspd; gyk; gyklq;fhfngUfptpLNk. ,jdhy; ey;yth;fs; eype;J Nghthh;fNs! ehLehrkhFNk vd;wQ;rp nja;tPff;fhyk; gpwe;j gpd;dh; ,it ehl;Lf;F

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cjtl;Lk; vd;W KbT nra;J mitfis ,J Nghd;w Fiffspy;kiwj;J itj;J tpl;L kiwe;jhh;fs; vd;w nra;jpia rpj;jh;mth;fs; vd;dplk; Kd;Ng $wpapUe;jhh;fs;. me;j epidtpy; %o;fp,Ue;j vd;id neUq;fpa rpj;jh;ngUkhd;> 'uh[h ehd;; Njbagj;J khzth;fis Njh;e;njLj;J tpl;Nld;. vd;Dila fhykhdnfhq;fzh; Ml;rp tpiutpy; Jtq;fg;NghfpwJ! E}w;wpUgJ Mz;Lfhyk; Ml;rp elf;Fk; mg;NghJ ehd; Njh;e;njLf;Fk; vd;gps;isfshy; cyf mjpraq;fis elj;jpf;fhl;LNtd;. mfpyNk,J fz;L tpae;J epw;Fk;. ntspehl;bdh; ek; ehl;bd; ed;ikf;fhfgy nghUl;fis nfhz;L te;J Ftpg;ghh;fs;. G+kpapy; ,e;jpu>kNfe;jpu [hyq;fis vd; gps;isfs; tpisahl;lhf nra;th;.G+kpapypUe;J gj;jb cauj;jpy;> me;;juj;jpy; jtk; nra;Ak;tpj;ijfis elj;jpf;fhl;Lth;. %ypiffs; NgRk;> mitfspd;rhgk; jPUk;. gl;lkuk; Jsph;f;Fk;> kuq;fSk; NgRk;> khjk; Kk;khhpjtwhky; kio nga;Ak;. kf;fs; ciog;gpdhNy cah;th;.cz;ikahf tho;thh;fs;. RUf;fkhf nrhd;dhy; kdpjh;fs;kspjh;fshf tho;th;!|| vd;whh;.

,J Nfl;l ehd; vd;idawpahky;! ~~rhkp! ,e;j kf;fsh ed;kf;fshfg; Nghfpwhh;fs;. ,J vg;gb rhj;jpakhFk;?|| vd;Nwd;!mJ Nfl;L Foe;ijg; Nghy; cly; FYq;fp eifj;j rpj;jh; mth;fs;cd; mr;rk; epahakhdJ jhd;! ,d;iwa kdpjh;fs; nja;tj;ijFk;gpLtJk; Vd;? Ra eyk; jhd; ,itfSf;F mbg;gil! jhd;nry;te;jdhf Ntz;Lk.; jd; fhhpak; ntw;wp ngw Ntz;Lk;. cly;Neha; Fzkhf Ntz;Lk;> vd;gJ Nghd;w Ntz;Ljy;fis kdpjd;,ayhikapy; NtW topapd;wp nja;tq;fis Ntz;bf;nfhs;fpwhh;fs;. ,jdhy; jhd; Nfhapy;fisAk;> nja;tj;ijAk;ruzilfpwhh;fs;. Ntz;baJ ele;J tpl;lhy; Neh;j;jp fld; vd;WflTSf;F jq;fs; Ntz;Ljiy epiwNtw;Wfpd;wdh;. ,ij Neh;j;jpfld; vd;W Fwpg;gpLtij fhZk; NghJ fhhpak; epiwNtw;wpatUf;F$ypahf fld; ghf;fp jPh;g;gJ Nghy; Ntz;Ljiy epiwNtw;Wfpd;wdh;. ,q;;F jhd; jpf;fw;wth;fSf;F nja;tk; Jiz>kyub Nrh;e;jhh;f;fy;yhy; kdf;ftiy khw;wyhpJ> vd;w nghpNahh;thf;F caph ; ngWfpwJ. khiyfs; NghLtJk;> kz;lytpujkpUg;gJk;> nkhl;il mbj;Jf; nfhs;StJk;> myF Fj;jpnfhs;tJk;> jq;fj;Njh; ,Og;gJTk;> kdpj mtaq;fisnts;spapNyh> nghd;dpNyh nra;J NghLtJk;-jhypia fow;wpcz;bapNy NghLtJk;> fj;ij fj;ijahf fud;rp Nehl;LfisjpUg;gjp godp cz;bay;fSf;F cz;zf; nfhLg;gJTk;

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gakpy;iy> vd;d nfhLj;J vd;d gad;?|| vd;W Nfhgpf;fTk;>vd;id mwpahky; vd; fz;zpy; fz;zPu; jpuz;lJ. eh twz;lJ!cyfNk #d;akhtJ Nghy njupe;jJ. ,ijg; ghu;j;j rpj;ju;ngUkhd;> Fuiy ,dpikahf;fp mNj Neuk; fz;bg;gij Nghyele;jJ ele;jpLr;rp> mijNa epidj;J cUfhNj! ,q;Nf kdpjd;fz;Zf;F njupahky; gy ngupatu;fs; tho;e;Jf; nfhz;L,Uf;fpwhu;fs;. mtu;fs; ,ijg; Nghdw nghUl;fisf; fz;lhy;(,urkzp) tplkhl;lhu;fs;. jl;b gwpj;J tpLthu;fs;. ehk jhd;vr;rupf;ifahf ,Uf;fZk;! ,tu;fSf;F ,J Ntiy! cd;ifapypUe;J mtu;fs; ahNuh me;j kzpia gwpj;Jr; nrd;Wtpl;lhu;fs;. Nghfl;Lk; tpL! ,ijtpl rj;jp tha;ej nghUiscdf;F jUfpNwd||> vd;W $wp xU GJ ,urkzpiaf; nfhLj;J-,ijahtJ gj;jpukha; itj;Jf;nfhs; vd;whu;fs;. gf;jpNahLmg;nghUis ngw;Wf;nfhz;Nld;. ed;wp czu;thy; kPz;Lk; vd;fz;fspy; fz;zPu; epiwe;jJ. rpj;ju; ngUkhdpd; rpj;jj;jpy;,uz;lw;ffye;J epw;Fk; fUiz kdk; fz;L> fUizf; flNyvd;W kdJf;Fs; tzq;fpNdd;.

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Ntz;LkhdhYk; jd;id khw;wpf;nfhs;Sthd;. jhd; tho-jhiaAk;nfhy;y JzpAk; cyfpd; nfhba kpUfNk kdpjd; jhd;. kdpjDf;FmQ;rpjhd; ,e;j kpUfq;fSk; kw;w caphpdq;fSk;-ehl;Lgf;fNktuhky; xJq;fp ,g;gb mlh;e;j fhl;Lf;Fs;Ns xspe;J tho;fpd;wd>||vd;W xU ngUk; nrhw;nghopitNa epfo;j;jp Kbj;jhd;. ehd; mre;JNghNdd;. mtd; vt;tsT nghpa cz;ikia nrhy;fpwhd;. ep[khfNt,td; jtrp jhd; vd;W epidj;Njd;. ,td; r%fj;jhy; nfhLikfismjpfkhf mDgtpj;j kdpjdhf ,Ug;ghd;-vd;w KbTf;F te;J 'ePq;fs;vy;yhtw;iwAk; Jwe;J te;jtuhf njhpatpy;iy! VNjh kiwe;Jtho;tJ Nghy; Njhd;WfpwJ|| mijg; gw;wp mtdplk; Nfl;f. mtd;Kfj;jpy; Ntjid gutpaJ> rw;W Neunksdj;jpw;F gpwF ~~Mk;-ePq;fs; epidg;gJ rhpjhd;! ehd; nra;ahj Fw;wj;ij vd; Nky; vd;;cwTf;fhuh;fNs Rkj;jp vd;id mopf;f Kad;whh;fs;! mth;fSf;Ffhty; JiwAk; Jizf;F te;jJ. mth;fsplk; ehd; mfg;gl;lhy;vd; tho;T Kbe;J tpLk;. gzgyj;ij fz;L fhty; JiwNa ryhk;NghLk; NghJ-vdf;F ePjpfpilf;fhJ. ,e;;j kiyapy; vd;idj; Njb-ahUk; tukhl;lhhfs;;. jw;NghJ ,J jhd; vd; fhty; Nfhl;il|| vd;whd;me;j kdpjd;. ehd; Ngr;ir khw;w tpUk;gp ~~Mkhk;> ehk mLj;J NghfNtz;ba GJik yl;Rkp mk;kd; Nfhapy; ,d;Dk; vt;tsT njhiytpy;,Uf;fpwJ|| vd;W tpdtpNdd;! mjw;F me;j jtrp ~~nfhQ;rk; J}uk;jhd;> miu kzp Neuj;jpy; nrd;W tplyhk;||-vd;W nrhd;dhd;. ehd;filrp Kaw;rpf;fhf mtid rphpf;f itf;f Ntz;Lk; vd;W vz;zpmtdplk; ~~Iah jtrp! cq;fsplk; xd;W Nfl;Ngd; jUtPh;fsh?||vd;W Nfl;Nld;.... ~~vd;d NtZk;|| vd;whd; mtd;-~~gzk; vt;tsTNfl;lhYk; jUfpNwd;-xU miufpNyh rphpg;G fpilf;Fkh?|| vd;Nwd;!mij fz;L me;j kiyia Gul;b js;sp tpl;lhh; Nghy; ,Ue;jJvdf;F! mtd; rphpj;jJ. ,q;fpUe;jJ 21/2 kzp Neuk; gazpj;J ehk;Fksp kiyapYs;s nfskhhp NfhtpYf;F mUfpYs;s jNghjd rpj;jh;Fiff;Fr; nrd;Nwhk;. ,f;Fiff;F rpwpJ Jhuj;jpy; N[hjp tpUl;rkpUf;fpwJ.,e;j kuj;ij ntl;bdhy; ghy; tUk;. ,utpy; re;jpudpy;yhj fhyj;jpy;kpd;kpdpg; G+r;rpfs; Xl;bapUg;gJ Nghy; N[hjpkakha;j; Njhd;Wk;.

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Mjpapy; rpj;jh;fs; topgl;l jpUf;NfhapyhFk;;! mUNf XLk;Mw;wq;fiuapy; cs;s tpdhafh; Nfhapypy; G+irfis Kbj;Jf;nfhz;L mk;kd; Nfhapypd; mUfpNyNa md;wpuT jq;fpNdhk;.mq;NfNa rikay; nra;J-,uT-czit Kbj;Jf; nfhz;;Nlhk;.

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ehd; rptdhfTk; ,Ue;Njhk;. tUq;fhyKk; mg;gbNa mikAk;.tpl;l ,lj;ij Njbjhd; kdpj gpwtp fhztUfpwJ. ,njy;yhk;ehk; fhyfhykha; elj;Jk; $j;J! vd;id Nghy; ,g;gb khdpjh;fisve;j KdptUk; mioj;J tu KbahJ. vdf;F rpy Ntiyfs;cz;L. cdf;F fhl;bdhy; gpwF rkak; tUk;NghJ ePNa $l;bnfhs;tha;. 'Gwg;glyhk;" vd;whh;. kPz;Lk; vq;fs; FOtpd; gazk;Jtq;fpaJ. Rkhh; %d;W kzp Neuk; ele;J ehq;fs; Nghf Ntz;ba,lj;ij mile;Njhk;.

mJ xU Fif! mij Rw;wpYk; mofpa G+Q;Nrhiyfs;! tpjtpjkhd kyh; $l;lq;fs;> mUNf xU rpd;d Xil Fsph;e;j ePh;!Fbf;f Fbf;f rypf;fhky; Njthk;Ujkhf Urpj;jJ. me;j Fifapy;MW egh;fs; jhuhskhf jq;fyhk;> kio ntapy; NkNyglhJghJfhg;ghd Fif. ,ij ghj;jJk; ,q;F ahNuh tho;e;jpUf;fNtz;Lk; vd;W Njhd;wpaJ. vd; Iag;ghl;bw;F tpil Njl MrhidehbNdd;. 'rhkp Ms;el khl;lNk ,y;yhj ,e;j ,lj;jpy; ahNuhtho;e;jpUf;fpwhh;fs;. vd;W Njhd;WfpwJ. ,e;j Fifapy; trpj;jth;ahh;?|| vd;W Nfl;Nld;. mjw;F rpj;jh; ngUkhd; tpilahf> 'uh[hmNjh-me;j ghiwapd; mUNf nrd;W ghiwapy; cw;Wghh;! GhpAk;||>vd;whh;fs;. ehd; Mrhd; Mizia rpuNkw; nfhz;L me;j ghiwianeUq;fp cw;W Nehf;fpNdd;. kq;fyhf VNjh NfhLfs; njhpe;jd.vd; Njhspy; fple;j Jz;lhy;-me;j NfhL njhpe;j gFjpiamOj;jpj; Jilj;Njd;. XusT njspthf ghh;f;f Kbe;jJ. mjpy;tPukhKdpth; vd;W nghwpj;jpUe;jJ. mNjhL NkYk; rpyrf;fuq;fSk;> rpy ,ufrpa NfhLfSk; fhzg;gl;ld. te;j Nehf;fk;epiwNtwpa kfpo;r;rpapy; NkYk; mij Ma;T nra;a Neuk; ,y;iy.mNjhL ehk; Ma;T nra;tNj nja;tf;Fw;wk; Nghy vd;cs;Szh;Tk; vd;id fbe;jJ. mjdhy; kPz;Lk; Mrhid mile;JmUfpy; mkh;e;Njd;. Fifapy; ahh; trpj;jhh;fs; vd;w cz;iktpsq;fptpl;lJ. Nfhuf;fh; kiy thflj;jpy; $wpa gb> tPukhKdpth;Fiff;F Nky;gf;fk; tl;lg; gpsitahf Xh; ghiwapUf;fpwJ.me;jg; ghiwf;F Nkw;Nf xU FifapUf;fpwJ. me;jg; Fifapd;Kd;gf;fk; Ms; Eioa Kbahj tz;zk; rpwpajhfTk;> cs;NstprhykhAkpUf;Fk;. mjw;Fs;shf nts;isr;rhuf; Fyq;fs;mt;tplj;J kiyfspYk;> nfe;jkh gUtj;jpYkhf Nka;e;J tUk;.mg;NghJ FifNahukhfapUe;jhy; mJ te;jTlNd “Xk; uq; uq;gL gL” vd cU 1008 n[gpj;J ifapy; gpbj;jhy; ,Jifapyfg;gLk;. mij clNd rhg;gpl;lhy; ml;lkh rpj;jp milayhk;.mJ mfg;glhJ Nghdhy; ,e;j nts;isr; rhuy;fs; mjd; gf;fj;jpy;,Uf;fpw mKh;j Ridapy; Ngha; ePh; Fbg;gjdhNy mjd; rhuk;

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me;j ePhpy; ,wq;fp ,Uf;F khifahy; me;j Ridapd; ePiuehw;gJ ehd; cl;nfhz;lhy; m\;lkhrpj;jpaile;J kuzkpy;yhjpUf;fyhk;. Mdhy; ,e;j kiyf;fhl;by; ,e;j nfha;ah kuj;ijel;L tsh;j;jth;fs; ahh;? vd;w cz;ikawpa cs;sj;jpy; Cuy;vLf;f mJ nrhw;fshf khwp-MrhidNa tpdtpNdd;? mjw;Fmth; nrhy;ypa gjpy; vd;id xU epkplk; rpiyahf;fpaJ. 'uh[h!Kd; nghUfhyj;jpy; mfj;jpa khKdptUld; te;j xU ngz;-,ij el;L tsh;j;jhh;. ,e;j tdk; gpw;fhyj;jpy; KOJk; mope;jNghJ ,e;j nfha;ahkl;Lk; nja;tPf fhuzq;fshy; jg;gpg;gpioj;jJ.vd;whh;!|| ehd; NkYk; mtiu njhy;iyg;glj;j tpUk;ghky;mikjpfhj;Njd;.

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ehd; Mo;e;J NghNdd;. M`h vd;d Mde;jk;! vd;d Mde;jk;!tu;zpf;f thu;j;ijNa ,y;iyNa. fz;ltu; tpz;byu; tpz;ltu;fz;byu;> vd;w gioa nrhy;tof;fpd; cz;ik nghUs; vdf;Fmg;NghJ jhd; tpsq;fpaJ. fz;Nlhu;f;F Vw;gLk; Nguhde;jk; mJfpilf;fg;ngw;w kdpjUf;Nf cupa mDgtk;. mij mg;gbNatpsf;fkhf nrhy;y mtu; Kad;why; Nfl;gtUf;F GupahJ. ru;f;fiu,dpf;Fk;> Ntk;G frf;Fk;> ghf;F Jtu;f;Fk;> vYkpr;ir Gspf;Fk;vd;gnjy;yhk; vy;yh khe;jUk; czu;e;j nghJUrpfs;. Mdhy;,e;j Qhd nja;tPf Urpfs; mg;gbad;W. ,J mtutu; mDgtpj;jhy;jhd; czu KbAk;. nja;tj;ij mjd; rj;jpfis czuj;jhd;KbAk;. xUtd; jd;Ds;Ns czu;e;jpUg;gtid> mtd; jhNdczu KbAk;> fhzKbAk;. mg;gbNa mtd; nrhd;dhYk;> ,td;fij msf;fpwhd; vd;W ek;gkhl;lhu;fs;. ,jdhy;jhd; fz;ltu;tpz;ljpy;iy vd;W $wpdhu;fs;.

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Myaj;ijAk; fhl;b Nfhapy; jpUg;gzpf;fhf cjtpLkhWNtz;bNdd;. mtUk; mjw;fpzq;fp ngUkdj;jpduhf muRepjpapypUe;J NfhapYf;F ,UgJ ,yl;rk; &gha;fis toq;fpdhh;fs;.Mdhy ; Nfhapy ; e ph ;thf pfs ; j pwikAs;sth ;fshfTk ;jh;krpe;jidAilath;fshfTk; ,Uf;f Ntz;baJ mtrpaky;yth!mJ ,y;yhjJ mtyj;jpYk; mtyk;. ,d;W ,iw ek;gpf;if$lgz;lkhw;W NgRtjpy; jhd; tho;fpwJ. ,d;W Nfhapiynfhs;isabf;fpd;whh;fs;. Nfhapy; nrhj;Jf;fis mNdfh;mDgtpf;fpd;wdh;. Ik;nghd;rpiyfis mnkhpf;fhTf;Nf tprh,y;yhky; mDg;gpitf;fpwhh ;fs; . ,e;epiyapy; ahiuf;Fiwnrhy;tJ> fhyk; jhd; ,jw;nfy;yhk; gjpy; nrhy;Yk; ,iwtd;epd;W nrhy;Ygtd; my;yth?

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jpU.,uhkd; mth;fs; me;j gFjpapy; kf;fs; nry;thf;F ngw;wjiyth;! nry;te;jh;! CNu mtUf;F Kjy; khpahij nfhLj;Jmth; nrhy;Yf;Fr; nray;gl;lJ. ,jdhy; jq;fs; jiyth;> gpur;rpidFwpa Nfhapypy; ,utpNy jq;fg;Nghfpwhh; vd;wwpe;J mr;rg;gl;lhh;fs;.Mr;rhpag;gl;lhh;fs;. me;j Nfhapy; ngUk;jh;kthdhd> ngq;fSh;jpU.fhe;jp vd;gthpd; ngUKaw;rpapy; fl;lg;gl;l NfhapyhFk;. mJjpUkhYiwAk; NfhapyhFk;. Myaj;jpw;F nrd;W Mz;ltidj;njhOJ md;W ,uT me;j NfhapypNyNa gLj;J cwq;fpNdd;.mq;F tof;fkhf ahiuAk; mDkjpg;gjpy;iyahk;> Mdhy;Ch;j;jiythpd; nry;thf;fhy; jhd; ehq;fs; mDkjpf;fg;gl;Nlhk;.

mre;J J}q;fpatd;> ahNuh Ngrpf;nfhz;Nl tUk; rj;jk; Nfl;Lcwf;fk; fiye;J ghh;j;Njd;. ,utpd; ,Uis jtpu vJTk;njd;gltpy;iy. iff;fbfhuj;ij ghh;j;Njd;. eLeprp fbfhuj;jpd;,uz;L Kl;fSk; gpd;dpg; gpize;jthW gd;dpnuz;L vd;w,yf;fj;ij njhl;L epd;wd. NgRk;rj;jk; epd;W tpl;lJ. kPz;Lk;epj;jpiuiaj; Njb ,ikfis %bNdd;. mg;NghJ ntF mUfpNy',q;F ahNuh Gjpath;fs; cwq;Ffpwhh;fs; vd;W xU Fuy; xypj;jJ.me;jf; Fuiy ,ilkwpg;gJ Nghy; kw;nwhU Fuy; Ntz;lhk;,th;fs; jiyahl;b rpj;jhpd; rPlh; uh[;FkhuDld; te;jpUf;fpwhh;fs;.xd;Wk; nra;ahNj th vd;W fl;lisapl;lJ. mr;rj;jpy; ehd;fz;;fis ,Uf %bf; nfhz;Nld;.

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fhiyapy; fz;tpopj;jJk; vdf;F ,utpy; Vw;gl;l mDgtj;;ijf;$wpNdd;. ,ij Nfl;l jpU. ,uhkd; jhKk; me;j mDgtj;ijmile;jjhf $wpdhh;. ,jdhy; jhd; cq;fis Ntz;lhk; vd;WjLj;Njd; vd;Wk; ehq;fSk; jg;gpNdhk;> Jzpe;J nrd;wth;fs;mile;j fjpfisAk;> $wp ,itfis ehd; Nfs;tpjhd;gl;bUf;fpNwd;. ,d;W cq;fshy; ,e;j mDgtk; fpilj;jJ vd;whh;.,ijf; Nfl;lJk; me;j ,lj;ijg; gw;wp NkYk; mwpa mthnfhz;Nld;.

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,g;gb nja;tk; epiwe;j G+kpapy; kf;fs; me;j nja;tPfj;ijNakwe;J tpl;ldh;. Kd;ngy;yhk; kf;fSk; vOj;jhsh;fSk;>ftpQh;fSk;> gpw;fhyj;jpy; jpiug;glq;fspd; Jtf;f fhyq;fspYk;VjhtJ cjhuzk; nrhy;tjdhy; $l Guhz rk;gtq;fisAk;,jpfhr ehaf> ehafpaiuj;jhd; gad;gLj;jpf; nfhs;Sthh;fs;.cjhuzj;Jf;Fr; nrhd;dhy; Nrhjpl ghly;fspy; rpytw;iw ,q;F$wNtz;baJ mtrpakhfpwJ. jPjpyhnjhU> %d;wpy; JhpNahjdd;gil khz;lJk;> n[d;kuhkh; tdj;jpNy rPijia rpiw itj;jJk;gj;jpy; tpahod; te;j NghJ gukd; kz;il Xl;il gj;jpukhfnfhz;L gpl ;rhlduhdhh ; esd; Voiur; rdpahy; muRkidtpkf;fis ,oe;J> jd; mofpa cUtj;ijAk; ,oe;JNjh;g;ghfdha;g; gzpahw;wpaJ> Nghd;witfisf; Fwpg;gplyhk;.

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mtNd mtNd vd;gjw;F gjpyhf rptNd! rptNd-vd;W$wpdhy; ,iwtd; ehkj;ij cr;rhpj;j Gz;zpak; fpilf;Fk;vd;W jhd; ek; Kd;Ndhh;fs; ,iwtd;> ,iwtpapd; jpUehkq;fiskf;fSf;F ,l;L mth;fis miof;Fk; NghJ mth;fis mwpahky;nja;tj;jpd; jpUehk rq;fPh;j;jdj;ij ,irj;J te;jdh;. Mdhy;,d;W mitfs; mehfhPfkhf my;yth vz;zg;gLfpd;wd. md;Wgps;isf;F Guhz ,jpfhr ePjp E}y;fisr; nrhy;ypf; nfhLj;jhh;fs;.Ie;jpy; tisahjJ Ik;gjpy; tisAkh? vd;Wk; mr;RWj;jp mwk;nra tpUk;G> MWtJ rpdk;> Iak; ,l;L cz;> Vw;gJ ,fo;r;rp>kjpahjhh; jiythry; kpjpahikf; NfhbAWk; vd;nwy;yhk;ghbitj;jdh;. mitfis muRk;; kjpf;ftpy;iy. ngw;Nwhh;fSk;epidf;ftpy;iy. ,d;W gps;isfs; Mq;fpy ghly;fis iuk;vd;w ngahpl;L ghLfpwhh;fs.; nfhs;is mbj;J mbikahf;fpatdpd;Mq;fpy ngaiu my;yth Muhjpf;fpd;whh;fs;. mwpTf;F fy;tpvd;gJ Ngha; gzj;jpw;F fy;tp vd;W ,sk; Foe;ijfis Gj;jf%l;il J}f;fp KJnfYk;ig tisj;Jf; nfhz;bUf;fpd;wd. ,jid,jdhy; ,td; Kbf;Fk; vd;wha;e;J mjid mtd; fz;tply;vd;W nrhd;dhNd ts;Std;. Mdhy; ,d;W vd;d elf;fpwJ.ngw;Nwhhpd; kPJk; mijgps;isfspd; kPJ jpzpf;fg;gLfpwJ.

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RUsp kiy Njdp khtl;lj;jpy; cs;s fk;gj;jpy; cs;sJ.,J RUsp Ntyg;gupd; Mjp];jyk; MFk;. nja;tk; epd;W NgRk;,lKk; MFk;. RUsp kiyapd; ngUikia mbNad; rpj;ju;ngUkhDld; Nru;e;J kiyg; gazq;fs; nra;J mEgtpj;Njd;.xt;nthU ij g+rKk; FUflhf;Ñk; ngw ve;j kiyfSf;Fgfthd; = fhfKdptu; miof;fpwhNuh ,t;tplk; mbNad; clNdmkhthir> ngsu;zkp md;W nry;tJ tof;fk;.

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tPl;bw;F mioj;J nrd;W ,l;lyp nra;J nfhLj;jhu;fs;. mk;ghisRw;wp gr;ir epw ghk;Gfs; fhzg;gl;ld.

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Mdhy;> ,Jtiu mg;gb ve;j MizaUk;> ke;jpupAk;>cz;ikahf mq;F Nghdjha; vd; ,UgJ tUl tuyhw;wpy; fpilahJ.

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vd; nrhe;j ciog;gpy; ,k;kiyapd; rpwg;ig MbNah Nf];l; %yk;nfhLj;Njd;. mijf; $l ntspapl epu;thf mjpfhupf;F Kba tpy;iy.

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ve ;jf ; nfhk ; gdha ; ,Ue ;j hYk ; > jUkj ;ijf ;nfLj;jtDf;Fj; Jiz Nghdtd; rjpfhughtpNa! ,e;J rkamwepiya Ml;rpj;Jiw Mizauplk; ,e;j kiyiaf; fhl;bNdd;.mtUld; ,Ue;j me;j Vrpf;fs; ,g;NghJ N[rpf;fshf cs;sdu;.mtu;fis gw;wp mbNad; NgRtjpy; gpuNah[dk; vJTk; ,y;iy.mg;NghJ jpBu; kio! kf;fs; mq;Fk; ,q;Fk; Xbdu;! fhiyf;flid fopf;f Kbahky; vz;gJ taJ %jhl;b mq;NfNacl;fhu;e;J fhy; fOtj; jz;zPu; ,y;yhky; gl;l f~;lj;ijfz;l fkp~du; fz;zpy; fz;zPu; te;jJ. mq;F ,Uf;Fk; D.C.fdfa;ahtplk; kf;fs; jq;Ftjw;F jho;Tf;; nfhl;lif NghlTk;>nfhQ;rk; J}uk; js;sp 50 Ngu; jq;ff; fl;blk; fl;lTk;> fopg;gplk;>nghpa jz;zPu; njhl;b xd;W ngupaJ itf;fTk;> re;jd kfhypq;fkiyapy; kf;fs; rWf;fp fPNo tpOfpwhu;fs; vd;gjhy; - mq;FxU gbf;fl;L fl;lTk; vd;W tpz;zg;gpj;Njd;. mq;F tUk;yl;rf;fzf;fhd kf;fSf;F mt;tplk; cs;s Mrpukq;fs;,ytrkha; md;djhdk; NghLfpd;wd. epu;thf mjpfhupNahkq;fshGup khkd;dd; Nghy; vijAk; ftdpg;gjpy;iy. ahuhtJngupa mjpfhup te;jhy; kl;Lk; guj ehl;ba lhd;]; MLtJ xUgf;fk;: mirtkhd fWg;gz;z Rthkpf;F kJf;filfs;> rhuhaghf;fl;Lfs; tpw;fg;gLtJk; vd Gdpjkhd rJh;fpup kfhypq;fkiyapy; elf;fpd;w J~;lkhd nra;iffs; jiytpupj;J MLfpd;wd.

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,e;j gjtp mnkupf;f [dhjpgjp gjtpiatplg; kpfg; ngupaJ.mbNad; ,e;j ,lj;ijf; fhl;ltpy;iy vd;why; ePq;fs; vg;gb,q;F tuKbAk;? clNd MizapLq;fs;. jUkk; nra;gtiuj;jLf;f ,q;F ,Uf;Fk; epu;thfp ahu;? vd;Nwd;.

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\\ahuha; ,Ue;jhy; vdf;F vd;d? mtuJ Nghd; ek;gu; nfhLq;fs;||vd;Nwd;. khiy 4 kzpf;F mtuplk; uh[;Fkhu; Rthkpfs; NgRfpNwd;vd;Nwd;.

\\,iwtdpd; Miz! ePq;fs; Mb mkhthir rJufpup kfhypq;fk;kiyf;F tu Ntz;Lk;|| vd;Nwd;.

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vdJ gioa JzpfisAk; N[hy;dh igfisAk; ghu;j;J>\\uh[Fkhu; Rthkpfs; tutpy;iyah?|| vd;whu;. \\mbNad; jhd;||vd;Nwd;. Mr;rupag;gl;lhu;. \\ePq;fs; jq;fKk; ituKk; n[hypf;fVNjh uh[ fk;gPukha; tUtPu;fs; vd;W epidj;Njd;. ePq;fs; VNjhxd;Wk; ,y;yhj guNjrp Nghy; Ntlk; mzpe;J te;jpUg;gJk; ehd;Nfs;tpg;gl;lJk; Mr;rupakha; ,Uf;fpwJ|| vd;whu;.

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\\mg;gbah?|| vd;W Mr;rupag;gl;ltu; bf;fl; gzk; nfhLj;Jbf;fl; vLj;jhu;. mbNad; ,uz;lhk; tFg;gpy; gazk; nra;tjhy;mtUk; mjpNyNa tUtjha; $wpdhu;. mbNad;jhd; \\Ntz;lhk;>,iwtd; cq;fSf;Ff; nfhLj;j cau;e;j gjtpf;Fj; jFe;jhw;Nghy; Nt~k; NghL;q;fs;|| vd;Nwd;.

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vd;W $g;gpl! vy;NyhUk; gazk; MNdhk;. kfh rf;jp tha;e;jkiyapy; mwepiyaj; Jiw nfhQ;rk; $l rhJf;fis kjpg;gJ ,y;iy.

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Fj;jif Coy;> Myaj;jpw;F gR> ML> Nfhop Neu;j;jpfld; tpl;lhy;mjidAk; Vyk; tpl;L ghtpfs; ghtj;ij Rke;J ,j;jidNgu;fSila fu;kq;fis ,tu;fs; FLk;gk; gpwtp gpwtpaha;mDgtpf;fpwJ. ,e;j Kl;lhs;fSf;F ,g;NghJ vJ nrhd;dhYk;VwNt VwhJ. mjw;F cjhuzk; nrhy;fpNwd;.

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Vw;W rpj;ju; ngUkhd; mtuJ Mrpukk; Nghf mq;F ukzp FU[prpj;jUf;F gd;dPUld; ghj g+i[ nra;J tuNtw;whu;.

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fy;ahzk; Mdtiu ,y;ywj;jhd; vd;Wk;> Mfhjtiugpuk;kr;rhup vd;Wk; miog;ghu;fs;. jd;Dila mwpitf; fhf;fNt>jiyfs; rhfh jiyfshf ,Uf;f Ntz;Lk;> vd;gjw;fhfNt re;jjpNtz;Lk;> vd;w Nehf;fj;jpy; rpj;ju;fs; jpUkzk; nra;J nfhz;lhu;fs;.

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mbNad; rpWtajpy; jpUmz;zhkiyapy; cs;s nrhe;jf;fhuu;tPl;Lf;F mbf;fb nry;Ntd;. mg;NghJ xUKiw vdf;F xUrhJ yl;L xd;iwf; nfhLj;jhu;. tptuk; Gupahj rpWtajhf,Ue;jhYk;> vdf;Fk; fhtp Ntl;b fl;ba rhJfSf;Fk; VNjhxU tifapy; njhlu;G ,Uf;fj;jhd; nra;fpwJ vd;gij mbNad;czUfpNwd;.

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,tu;fspy; rpyu; rhFk; tiu Nfhapy;> Fsk;> mUs;thf;F>N[hjplk; vd mioj;J> ke;jputhjpfsplk; jfL thq;fp> Vkhe;NjVf;fj;NjhL fhyj;ij Kbj;Jf;nfhs;thu;fs;.

nka;ad;gu;fNs! vd; FU kfh Kdptu; gfthd; = fhfG[z;lu;kfup\pia jpUghjk; tzq;fp mtuJ cj;juT gb $WfpNwd;.

mtNuhL ,d;W tiu 25 tUlk; vt;tpj ,d;dy;fs; Nrhjid>cyf rk;ke;jkhf> cly; rk;ke;jkhf te;jhYk;> midj;ijAk;

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kdjstpy; cjwp js;sptpl;L md;Ng rptkhd FUtpd; cj;juTgbXusthtJ ,d;W tiu KO kdJld; nray;gLfpd;Nwd;.

,f;fhyj;jpy; xUtu; ,y;ywj;J Qhdpahf ,Uf;f Ntz;Lk;vd;why; gj;jhapuk; Kiw Nguuru;fshf ,Ue;jtu;fNs ,g;gjtpf;Ftu KbAk;.

,tu;fs; epidj;j Neuj;jpy; ghjhsk; Kjy; NkNyhfq;fs;midj;Jk; Ngha; tu Mw;wy; gilj;jtu;fs;.

,tu;fspd; el;Ng cau;T jUk;. kw;wtu;fs; el;ngy;yhk; ngha;>ngha;Na jhd;.

~~mwpe;J thohjtd; tho;f;if tPo;tJ vj;jUzNkh~~

fUizAk;> <ifAk;> mikjpAk;> rhe;jKk; ,y;yhj ghtpfs;FUtpd; ngUik mwpaNt KbahJ.

~~mwpahj ghtpf;F Qhdk; VJ? mwpe;jtu; Nfhbf;F xUtu; cz;L~~

rpdpkhf;fhuu;fisAk;> murpay;thjpfisAk;> KjyhspfisAk;,ja nja;tk; vd;W nrhy;Yk; kdpjd; vf;fhyj;jpYk; nja;tj;ijmilaNt KbahJ.

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VNjh Fz;lyp rj;jpia vOg;g ,e;j gapw;rp kpf kpf Kf;fpak;vd;whu;.

rpdpkh Jiwapy; mbNad; gzp nra;Jf; nfhz;bUe;j NghJ(vq;fs; tPL) jhk;guk; nry;tjw;F jp. efupypUe;J uapypy; Gwg;gl;LNghFk; tiu VjhtJ Gj;jfk; gbg;Ngd;. mg;NghJ jp.efu; uapy;Nt];Nl\dpy; Fz;lyp Nahfk; vd;w Gj;jfj;ij xU kfhd; vOjp,Ug;gij gbj;J ek; clypy; cs;s rf;fuq;fisAk;> mjd;glq;fisAk; fz;L Mr;rupak; mile;Njd;. mij gbj;j NghJ,dpNky; ,e;j n[d;kj;jpy; Fz;lyp rf;jp vOg;gKbahJ> ve;jFUit Njb gd;dpnuz;L tUlk; gzp nra;J tho;ehis Xl;LtJvd;W rpe;jidfs; gythW XbaJ.

murpay;thjpNahL rpdpkhfhud;fsplk; #dpak;> #o;r;rp> fhf;fhgpbg;gJ> ngha;> Vkhw;W Ntiy midj;Jk; ,Ue;jhy; jhd; tho KbAk;.

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mjdhy; jhd; rpdpkhf;fhuu;fs; rPf;fpuk; murpaYf;F te;JMl;rp gpbj;J Rtp]; Ngq;fpy; Nfhb> Nfhbaha; Nghl;L itf;fpwhh;fs;.xNu gl;ldpy; rhk;gy; gTluhf clk;G nte;JtpLk; vd;W njupe;jhy;nghJkf;fis fz; Nghy; fhg;ghu;fNs.

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vdf;F vJ fpilj;jhYk; clNd fpilf;f Ntz;Lk;. ,y;iyvd;why; ek;gkhl;Nld;. rup! rup! ePq;fs; $Wk; me;j mjpra Qhd%ypifia vdf;Ff; nfhQ;rk; nfhLq;fs; vd;Nwd;.

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%ypifg; nghbia rhg;gpl;lTld; vd; fz;fs; ,uz;Lk; vd;GUtkj;jpapy; yapj;jd. ehd; gy;NtW tpjkhd fhl;rpfisf; fhzj;njhlq;fpNdd;. mf;fhl;rpfspy; tpjtpjkhd gwitfs;> kpUfq;fs;>g+f;fs;> g+e;Njhl;;lq;fs; Mfpad fhdg;gl;ld. rpdpkhg; glk; ghu;g;gJNghy; ,Ue;jJ. ehd; njhlu;e;J GUt kj;jpapy; Nehf;fpNdd; vd; kdjpy;xU Vf;fk;> Jd;gk; Vw;gl;lJ. ehd; Vd; gpwe;Njd;? vdJ kdk; nefpo;e;jJ.ehd; moj;njhlq;fpNdd;. xU miukzp NeukhtJ mOjpUg;Ngd;.vd; fz;fspYk; ehrpapYk; ePu; ngUfp Xlj; njhlq;fpaJ. vd; kdJ,yFthdJ Nghy; czu;e;Njd;. njhlu;e;J GUt kj;jpap;y; Nehf;fpaNghJ vd; kdJ mz;lj;jpy; gpuahdk; nra;aj; njhlq;fpaJ.,J Nghy; njhlu;e;J 3 kzpj;jpah yq;fs; ,Ue;j vdf;F Vw;gl;l,dpa nja;tPf mDgtj;ij nrhy;Ytjw;F thu;j;ijfs; NghjhJ.

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xU Kiw ehd; rpq;fg;g+u; flw;fiuapy; eluh[hde;j ghghTld;jpahdk; nra;j NghJ mtu; vd;dplk; ~~FU ehjh ek; jt rj;jpahy;fly;khjh ekf;F Mrp toq;Ftij vg;gb czu KbAk;|| vd;whu;.mbNad;> ~~Vd;? czuyhNk||> vd;Nwd;. ~~ePNa nrhy; vg;gbczu;e;jhy; eP xg;Gf; nfhs;tha;||> vd;Nwd;. jpBnud;W thdj;jpy;Nghfu; ngUkhd; fUld; tbtpy; tl;lkpl;lhu;. rup ,q;F VNjhelf;fg; NghfpwJ. ,tu; NtW rq;flkhd Nfs;tp Nfl;Ltpl;lhu;>vd czu;e;Njd;. FUNt rhl;rp vd;W ,tu; vd;d Gjpu; Nghlg;Nghfpwhu; vd;W fhj;jpUe;Njd;. vd;id Nrhjpg;gJ Nghy; Rthkpeluh[hde;ju; ~~FUehjh ehk; jtk; nra;jij fly;khjh Vw;Wf;nfhz;lhy;> fly; miy epw;f Ntz;Lk;~~> vd;whu;. mbNad;Mbtpl;Nld;. ~~rup mjdhy; cdf;nfd;d yhgk;~~ vd;Nwd;. jpBu;vd;W MW mb ePsk; cs;s ru;g;gk; vq;fisj; jhz;b tpu; vd;WNgha; tpl;lJ. mtDf;F XU Mr;rupak; Kfj;jpy; njupe;jJ.mbNad; fz;Lnfhs;stpy;iy. ~~rup fly; miy epd;why; cdf;Frf;jp te;jJ> vd;W njupa Ntz;Lk; mt;tsT jhNd||> vd;WvOe;J FUit epidj;J ,td; fz;fSf;F miy epw;gJ Nghy;njupaNtz;Lk;> ,y;iy> ehd; rpq;fg;g+iu tpl;L Nghf Ntz;Lk;>vd;W KDKDj;J ke;jpuk; nrhy;tJ Nghy; nfhQ;rk; fly;jz;zPiu mth; Kfj;jpy; njspj;Njd;.

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~~FUehjh> FUehjh||> vd;whd; vd;dntd;W Nfl;Nld; ~~Mr;rupak;%d;W el;rj;jpuk; flYf;Fs; GFe;J fly; miy epd;wJ> vd;

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fz;fSf;F njupe;j NghJ me;j %d;W el;rj;jpuKk; vd;cs;sj;jpy; GFe;Jtpl;lJ||> vd;whd;.

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~~vd;dhy; Kbe;jtiu jUkj;jpy; kf;fis <LgLj;jp ed;iknra;aNt te;Js;Nsd;. cz;ikahd Nrkpg;G vJ vq;F Nru;f;fNtz;LNkh mq;Nf vdf;F mUs; epiwe;J nfhz;bUf;fpwJ.nka;nghUSk; Nru;e;J nfhz;bUf;fpwJ. vd; g+khNjtp jha; vdf;FNtz;ba ,lj;ij Nju;e;njLj;Jf; nfhLg;ghs;. ,d;Dk; nfhQ;rfhyk; Nghdhy; epiwa ,lq;fs; fhypahf ,Uf;Fk;. ,jpy; Ml;fs;,Uf;fkhl;lhu;fs;. njd;dpe;jpahtpy; kpfg;ngupa mstpy; g+fk;gk;cz;L. mJ Kbe;j gpwF jhd; xU ,lj;ij ,iwtd; mku;j;jpnfhLg;ghu;. vd; ,lk; vdf;Fj; njupAk;. me;j ,lj;jpy; rpyrhj;jhd;fs; GFe;J vd;id mq;F tutplhky; jUkk; nra;atplhky;jLf;fpwJ~~> vd;Nwd;.

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mnjy;yhk; KbahJ> vd;W rpq;fg;g+upy; fPo; jsj;jpy; %d;Wngl;&k; nrhe;j tPl;il tpw;Wtpl;L Jiwa+u; GspaQ;Nrhiyapy; 5yl;rk; ml;thd;]; nfhLj;J ,lk; thq;fp ~~mUl;ngUk; N[hjpkfh rpj;ju;fs; M];ukk;|| vd;w ngaupy; njhlq;fpdhu; rpq;ifuh[hRthkpfs;.

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gyu; czuhjJ vdf;F Ntjid mspj;jhYk;> czu;e;jtu;fs;$l czuKbatpy;iy jhd; vd;Ngd;! Vd; vd;why; rpj;jupld;tUk;NghNj MirAld; tUfpwtu;fs; Mirg;gl;L jhNd Nghthu;fs;!mJNghy; jhd; tptuj;NjhL te;jtu;fs; mwpaf;$ba Md;kpfyhgj;ij mila Kbahky; Nghdtu;fs; NghNa Nru;e;jdu;.

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mk;kiyapy; ,Ug;gij czu;e;Njd;. Mdhy; VidNahu; nrd;why;me;j rf;jp vJTk; nra;tJ ,y;iy.

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cly; Ntu;j;J nfhl;LtJkha; ,Ue;jJ. clNd rpq;fg;g+u; md;gu;g+j uh[h tz;bia vLj;J nfhz;L vd; kidtpAld; jpUr;rpapy;xU kUj;Jtkidf;Fr; nrd;wJk;> ml;lhf; te;jpUf;fpwJ rupahdNeuj;jpy; te;jPu;fs; vd;W $wp IC thu;l;by; Nghl;L tpl;ldu;.

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nfhLj;jhYk; ,k;kiyapy; kdpjd; jq;f khl;lhd;. Mdhy; vdf;Fcgj;jputk; nfhLf;fhj Ml;fNs ,y;iy! ,t;tplk; nja;tgzpfis nra;tij fz;l Njtu;fSk;> %tu;fSk; vd;idg;Nghw;wpdu;. Mdhy; xd;WNk Gupahj gzk; jhd; tho;f;if vd;Wtho;fpw rpy kdpjFyk; nrhy;nyhz;zh JauKk;> f\;lKk;>Jd;gKk; nra;jdu;.

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V. N. SeetharamCultural Historian,India.

Divinity has become a saleable and highly sought after commoditywith a plethora of Gurus of all types of ethnicity, religious, linguistic andcultural background donning the garb of spiritual masters.

As an academic and cultural Historian, I have been wary of peoplewho continue to exploit the gullible and weak minded with someknowledge of the scriptures and a smattering of Sanskrit which conferssome degree of authenticity and reverence. Impeccable English withan accent adds value for the colonial minded anglophiles. Added to allthese you have a whole band of clowns parading with their hallmarkidentity. Some cover themselves up with thick material like bed sheetsand invariably a turban to adorn their grey tresses. Some wear a bandround their head and yet some others expose their bare body with asilken ochre shawl so that their manly torso could be admired. Invariablymost of them conduct some sort of bhajans so that the crowd can jointhem and go into fits of ecstasy and experience collective orgasm.Collective chanting and musical extravaganza is a must to churn updelusions and frenzy. The Indian free market is full of such self styledGurus and it is a growing market where the demand and supply situationis well studied.

People who lack other skills can easily adopt and subsequentlybecome adept in converting their ability and facility to be glib inconversations, become a money spinner for their greed and luxury whichotherwise could not have been satiated. Spirituality is a vast and nichemarket waiting to be exploited to the hilt and our present day stageplayers are doing just that.

It is in such a world that I have come across a person like RajkumarSwamigal. The transparency and simplicity of this man is so refreshinglydifferent from the rest in the crowded market. He has no pretensionsand -the power of his personality and his towering presence exudes a

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sense of true religiosity and adding to all these is his self deprecatinghumour which endears him to one and all.

The Siddha Rajkumar has no hidden agenda and his life style is hismessage. There is no dichotomy in him. He is verily the same person indeed and thought. A person of immense compassion and love which isinfectious he has the single purpose and commitment Of providing foodto the needy poor which is a noble agenda by itself. He has imbibed theessence of existence from his Guru Thalayatti Siddhar whose life wasan open book. The Siddha Rajkumar Swamigal captivates you with hisinner glow. Devoid of glittering sophistication and no knowledge ofEnglish to parade and a raw sort of colloquial Tamil dialect the Swamiwith his innocent charm and genuine curiosity to learn more inspiresadmiration and reverence. A person who is true to himself gatherspeople as the honey that attracts bees. The Siddha has a glorious set ofadmirers around many countries due to his natural goodness and concernfor the afflicted humanity.

It is because of this concern and love he strives so hard to procurerare herbs from distant hills to make siddha medicines a secret whichhe has learnt from his noble guru and mentor ThalayattiSiddhar.Rajkumar Swamigal is indeed a rare person in this bazaar ofspiritual and intellectual duplicity. He lives in the remote village nearPerambalur near Trichy shunning comforts and other much sought aftermaterial comforts. His mission is to feed people and to bring succorthrough his efforts, he is also deeply involved with the education of thetribal children and more can be learnt about the activities of his trustthrough the web site.

Experience in Brammarishi HillsKali Baba Neil Pemberton, New Zealand.

“Having travelled from Mukthinath Temple high in the Himalayasof Nepal to Varanasi, then to Brammarishi Hills for Raja Kumar Swamithe divine experiences just kept getting better and the glow of

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knowingness just got more abundant. I say knowingness because youcannot conceptualize this experience as that would humanize the Divinity.One knows all the characteristics and features of an orange, but onceyou have tasted the nectar of an orange you no longer have to see,smell or feel the orange. You know by inner experience that it is anorange.

You should experience the divine ones of Brammarishi Hills in theastral bodies, as light beings, who by their grace may give their darshan,as happened for me in the holy fire there where mantra and offeringsthrough Agni Devi were able to call the astral form of the living Siddhasin the area. If you do not get the darshan you will know by the palpablechange in energy as the holy chants quicken as the energies are amplifiedby their presence.

Collectively we have not the divinity to hold them in that state forlong, so it is brief that they lower their vibration for our awareness. Butto know that they are there to guide and help is blessing enough.

We leave footprints on this earth and they lighten our burden if weawaken to their help. Blessed are those who believe and trust in divineguidance for grace will shine through their lives. This grace comesthrough love and compassion to all beings as we at most show this inour lives as a sadhana”.

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